Hi Mylife!
Thanks for posting here. We have lots in common with out drinking backgrounds...I also came on to MWO around the same time...well, a bit later as I first joined early 2011 (January) and I agree that just being a member as made me cut down...even made it almost 3 months last winter. So the site is working! This is about the 4th time since I came here that I am trying to quit. The last times I wasn't resolved to quit for good but this time is different. I am visualizing myself as a sober person in a year...like I can actually go on a vacation and not drink. Or go out to dinner and not drink. Or get together at a holiday gathering and not drink. Things that have really helped this time are my new workout routine (joined a gym on January 31st and have been going 6 days a week for at least an hour at time), really wanting sobriety instead of just "hoping" for it. And like you, the physical toll of AL, the bloodshot eyes and puffy face, etc., etc., was really waring on me, now that I am getting older. Also, I'm reading everything I can get my hands on about others who have gone sober and stuck with it, and that is helpful too.
Each passing day that I remain sober makes me stronger, and for that, I thank all of you here
then got totally disgusted with myself after having a drunken conversation with my soon-to-be son's mother-in-law and decided to quit January 3, 2011. Went almost 5 months and thought I would be fine to have a "few" glasses of wine at a wedding - last summer was back to the same old routine. I started getting back into my church last fall and guess I felt like a liar every Sunday praying to God to try to quit drinking and never really meaning it. January 2, 2012 - decided I was done. Praying I'm done for good this time. Now when I think of having a glass of wine, it doesn't seem as enjoyable as I know what's always on the other side - feeling like crap the next day. Not worth it anymore and I'm finding life is much, much more enjoyable without it. For me there are no longer short-term goals or thinking that I might be able to just drink at social occasions - it's all or nothing and I think it's finally sunk thru my thick skull that it's really just poison and I have no desire to pour that shit down my throat anymore.
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