I thought this warranted its own thread... Our own Blonde AF Ambition wrote and I [quote=
POLL: How many times have you guys all tried and failed to quit and what was the last straw to keep you sober?
Blondie
Good poll, Blondie, I tried and failed for about 3 or 4 years. Everytime i tried, i had it in the back of my mind that I might start again, when "I felt better". When I started up again, after a month or less, I told myself, ok, eegit, lets just do this like when you were years younger and it was like ONCE a month I might drink something. And always moderation would get less and less like real moderation. Every time I would just find myself hung over AGAIN, trying to do something I wanted to do but couldnt because of my state.
The last straw was sitting in my chair in the living room, the Hub was on his way up the stairs knowing not to disturb me, and me looking at a half full glass of wine and thinking. Fuck what a chore this is. Its just a CHORE to finish this. I think it was only a third glass of the evening (no matter my glasses were the size of FLAGONS...). I sighed, got up, walked in to the kitchen, tossed it and what was left of the bottle down the sink, looked at my tired, baggy, pale face in the mirrow in the hall, and said 'Kaslo, yer done."
Have not touched a drop since then, Feb 14, 2011.
PS Greeneyes, I didnt move your response, but Yall can read it on the end of Wednesdays thread.
POLL: How many times have you guys all tried and failed to quit and what was the last straw to keep you sober?
Blondie
Good poll, Blondie, I tried and failed for about 3 or 4 years. Everytime i tried, i had it in the back of my mind that I might start again, when "I felt better". When I started up again, after a month or less, I told myself, ok, eegit, lets just do this like when you were years younger and it was like ONCE a month I might drink something. And always moderation would get less and less like real moderation. Every time I would just find myself hung over AGAIN, trying to do something I wanted to do but couldnt because of my state.
The last straw was sitting in my chair in the living room, the Hub was on his way up the stairs knowing not to disturb me, and me looking at a half full glass of wine and thinking. Fuck what a chore this is. Its just a CHORE to finish this. I think it was only a third glass of the evening (no matter my glasses were the size of FLAGONS...). I sighed, got up, walked in to the kitchen, tossed it and what was left of the bottle down the sink, looked at my tired, baggy, pale face in the mirrow in the hall, and said 'Kaslo, yer done."
Have not touched a drop since then, Feb 14, 2011.
PS Greeneyes, I didnt move your response, but Yall can read it on the end of Wednesdays thread.
after court and it was never reported in NH. I only started driving after seeing a NH attorney a guy in AA recommended. It had not been reported in NH and I could have been driving all along. So I started driving and two months later got the NH DUI. I have to send a monthly report to MA probabtion officer, and the police chief here, Barny Fife (thanks, Turn!) took it upon himslef to call her while I was in rehab. I called her from rehab, and she said she wasn't sure what this would mean in MA. Sent my report for Jan and Feb and have heard nothing from her. 
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