AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

[Kaslo]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Good morning Fabulous Abstinence by Day, Sleep fairy Melatonin Scleppers by night.

Shue of course you can have a HUG And a talking to if you think that will help. The voice is a pain in the arse, and it keeps it up worse than any nasal toned self absorbed owner senior manager till you give in and do what he wants even though its not what he or you really need, UNLESS you tell it to shut the Feck UP and ..

go for a walk
Bike ride
garden
work
eat something
drink your FAVORITE non al soda and orange juice/ green tea
go buy yourself some new knee highs
talk to a sympathetic friend on chat here

After a year and a month, I no longer hear the voice every day or even every week, its only once in a very blue moon when I am feeling down, busted, unloved, yada yada.

We are with you 100%. You CAN get past the voice of alcohol calling you back to wreck your lovely self with. Tell it to feck off, dear.

Best to everyone today. Snowed all night and 5 below. WTF

kaslo of the fN AGAIN. Balls.

[momof3]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hello Fabber Abbers Near and Far,

Shueaddict...not uncommon to have a drop in mood after being AF for awhile. The novelty and pink cloud wears off. Also, alcohol abusers have a tendency toward depression when they quit. I was on ADs prior to quitting and stayed on them for about 1 year after I quit. I don't take them anymore though.

I think your observation about the exercise is a good one. Exercise will get the endorphins and serotonin to kick in. May also want to try some supplements that are precursor's to ADs such as 5 HTP. I'm no expert on this but perhaps others on this forum can give you some advice. Where is nurse Lav? Kas's suggestions are good ones. Also, check out the tool box in this monthly abs section. Time to do everything you can to keep the beast at bay girl.

Lovely day here today. So HAPPY that Spring is here.

Welcome Ditzy.

Big shout out and :l to all.
:hM3

[LibraryGirl]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Shue,

I've been having the same thoughts you expressed. I've been thinking, "wow I made it to almost 30 days with no problem. I could easily drink one day a week and keep it at that."

Well, I was reminded of my first day here by a loving, caring fellow MWOer. My own words brought my true addiction hurling back at me with full force. I won't post your first post on here, as it seems rather long, lol, but maybe YOU should go back and read it.

I was told this is addiction thinking that you and I have been indulging in, or dick head for short.:H Don't let that dick head tell you any more LIES!!!:l

[FlyAway]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Oh Shue. :l Like Jason Vale says, it's only a thought. If we acted on every thought we had, we'd be in jail! I think you should reread the Vale book and also, like LG said, go back and read some of your old posts. I think we start to forget just how bad things were after we go AF for a while. I know I tend to and I'm afraid of it happening to me too.

[GingerDust]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

What a lovely forum. I looked a few days ago and could not find an active abstinent thread. I must have missed it.

I'm on antabuse and have been AF for 40 days. The voice that tells me to drink has been pretty much silenced, but I am ashamed to say that I'm eating Entenmann's donuts (dark chocolate frosting) for breakfast. I'm just going CRAZY on carbs. Must get a grip on the sugar!

Boredom is an issue when I let it be. My worst issue at the moment back, hip, leg pain that is driving me crazy. Sitting hurts, standing hurts and I wake up after sleeping in dang near agony. I'm almost ready to go to a doctor but I'm still hoping it just goes away by itself. (I really hate going to the docs)

Shue, the voice is a nasty, decrepit, sociopathic liar that wants to hurt you. Next time you hear "You could have A beer," imagine Hannibal Lecter saying it.



TDN, good luck with the job.

Spring flirts with us here. It's lovely warm and sunny one day, blowing snow the next. If it was warm enough, I might lay out in the sun for a short time. That sounds really nice. Mylife, it sounds like Florida just skipped Spring this year and went straight into summer!

I'm in the middle of remodel and am procrastinating on that by posting on MWO. I probably should get my tuckus in gear now.

I hope everyone has a good day!

[shueaddict]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Thank you soooo much for bearing my rant ? I had a wee moment.

Kalso ? I drank 2 liters of Perrier with beetroot & ginger juice ( Shue?s new special vintage) + started working on a new client.
Mo3 ? step 2 - was to take the 5HTP ( that I discontinued) + pack the running shoes for my trip.
LG and Fly ? I read 2 particular posts to remind me of my worst, and then ?
I saved Hannibal Lecter?s pic.

I do not want the drink, I do not want to go back to where I ?ve been and I have made peace with the fact that I cannot mod. I have encountered an episode of depression (spot on Mo3) and since they are very uncommon for me, the only way I knew how to deal with it in the past was to drink.

I need to find another way ? Belgian truffles only give a short lived high (a bit like a one night stand ? never cared for either very much).

TND ? keeping those fingers crossed for you on the job front
Sugarbeat ? where are you?
Ditzy with the spicy cat ? how is it going today?

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hi everyone!

Shue - glad the *moment* passed. I find it interesting and somehow calming to learn more and more about the brain, and why some of this stuff happens the way it does. Habits are very very powerful things. They are life saving. They are the reason we can function at high levels like we do - with so very very little thought going into the basics of life that we have to do repetitively. Imagine what little time you would have for anything else if you had to carefully make decisions and figure out each day how to brush your teeth, tie your shoes, etc. We would never get ANYTHING done if it weren't for the way habits and repetitive things work in our brains.

Knowing that, I can accept the random "thought" of drinking as just something old - some leftover from a habit I used to have that I don't act on any more. A thought doesn't mean I have to act on it.

don't know if that makes any sense to you - that's how I look at it these days! And after nearly 4 years AF I rarely have a true *thought* of drinking any more. It just doesn't occur to me like it used to.

Ginger - glad you found this AF bunch! congrats on your progress! I'm so glad to see the numbers growing here of people who are finding success with Antabuse.

Can't fix the noise maker in my truck until tomorrow. So I have the long trip to school and back with the air raid siren going tonight. :upset: I am going to try to get through it by remaining grateful for a working automobile (rather than shooting myself!)

One thing is for sure.....

DG

[Almostfamous]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Shue- I almost shipped off an entire CASE of truffles to you when I read your post. I fell off my 3 month af wagon last year when that voice came screeching in my ear. It took me almost another year to dig my heels in. I was a great moderator for a time then at the end was buying boxes of that crappy wine because it was easy to hide. I had never been a "hider" since this last year. I'm convinced it just gets worse and worse as time goes on if you give in. I have thoughts occasionally too and I hope they lessen as time goes on. Big hugs to you!!!!! You've come so far and are doing great!

The rain has stopped. Our yard looks a tad swampy at this point. To use Sunni's term, "poop patrol" will be big fun! Eeuw!

Ginger- great work!

DG- good luck with your wheelies. What a pain!

Fly- I do have peppermint melatonin that I occasionally take 1/2 of a tablet of. It works like a charm but my dreams are usually very weird. Ie: bird flying with pink dolphin in it's mouth. Now that the storms have moved on I should get some sleep.

[mylife]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hello Guys!

Thought I would chime in here. Shue - I have had those exact feelings in the past and have given in to them. I don't recommend it! I have pretty much stopped taking AB - but I keep it in my purse just in case I start to feel like that again. I did have a random thought of drinking today and then realized I was hungry. I ate something and it went away. You can do this!

LG & Fly - I agree that going back and reading old posts can be very motivational!
DG - I really liked your advice about the random thought of drinking being part of an old leftover habit. (And a useless one at that!)
Almost - good luck with poop patrol! :H
Ginger - nice to see you here!

Have a great day all.

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hi everyone
Late check in, really tired, been at work all day. Will catch up on threads tomorrow, as I finish earlier on a Wednesday. Havent drunk, just completed day 26.
Hope all ok
Sausage x

[ThreeDogNight]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hi, Shue.
I understand what you were/are feeling. So rotten that these thoughts come over us. I was asked to chair the AA meeting today, and it was speaker/discussion, which meant that I had to share my story with the group. I wasn't nervous at all, and had to cut myself off after 25 minutes. We didn't have a big group today, but people had great reactions to what i shared. Well, this afternoon, I deided to put on some shorts and sit out on the deck in the sun. (Luckily nobody can see me there, as my skin is so white it looks sick!) I started remembering the summer days when I'd have my water bottle full of gin as I laid in the sun. I LIKED the taste of gin And then i started reading over my life story that I'd written in rehab (had just gotten it back from my sponsor) and as horrible as so many of the things were, I could only think of how good some drinks tasted. Yikes!! Where the hell did that come from??? DG made mention of habits and our brains. I guess I have to expect these thoughts--just not act on them. So we are so lucky that we can come here and get support. Am feeling okay now.
Ginger--wow, those achy joints--I have the same thing, and have had for a couple of months. Have never had anything like that in the past! I can do the treadmill and bike okay at the gym, but when i get up from bed or a chair, I hurt!! And my feet hurt when I get up. i do have flat feet and probably need orthotics, but this is puzzling. Had thought is might be the Paxil. although I didn't see it anywhere listed as a side effect. I am weaning myself off of the Paxil--doing half of the 20 mg pill (or as close as I can get it by cutting it in half.) And I am taking collagen and hyaluronic acid and glucosamine, hoping it will help. Is this something new for you? I'd love to know.
Okay, off for now, but will be back later!

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hidy ho aberooooos!

On my cell phone here for a quick flyby.

Gingerdust hooray for the af time and welcome to you

Shue. So glad your pressing on and keeping the chin up.

Catch you and Mum2 and Turn on chat for our AF giggle marathon tonight


Be well everyone

[MumOfTwo]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Quick morning from OZ to you fab abbers

Chooks are chickens..great Australian saying LOL

Ginger - welcome, I am also on AB and am reaching the 40 day mark as well, am also new here

Sunny - thanks for the PM, will reply when I get home from the office

Shue - hope you are feeling a bit more positive today ((hugs)). Please can you enable PM on your profile so that I can PM you.

Hi to eveyone else

Wishing everyone a safe and happy evening. Time to do the morning rush LOL

xx

[LVT25]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Hello friends,

Shue--Good for you for coming here to vent. In return you and others reading got lots of great advice and support. Don't feel weak or bad--it is normal to feel the way you did. At least it is pretty common. It's our brain still in training to learn the af way of life. My worst moments were (and still can be) when I'm hungry, thirsty and tired. :l

HI Ginger-glad you found us! I like the advice about Hannibal!!:H

HI everybody else!!! I've got just a few more bank statements to enter and reconcile and I will be finished with my big bookkeeping job. Kids are off next week so I am planning a big spring cleaning extravaganza! (SHHHH don't tell them!):H

[Kaslo]

AF Daily - Tuesday, March 20

Wow, Shue, you are such a strong person, you amaze me. Two liters of Perrier mixed with ginger and beetroot, holy cats! Well done. Like LV says, lots of people read this, and coming from you its very inspirational that a person as strong and tough as you obviously are you still have the same struggles the rest of us have.

Chooks, one of my fave words.

Congrats to all of you anniversary people out there. Keep going.

I was kind of blue myself today, thinking with only one real contract (usually I have around ten going at once) that I am washed up, and too old and yada yada so I might as well drink too, where the HELL did that come from? Back home, ice water, brisk walk around the garden and out I go again. Sockeye salmon filet on the bbq with green beans and rice for dinner, and a BIG jug of cranberry with pomegranate and Canada dry ginger ale. And a coooooouuuuukie.

One thing is DEFINETELY for sure.

Kaslo of the melty slush and daff buds.