Last night's BB meeting was wonderful. I love the stories in the center of the book. They are by people who didn't hit a low, low bottom. That was me. My bottom felt low, but it wasn't rock bottom. I didn't lose job, family, home, etc. I did lose self-esteem, integrity, spirituality, & sanity. I don't have to question whether I'm an alcoholic, because I know I am...I didn't drink like a normal person.
Sobriety allows me to continue to take the necessary risks in order to have a good, challenging life. That doesn't mean I went bungee jumping this past weekend. It just means that sobriety allows me to go out of my comfort zone. I don't have the fears I had when I was drinking.
I've really been working on my fears...especially my fear of people. As I get deeper into my recovery, I can see that the 12 steps work for everything...not just stopping the drinking. I can't express how grateful I am that I have them.
Mary
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