AF Daily - Friday March 9

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Day 15 - it's my birthday weekend and I'm feeling really down.

I really want a drink but I know I mustn't.

[sugarbeat]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Sausage, up you get don't let the alci head take control of you, I'm in a nice place at the moment so I can see it from a rational point of view
You got a few choices,

1.)go out drink and regret it and suffer what you did last week and the week before all over again, there is nothing enjoyable in the reality of it
2.)allow drink to preoccupy your head all weekend, don't drink but be miserable and allow drink to play mind games with you all weekend
3.) Be mindful, see it for what it really is, when thoughts of it pop in, recognise the reality in them and let them pass, go out and enjoy dinner, stay in the moment, don't let the monster win, you deserve da best from life and stop torturing yourself

Happy birthday missie

[Almostfamous]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Papmom, I totally get what you said. Thankfully, I am married to a man who barely drinks and would never pressure me. Having said that, he would be absolutely shocked if he knew how much I was drinking this last year. I would go out and maybe have 2 drinks on each weekend night or non at all and then when he'd travel I'd make up for lost time.

Sunshine- thanks! I will be grateful for remembering the shows!!!! Much, much better than blackout central!!!

I'm going to save the booze money to buy my wonderful daughter something for Spring. Oh, maybe just maybe something for me too.

Sausage- no, no, no, no, no, no ,no (well you get my point) you will be very disappointed in yourself. Can we make a pact that I stay sober in the crazy city and you stay sober on your Birthday weekend???? Pretty please?

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Sausage... I think this is a really good post: 9 Ways to Celebrate Your Birthday with Style — In Life and In Fashion

Notice how there is no mention of AL? Because it would ruin a beautiful and special day for YOU.

:l

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Thanks Sugar, Almost & Sunshine - I am trying my hardest. Having a Cup of tea right now.
Almost I will try to make that pact with you.
Sugar - I really want to do no 3 on your list ( and am working towards that mindset - currently am on no 2)
Sunshine - have just read that article, really liked it . It has got me thinking. Interesting that it doesn't mention AL.

Thank you everyone x

[Almostfamous]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

I promise you Sausage that if you make it through this very uncomfortable weekend you will feel like you conquered Mt. Everest! You have come so far to give it up. Ride the wave!!!!!! You can do it.

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

I agree Almost. This is really make or break time, if I make it I'll be almost into week 3 and then surely the cravings will ease. the only other fear I have is if I go away on holiday - I once broke a run of 50+ AF days when I went away to Spain for a week. The other time I caved was at a party, when my neighbour,who is a minimal drinker persuaded ,me to accept champagne at her daughters 18th - and that was after 8+ AF months. Lolab on one of the other threads ? Nesters just reposted something I wrote in my My Story after 6 months AF last time and it has really got me thinking. I'm safe just now!!!

[Almostfamous]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

It's really a day by day process(battle) with good days and no so great days. I've stayed sober for many months at a time then all it takes is one dang, stupid decision. It's honestly easier to deal with a challenging day, than, the rough road that one drink leads us back down.....
Keep drinking that tea!!!! I'm watching you ; )

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

'Atta gurl, Sausage! Tea sounds great. I think I'll make some, too

I just had a blast from the past... RC mentioned my list from a year or so ago and reposted it:

What I loathe/hate about drinking alcohol:

- making an ass of myself
- embarrassing those with/around me
- setting a horrible example for my children
- dialing under the influence
- emailing under the influence
- getting depressed/whiney/having a pity party
- heart burn
- head ache
- slurring my speech - aware that I'm not pulling it off
- turning into an insensitive bitch
- falling down stairs
- making excuses about having taken meds
- thinking 'have another drink, dear' knowing full well, I've had 3 too many already
- leaving projects unfinished
- passing out on the bathroom floor
- passing out on the couch
- passing out in bed (best case scenario)
- blacking out - wondering what the hell happened, what did I say, what did I do?
- waking up in the middle of the night, dehydrated, barely able to get a glass of water
- waking up with a knot in my stomach, knowing 'I did it again'
- waking up with bruises and scrapes
- looking in the mirror at some washed out, ugly woman
- trying to steady shaky hands
- promising myself not to ever do this again - only to do it again

[Almostfamous]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Sunshine- great post and frankly, many of those were all to familiar. Ok, need to get some things done around the house. I'll check back later.

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Sausage - when's the last time you celebrated your birthday without AL?
Sober birthdays ROCK - just try one

I have discovered if I let EB play his games on my iPad then he leaves me alone touse my laptop :H

Sunni - I told you that you needed a rope & maybe a safety net as well - ouch!! :l

About those loster rolls - are they low fat?? :H

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Lav - I must have celebrated an AF birthday on March 11 2009 because that was during my 8 month AF period. Will try and search back my earlier posts to see what I did / thought at the time.

Prior to this, there were probably a few in my 20's in the 1990's before AL was important to me and then as a child and In my early teens. I don't remember these being any worse (probably much better) than recent birthdays!

[FlyAway]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Day 3 of my headache and today seems to be the worst day. I've just taken my migraine meds which means I'll be out of it within an hour. I haven't really felt up to talking today. But Sausage, I'm worried about you. You're talking like you've already given yourself permission to drink. All of the "if I don't drink" phrases make it sound like it's already a possibility. And feeling sad about not drinking? What is it that you think you're going to be missing that you haven't felt from drinking before? The 3am wake up call? Embarrassment, shame, guilt, etc.? You will not wake up the day after dinner thinking, "Damn I wish I drank wine last night." Have you ever thought that? Of course not because booze doesn't make anything better, only worse.

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Fly I hope your headache gets better soon. Thanks everyone for all your help and advice. Had another evening of ginger beer and am feeling quite positive now. There's been some great supportive advice and ideas for me from everyone on both here and the newbies thread and I am feelings lot stronger. Thanks again everyone xx

[Turnagain]

AF Daily - Friday March 9

Greetings FABbers...coming in at ya in the evening now. I had a great post ready to go this morning, but a PUG decided to help me type and POOF!

Wow - What a night! We WON the CHAMPIONSHIP - it's a real Miracle on Ice fo sho! We didn't play well, but we played with vigor and had fun AND managed to put one more biscuit between the pipes than the OTHER team.

This HOckey HO was just fine celebrating with water! I'll leave the champagne for others whose bodies can deal with AL. Mine can't and that's that. I'm so over it and that just makes me so darn happy. Another Miracle on the Ice....Cube.

Speaking of life on the ice cube....did we ever have an amazing Aurora Show last night and this morning. Even the GAWDS are celebrating our victory, perhaps? Here's a link to some fabulous shots that locals got of the latest display:

Photo Gallery: Alaska Northern Lights from Solar Flares - ktuu.com

That solar storm is still having quite an impact on our electromagnetic spectrum. Looks like a lot of folks in the Northern Hemisphere could be seeing the dancing lights again tonight. Here's a link with a viewing map:

Aurora Forecast | Geophysical Institute

I'm such a good nerd, I get alerts from the Geophysical Institute! This morning, when I got up around 5:30 the lights were still rocking directly overhead. It just felt so good to be alive...breathing clean air....and filling my head with such beauty. I haven't seen northern lights in YEARS....probably because I was either A. Passed Out or B. Too Hung Over (to get up in the am to view) I may take the dogs for a drive tonight after 11 or so out to Point Woronzof to see what's up. Would it be wrong to take my convertible with the lid down? I say why not? The heater works well!

The other really amazing thing that made me just so happy this morning after my aurora fix was seeing just how many people had already logged into this thread. There were already 2 full pages of comments by 6 am my time. There's a lot of good energy here. It's inspiring to see how many of you are KO-ing the booze beast. My best day of drinking can't even begin to match my worst day sober.