Friday January 19th
Good Evening All,
Tonight I ran smack dab into my first big cravings. Like a brick wall! Maddy just went out to have her hair done, and I'm feeling lonely, and all I wanted to do was get myself a nice big glass of red wine.....but I forced myself to make a healthy dinner and eat it, then come on here. That has definitely taken the edge off. By good luck too, Allen Carr's book arrived in the mail today, as well. So even though part of me is still feeling a bit deprived, I will be able to put another O in the drink tracker tonight.
I had forgotten how the first week is rather listless for me. I don't get much done over and above what I have to, but I do know from experience that this too, shall pass. I can't go visit that bad boyfriend again!
At any rate, Lisa, I was struck by your story, and I can't help but think that you are getting to another level in your recovery. I think that as you are moving into a new phase and contemplating dating, maybe some insecurities and fears are coming up, despite the fact that you are looking and feeling better. Is this possible? Depending on my mood, sometimes I'll look in the mirror and see a lovely woman, and other times, well, woof, woof! Anyway, I hope you feel better. I KNOW that you are lovely, and I'm sure that you are looking much better than you are giving yourself credit for.
Regarding football, I like both the Patriots and the Colts, although I'm a little more partial to the Colts, since I'm a Peyton fan. I'm extremely partial to the Saints, however, being a fan since Archie Manning was the quarterback and the Saints were the Ain'ts (hence my favoritism for Peyton). The only team I desperately want to LOSE is the Bears. I am arguing with myself about whether to go out and purchase the best dang bottle of alcohol free wine that I can find to drink during the game, or whether it would be better not to repeat any of the rituals of drinking while I watch the game. Any feedback??
Okay, I'd love to say hi to everyone, but I fear that would take years and cost millions of lives if I do, but I am thinking of all of you. Coming here and reading has been a big help in maintaining my resolve tonight! Thanks to everyone here!
Hugs,
Kathy:l
Good Evening All,
Tonight I ran smack dab into my first big cravings. Like a brick wall! Maddy just went out to have her hair done, and I'm feeling lonely, and all I wanted to do was get myself a nice big glass of red wine.....but I forced myself to make a healthy dinner and eat it, then come on here. That has definitely taken the edge off. By good luck too, Allen Carr's book arrived in the mail today, as well. So even though part of me is still feeling a bit deprived, I will be able to put another O in the drink tracker tonight.
I had forgotten how the first week is rather listless for me. I don't get much done over and above what I have to, but I do know from experience that this too, shall pass. I can't go visit that bad boyfriend again!
At any rate, Lisa, I was struck by your story, and I can't help but think that you are getting to another level in your recovery. I think that as you are moving into a new phase and contemplating dating, maybe some insecurities and fears are coming up, despite the fact that you are looking and feeling better. Is this possible? Depending on my mood, sometimes I'll look in the mirror and see a lovely woman, and other times, well, woof, woof! Anyway, I hope you feel better. I KNOW that you are lovely, and I'm sure that you are looking much better than you are giving yourself credit for.
Regarding football, I like both the Patriots and the Colts, although I'm a little more partial to the Colts, since I'm a Peyton fan. I'm extremely partial to the Saints, however, being a fan since Archie Manning was the quarterback and the Saints were the Ain'ts (hence my favoritism for Peyton). The only team I desperately want to LOSE is the Bears. I am arguing with myself about whether to go out and purchase the best dang bottle of alcohol free wine that I can find to drink during the game, or whether it would be better not to repeat any of the rituals of drinking while I watch the game. Any feedback??
Okay, I'd love to say hi to everyone, but I fear that would take years and cost millions of lives if I do, but I am thinking of all of you. Coming here and reading has been a big help in maintaining my resolve tonight! Thanks to everyone here!
Hugs,
Kathy:l
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