I went to the liquor store yesterday on a mission. It was weird to be in there, and I almost left. But I got a bottle of Ariel "de-alcoholized" Merlot. It has about a half-percent of alcohol in it. It doesn't taste like grape juice, but doesn't really taste like wine either. The best I can say is that is has a taste somewhat reminiscent of wine. But it's not too bad; it's drinkable, and you don't want to gulp it, cause you know you're not going to get a buzz.
What I found interesting is that I got a great deal of gratification out of the ritual of drinking out of a wine glass with a liquid in it that looked like red wine and tasted a little bit like red wine. I enjoyed not getting buzzed and going to sleep sober. I really like that ritual, however, and it was comforting. I think it says a lot about how much my wine "habit" meant to me, aside from the "buzz".
At any rate, I don't want to make this another habit, because the stuff costs more than the wine I used to drink, and one of the things I'm enjoying about ABS is having more $$$ in my wallet, but I feel that it is nice to know that if I am invited to a party or something like that, I can buy a bottle of this stuff and take it and drink "like everyone else" and not feel deprived. I've been one to avoid social situations while abs, and this feels like it will open up more options for me while still remaining ABS.
Purists might disagree with this, and to be honest, I feel conflicted about it too. Part of me felt guilty last night, as if I were really drinking, because I did feel a sense of pleasure and gratification!
I'd love to know what others think about "my experiment".
Hugs,
Kathy:l
PS: The scale doesn't lie; I'm down 2 1/2 lbs this week! Yay!
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