Saturday January 20th

[Popeye]

Good morning folks.
Life is good!
I have to unplug the comp today as I have boys putting in a new heating system.:wd:
I'll catch up with you all later.
:l

[Ilex]

Saturday January 20th

Morning All in Absville! - Life IS good! This is my 6th day and must be the first Sat in more years than I care to remember that I have woken up feeling pucker, alive, healthy! I just wanted to share it with you all - and now I have the whole weekend to do what ever I like, free from the black cloud of lost hours in a semi-dazed haze..... How much longer the weekend is now! Hip hip horay!!
Also, I am going to my 'Christmas' Dinner tonight for one of the groups I belong to and am pleased and proud that I have offered to drive and am not doing it begrudgingly either! He, he, ha, ha!!
Anyway - off to enjoy my new found hours - thanks for all being here - I get so much support from you every day, even when I don't appear to be 'here'.
Love you all - and Olly - let me know how the Champs goes - you are so strong and brave!
Have a Fab day everyone!
I xx

:l

[Java]

Saturday January 20th

Morning to all,Happy Saturday, Day 8 here, really really happy about that, mainly because i feel good but also it is cool that my "0"s are startng to catch up in the drink tracker!!!!! I am pretty busy today so i shouldnt have any issues, i am busy all weekend to be honest, not with any real plans except for this morning, but i have errands, we all know how that is...talk to you all later

Victoria

[YoungAtHeart]

Saturday January 20th

Good Morning All!

Just quickly popping on to say hi before getting started on my day! Have to say Sorry to Barb about the Bears! Gee Barb, I'd root for them, but I've been a Saint's fan since 1978! The Bears are awesome contenders though, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared.....

I read several chapters of Allen Carr's book last night, and it was pretty incredible. What a complete shift in mindset he if offering. It is hard to get my head around, but I can see that if I can do it, it can set me free. It also helped me get through yet one more day AF.

My scale rewarded me with a drop of 1/2 pound this morning, but last night I didn't sleep so well as the last few nights--worries and aches and pains were creeping in. I'm irritated because this explosion of papers that I call my home office doesn't seem to be getting any better, and I start to feel resentful at times. It just seems like I could work on it endlessly, and more papers would appear. I feel like that fellow who had to keep pushing the boulder up the mountain only to have it keep rolling down again. Sisyphus? (sp? ) Oh well, that's my gripe for the day. I'll have to tackle it later. Grrrr, as Becca would say.....

Paul, we'll miss you--hope you get plugged in again soon.

Newgrl and Ilex, you are both doing so well! Keep it up. I'm so glad to have both of you a few days ahead of me with your great attitudes!

Love to all who come later!

Hugs,
Kathy:l

[abby1]

Saturday January 20th

Good Morning Absville,
Paul, Ilex, New Girl & Kathy, YEA!!!! Everyone made it through a friday night. Paul, hope you can "connect"with us all soon. New girl & Ilex you guys are doing great. Olly, I know you will be here soon,
so a big hug and Saturday morning hello to you.
Not drinking brings on "firsts" as well..... Actually drove on a Friday night to pick-up my daughter, I had no worries for ONCE about being pulled over for drinking while driving.
Lucky, I am still following in your pretty red shoes... Keep being my leader!!!!
For all those to follow me, have a great Saturday. Thinking of you all.
Abby

[abby1]

Saturday January 20th

Good Morning Absville,
Paul, Ilex, New Girl & Kathy, YEA!!!! Everyone made it through a friday night. Paul, hope you can "connect"with us all soon. New girl & Ilex you guys are doing great. Olly, I know you will be here soon,
so a big hug and Saturday morning hello to you.
Not drinking brings on "firsts" as well..... Actually drove on a Friday night to pick-up my daughter, I had no worries for ONCE about being pulled over for drinking while driving.
Lucky, I am still following in your pretty red shoes... Keep being my leader!!!!
For all those to follow me, have a great Saturday. Thinking of you all.
Abby

[Olly]

Saturday January 20th

Mornin' all... well, actually, good afternoon over here.

Paul, how did last night go?
I need to start prepping for our little "dinner party" tomorrow evening. Normallly this would be the start of the fun... drinking wine and cooking and having "fun" in the kitchen. This time I'm going to try to enjoy the zen of cooking... getting into the relaxation and process. Maybe I'll fix a mug of really good coffee to keep me company ... I could use the energy to be honest. And then tomorrow... well , we'll have to see how it goes. My husband said this morning that he only wants to drink maybe one glass of wine with the guests as he is feeling like he's been drinking too much lately... (he doesn't!!) Maybe it's way of supporting me without either of us really having to talk about it. Grr..not the most communicative marriage, but it works for now.

take care, Olly

[Olly]

Saturday January 20th

Mornin' all... well, actually, good afternoon over here.

Paul, how did last night go? If you did slip remember to start right back to AF!! It makes things so much easier. Not that I expect you slipped (just noticed your name in the drink tracker and see there was no 0 for last night) Anyway, I think we all should remember that it's never a destination, it's the journey.

I need to start prepping for our little "dinner party" tomorrow evening. Normallly this would be the start of the fun... drinking wine and cooking and having "fun" in the kitchen. This time I'm going to try to enjoy the zen of cooking... getting into the relaxation and process. Maybe I'll fix a mug of really good coffee to keep me company ... I could use the energy to be honest. And then tomorrow... well , we'll have to see how it goes. My husband said this morning that he only wants to drink maybe one glass of wine with the guests as he is feeling like he's been drinking too much lately... (he doesn't!!) Maybe it's way of supporting me without either of us really having to talk about it. Grr..not the most communicative marriage, but it works for now.

take care, Olly

[Newyear]

Saturday January 20th

Good Morning Everyone
yea for the new heating system Paul...hope to hear back from you later
Ilex- happy day 6 and that is such a great feeling isn't it? to say with no problem...I'll drive- that is terrific!
newgirl....you are doing great- staying busy helps tremendously + you actually get stuff done
Kathy- I know how you feel ... that overwhelming pile of papers eek. I have been putting off doing 'real cleaning' at my house but this morning I got up early, started the laundry, folded clothes and moved the furniture in the kitchen so I could mop the floors! Ok, after mopping I did take a quick nap, but still. I've almost moved all the furniture back now and I'm moving on to vacuuming the upstairs. I want to see how much I can get done before noon and then I'm done with it for the day. I've rented Little Miss Sunshine so I'm going to sit in my mostly clean house and watch it under a blanket.
Abby - glad you had a good night - happy no hangover Saturday( pretty great huh?)!!!
Back to work for me-
Happy Saturday :wavin: Hey Olly...posting at the same time

Lisa

[lucky 2.0]

Saturday January 20th

Feeling good today. Abs sleep is the best- feels so restorative. Sure do wake up early tho.

Day 25 here.

Happy Saturday to all-

[Guest]

Saturday January 20th

A sympathetic GRRRRRRRRRRR back atcha, Kathy!

Lucky, you are doing awesome!! How did it go yesterday? I want pix!

Hope everyone is feeling well this Saturday. Newgrl and Abby, fridays AF, huh? What a concept! I've been AF the last few weekends, only to have drinking episodes during the week. It's "emotional binge drinking" I do during the week. Things like hubby not being home and my shrink appointments have been setting me up for failures. I recognize it and this week I am determined to stay AF (wanna do at least another 10 day stretch... I love those!) and hubby will be home. That helps. I've already committed to him that I REALLY want to make it to the end of Jan. AF. He's on board and very supportive, in a GOOD way!

I have a confession that I need to tell you all about. More like an explanation, I suppose. On my drink tracker, if there is a pink block with no number in it, those are days that I drank more than I'd like to even share. I'm embarassed. So just know that those days are not "??" days. I know how much I drank, it's just... too much.
For the last couple months I have had a couple medical problems. My shin was one of them that was pushing me off my program (cuz I couldn't run), but it is resolving slowly but surely. I'll be running today maybe 3-4 miles. There has also been another significant medical problem that my dr. could not figure out. I was on 2 rounds of antibiotics the last couple months to no avail. Had an appt. set up with a specialist for next wk, when lo and behold, the issue became clear and things look as though they are resolving now. Anyhow, it was very upsetting to me and another excuse to be slip-sliding around with the drinking.
Just felt like I wasn't being totally honest with you all. And in light of my PM last wk about me not having quit drinking completely, I wanted to spill a little more explanation. Thanks for listening. I know there will ALWAYS be SOMETHING, right? Right. Reading Allen Carr's book too.

OTHERWISE, we have a wonderful family weekend planned! I'm not stressed about the not drinking at all, cuz I've done the last several weekends without the booze.

Good strength to everyone else in meeting your goals!

GO COLTS!!

Love,

[Accountable for Me]

Saturday January 20th

Happy Saturday to you all! Day 22 here for me.

I just wanted to say to you all, that if you have felt any agression in my posts, I deeply apologize. That was not my intention at all.

I am finding as the days go on being AF I am having a hard time articulating my thoughts and getting them out. I am thinking one thing, and it seems to come out another thing. I am completely baffled as to why this is happening and I am hoping this is just par for the course and praying this too shall pass.

I feel like I am turning into a nut bar. So for anyone who has read my posts and thought 'wow, she sounds out to lunch or angry' I truly apologize, because I am out to lunch these days. And the last thing I want is for anyone to feel I have offended them.

Just know I love you all...........

[lorisunshine]

Saturday January 20th

Good morning,
Paul, Ilex, NewGirl, Kathy, Abby, Olly, Lisawiththe numbers, Lucky, Becca and Accountable.
Good to hear from all of you.
I am officially starting day 20 today. Yesterday was an enigma for me. I was just fine all day long, all through supper and then it hit me like a 10 ton truck. I wanted a drink in the worst way. I have not had cravings like that since before I started AF. I had to physically remove myself from the family room, or I would have gulped my husbands drink to the bottom.

I am baffled. Am I getting careless or too sure of myself. I think, I better buy that Carr book as well. It is very thin ice I am walking on. Oh damned
habit.
Love you all and have a grand day.
Lori

[Guest]

Saturday January 20th

Accountable, I don't think you have seemed "out to lunch". This is a difficult thing!! A lot to deal with. I think your posts have been very honest and open, and nothing angry about them! Many of us feel the frustration.
Hang in there. Keep trying. (telling self same thing...)
Have a great weekend!!

[Breez]

Saturday January 20th

Hi All!

Big old DAY 30 today!

Accountantable~ I know how you feel. When you quit drinking, mentally you begin once again at the age when you first really started drinking. Eeek. Scary thought. So my "real" drinking didn't start till I was 21 so no wonder I always want to go out & do things rather then stay home. LOL.
So your mind & emotions are all trying to figure out who you are. Hell, half the time I don't know if I'm coming or going.....good mood or bad mood and it doesn't help when hubby jokes "what personality do we have today?". UGH.

Happy Saturday everyone....Congrats on another AF day!