Friday January 19th

[Andy1111]

Friday January 19th

Hey gang,
Day 5 for me. Last time I went AF for two weeks, I felt really good at the beginning (probably because I knew I would go back to drinking). But this time around is way different. I am depressed. Crying a little everyday, but I think this is good because this is finally REAL to me. I am depressed about losing the ability to drink, but each day gets a little better. I am so tired from fighting it, but I do believe these feelings I am having are good because I know this is it. Also, this time around I told friends and family about my problem --- I can't tell you how much that helps. I rec that to anyone on this board.
This weekend shouldn't be too bad because I have it in my mind: I am alergic to alcohol. I will die if I continue to drink. I will lose my house, job, wife, family and friends. I'll lose my memories.

And on a brighter note, my favorite football team (American) is back in the AFC championship game this weekend so I am super pumped about that!

[Java]

Friday January 19th

Hey Andy, I am using the same thing, I am convincing myself I am allergic to alcohol!!! Best to you!! (who are you rooting for??)

Victoria

[Birdman]

Friday January 19th

Good luck

Andy,

I hope your favorite team wins this weekend and gets to compete against mine in the Superbowl.

You guys are the best medicine and therapy I could ever hope for.

Here's to one more AF day.

Don't let the bastard win.

Birdman

[DogLvr]

Friday January 19th

Struggles

I was going great on a 15 day AF streak and ended up having 1.5 glasses of wine on Weds and Thurs. I like the advice to just jump back on - it is too tempting to say since I failed I might was well give up again. I'm jumping back on AF solely because I check into this site and see that I am not alone in this.

Have a great weekend everyone.

[Lou]

Friday January 19th

Hi guys...
Late post for me today as iv been attempting to put fences back up after the gales last night.....you wouldnt believe the devistation it caused...for this country that is v rare.
Anyways i hope you are all well today my little abs buddies...day 11 for me hoo bloddy rah!!!! Thank god im having a good day!!!

Loves to all

Lou-Lou x x x

[Andy1111]

Friday January 19th

Birdman and Newgrl,
I am a Patriots fan!!!

[Java]

Friday January 19th

okay, well, i am rooting for either the colts or the saints, I was a patriots fan a couple of years ago but this time i have to step out, I was a Peyton Manning fan for his first ten games then he kind of blew it, but i believe that was mostly in part to their rush defense, so i have to cut him slack for that. I am a Saints fan not out of any loyalty but simply because i watched their games and got hooked, I like the patriots but i thought this last weeks performance regardless of the win was less than spectacular. We will see, all I can say it I love football!

[Newyear]

Friday January 19th

Congrats Lou and to everyone else celebrating a milestone today :goodjob:
I'm getting closer to the 3 month mark now..that will be on 1/25. I have learned a lot in the past 84 days. I have made several big changes in my life during the last year or so and change is not easy. So often it is just easier to slump back into the old way of doing things - it isn't good but it is familiar.
But I can't do that and I won't. I have come too far to turn around now and I think I may not even know the way back there even if I tried. I feel a bit like I am floating around without an anchor though and I'm starting to be a little negative and defensive.
I started thinking about dating again but I think perhaps I am starting that too soon.
Instead of making me look forward to going on a date I am becoming very self critical about how I look, my age...everything. Things will turn around right? I feel like I should be on the top of the world right now... I quit smoking, quit drinking, working out on a regular basis and have lost weight(and people are even noticing at work)...why am I not feeling better about myself??????? Hope this is not discouraging to others....I would never want to go back to what I was doing before- never. I suppose it just means that nothing is a 'cure all' and I have to keep working on myself and my life. Actually, I feel a little better now.
Just being able to express how I'm feeling helps...I really need to get better at opening up to people.
Lisa

[Birdman]

Friday January 19th

Lisa,

I think you look beautiful.

Birdman

[Andy1111]

Friday January 19th

lisa3102 wrote: Congrats Lou and to everyone else celebrating a milestone today :goodjob:
I'm getting closer to the 3 month mark now..that will be on 1/25. I have learned a lot in the past 84 days. I have made several big changes in my life during the last year or so and change is not easy. So often it is just easier to slump back into the old way of doing things - it isn't good but it is familiar.
But I can't do that and I won't. I have come too far to turn around now and I think I may not even know the way back there even if I tried. I feel a bit like I am floating around without an anchor though and I'm starting to be a little negative and defensive.
I started thinking about dating again but I think perhaps I am starting that too soon.
Instead of making me look forward to going on a date I am becoming very self critical about how I look, my age...everything. Things will turn around right? I feel like I should be on the top of the world right now... I quit smoking, quit drinking, working out on a regular basis and have lost weight(and people are even noticing at work)...why am I not feeling better about myself??????? Hope this is not discouraging to others....I would never want to go back to what I was doing before- never. I suppose it just means that nothing is a 'cure all' and I have to keep working on myself and my life. Actually, I feel a little better now.
Just being able to express how I'm feeling helps...I really need to get better at opening up to people.
Lisa

I'm no expert, but I'd start dating. It's kind of exciting, especially when you hit it off with the right person. Of course, it can take awhile to find the right guy, but there some nice guys out there. Dating might make you feel better, it's risky, given your vulnerable state, but hey, you've come so far, why not reward yourself?

Another suggestion: Perhaps you are just having a bad day and it has nothing to do with anything. Maybe those little chemicals in your brain just didn't line up the right way. Even when we are at our happiest, sometimes you just have a bad day. Hang in there, buddy.

-Andy

[Andy1111]

Friday January 19th

newgrl wrote: okay, well, i am rooting for either the colts or the saints, I was a patriots fan a couple of years ago but this time i have to step out, I was a Peyton Manning fan for his first ten games then he kind of blew it, but i believe that was mostly in part to their rush defense, so i have to cut him slack for that. I am a Saints fan not out of any loyalty but simply because i watched their games and got hooked, I like the patriots but i thought this last weeks performance regardless of the win was less than spectacular. We will see, all I can say it I love football!

I can understand why people wouldn't root for the Pats, since they have been very fortunate the last few years. I hated the Cowboys when they were winning all those Super Bowls.

[Java]

Friday January 19th

[wwbarb]

Friday January 19th

Lisa, you are an inspiration to me. Maybe that "doubt" is a warning voice telling you not to get too complacent.

You rock! :goodjob:

[Popeye]

Friday January 19th

Evening all.
Thanks for all the support. I have decided not to fret about it. I'll be fine. There is no point getting into a tizzy every time I'm in the company of booze, because it's going to happen. I can't thank you enough for all your common sense advice. I love it here.

Lisa,
I really hope you find your happiness. Your posts have inspired me to keep going on more than one occasion.
Thank you.

[Lou]

Friday January 19th

Lisa...I too have begun to consider dating, i sort of got to gether with a lovely guy on new years eve...he has been my step dads friend for years so that was a bit wierd. But iv spoken to him several times since then and were planning to go out....he knows all about me and my problems due to being a family friend and yet he still really likes me and wants to take me out....im really looking forward to it as he really is a lovely man. so dont rule out the prospect of dating, you never know...you might find a hidden gem x x