Sunday January 21st.

[Popeye]

Good Morning.

Back to square one for me.

I had a drink last night.

I don't know why.

I'm really disappointed in myself.
I know that I have come a long way in the last couple of months. 23 days without a drink is excellent for me.
I'll just have to get back up and start again.
I'm sorry.

[Olly]

Sunday January 21st.

Hey Buddy,

I'm just so glad you're back here posting!! You're still heading in the right direction and that's what counts.
And, thanks for your honesty, you've reminded us all just how slippery it is out there. Sorry for your fall, but glad you're back up and tackling the AF path with us!!
Olly:h :h

[Pebbles]

Sunday January 21st.

Yeah, Paul, stay with it,
23 days is an amazing achievement, don't beat yourself up. Don't think of it as starting from scratch either, you've already come a long long way. Someone has said elsewhere, it's not a numbers game. It's not Day 1, it's just a different day 24!
Take care
Pebbles

[Popeye]

Sunday January 21st.

Thanks olly and pebbles.

[Ilex]

Sunday January 21st.

Paul - don't beat yourself up about it mate - you've done so well and for so long and are an inspiration to us all !
It maybe feels wrong to be positive but I just wanted to share that I had a great time last night. Drove to the dinner giving lifts to all my friends, drank soft drinks had a great time - have discovered that I have a sense of humour when sober. I looked my best and even felt comfortable and confident enough to flirt with the boys!
Today like many of use here am feeling a little introspective, wanted to be alone and by myself, so my housemate and my dog have gone out without me to the seaside. I can be alone and now I'm crying for no reason.......
Andy - wanted to say too, when I read your post yesterday about crying for no reason - I was out running yesterday in the woods and got to the edge of them and looked over the downs and the light was just so beautiful playing on the hills that I just burst into tears.... Who knows why?
Anyway - on a brighter note - here's to a happy Sunday in Absville - Hi to all before and all to follow....... Love and hugs Paul, - jump back on board, we're right behind you x

PS - also reading Allen Carr's book - sometimes tricky to get my mind round -but I think it compliments this programe really well.......

[Debh]

Sunday January 21st.

Paul - you have done so well. One step at a time.

[Mackeral]

Sunday January 21st.

Morning all,

Paul, dont worry mate..Like others have said..1 slip in 24 days is nothing to be ashamed about...Your still the guy who wakes us up in the morning...And makes us put our best foot forward..
Ilex, sounds like you had a great night last night..
Hello to Debs Olly and Pebbles...

I havnt been able to string a couple of af days together latley...I,m not going to make excuses but my head and hearts just not been in it..Well i promised Mrs Macks this morning that im gonna stay af now as long as i can...Not a day or 2 ....Weeks or months..I gotta get out of this rut im in at the moment....So gonna start doing some weights tonight and try and clear some cobwebs..

Hope everyone has a peaceful Sunday...Love Macks:l

[Java]

Sunday January 21st.

Don't worry about it Paul, you are doing great anyway. I still envy you. By the way I did go back and look at my posts when I was first here a couple of weeks ago, holy crap I was kind of Nutty!!! You guys have all been a wonderful help. I hope you all have a greta Sunday.

Victoria, working on day 9AF

[stoatqueen]

Sunday January 21st.

Keep your pecker up Paul, you're doing really well xx

[Popeye]

Sunday January 21st.

Thanks
I forgot to say I'm going to see Lenny Henry tonight at the King's Theatre in Glasgow.
We're going for a meal first and then on to the show.
I forgot all about it. That's cheered me up.

[Lou]

Sunday January 21st.

Hi all,

Paul you are a little star and dont you dare let one slip get you down, weve all been there and we all pick ourselves up dust ourselves down and carry on!!! youve done so well mister dont let this get to you.
Hope you have a wonderful evening...you deserve it

Loves

Lou-Lou x x x

[Birdman]

Sunday January 21st.

Keep the chin up Paul. You're still my hero. I've been reading where having a drink or two along the way is almost a certain occurance. Other then that was it a good time?

Newgirl. I thought your earlier posts were wonderful. It justs seems like you are so much more confident now.

Well gotta run. Happy Sunday all.

Birdman

[YoungAtHeart]

Sunday January 21st.

Good morning all,

Paul, you've done so well so far that I have faith that you'll get right back on the wagon! I am all too familiar with the difference between big slips (several weeks) and little slips (one night), and getting right back on the wagon makes so much difference. This can just be a little blip on the screen. You haven't done anything to us. We still love and respect you.

And Hey There! Mackaroon (either Mack, my love or a Mack cookie, however you want to take it ). I know it's been hard lately. When you're a guy, it's a hard choice between having a drink and seeming to keep it together, or letting your feelings out and seeming not to be in control. Try to let those feelings out. It will be really weird at first, but you'll be the better for it.

I saw a couple recently in counseling, and the husband--a big 6'5" fellow--was completely undone because they had had to put one of their cats to sleep. He was embarrassed because he kept bursting into tears. He had brought this cat up from kitten--he had been unemployed when they got the cat, so he was really attached. He was astonished at the fact that he couldn't stop crying. But after a bit he was able to start reminiscing and even laughing at times about some of the cat's antics. At the end of our time, he announced that he really did feel better for having let some of his grief out. We're really made to be able to heal ourselves when we don't get in our own way. (Wish I could take my own advice better sometimes.)

Hi everyone else! I'm working on day 6 here. I drank some de-alcoholized wine yesterday, but I'm going to write a separate post about it.

Speaking of tears, I was at the gas station yesterday, and I checked my oil. When I went to replace the oil cap, it fell into the engine. When I tried to retrieve it, it fell into the pan that protects the engine from water on the road. I got under the car myself, but only succeeded in pushing it further and further away!!! Arrrgghhh!! At first NO ONE would help me get it out (even though I asked), but I guess the guys at the gas station realized that I could be there all afternoon in front of their pump losing their business as I was squirming around under my car in my new suede coat ( ) or that someone might run over my legs or something, because finally a man did come out to help, and of course, he retrieved it in a jiffy. He smirked a bit as I drove off (or maybe that was just my imagination), so I parked a bit away cried huge tears of rage and humiliation. I felt overwhelmed with my feelings, and I was also freezing! But fortunately, of course, it passed.
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I guess I must be getting a little back to normal, meaning posts as long as a book! Hope you all don't mind!

Anyway, off to my mound of papers!

Olly, Deb, Ilex, Pebbles, Newgrl, and Stoatqueen, have a great day, all! And of course to all that come!

Hugs,
Kathy:l

[YoungAtHeart]

Sunday January 21st.

I missed Lou and Birdman! Hi to both of you! I always miss people when I'm writing one of my books! :h

[Java]

Sunday January 21st.

Kathy I think it is experiences like those that make life interesting, in a while someone is going to have the exact same story and you are going to burst out laughing thinking about yourself out there freezing trying to find that cap, however the other person might not immediatly find the humor...