Friday, the 16th.

[lorisunshine]

Good morning Abbers,
How is everybody?
My hubbys B.Party on Valentines went well. Needed all of yesterday to catch up on so much else and did not get a chance to post.

As I mentioned in some other post, I had planned to have 2 glasses of wine at our party. I should have known better. I ended having 5 over the course of the evening and felt under the weather the next day. My body is telling me that it does not want anymore poison sessions.
I CANNOT DRINK ALCOHOL ANYMORE!

Staying AF is so much easier. There are no issues to consider. Every sip of wine I had, I drank with the utmost of guilt and I did not even enjoy it. So what's the point. None of my friends would have noticed if I had had only water or juice and they would not have questioned me either.
Well I am back on track and will hopefully stay the course, as the alternative is simply to ugly to consider.
Love you all.
Lori

[Changeling]

Friday, the 16th.

Hi Lori
Pleased to hear your Valentine / Birthday party went well

Interesting what you say " My body is telling me it doesnt want any more poison"
I am glad that you are listening to it.

It seems that almost everytime I read someone here considering mods after a period of drinking - they end up dissapointed. I think poor Bear has just been through this. (but she will fight back)

I think it is easier to stop than to moderate. When I was trying to moderate I was always focused on alcohol - now the preoccupation has faded considerably.

Best of luck to you
regards
Changeling (51 Days)

[AAthlete]

Friday, the 16th.

Changeling, I agree - AF is the only thing that works for me.

I've been lucky in that I've been able to (for the most part) stay AF without meds - but I SHOULD/do know that I'll never be able to do mods. Like you said - when I've tried in the past I've always failed because, in part, I spent way too much time thinking about it. Out of sight, out of mind seems to help....

[Rocky]

Friday, the 16th.

I agree with you AA...I will probably have to go for AF... It's early in our journey however...

[bear73]

Friday, the 16th.

I'm with you - no more booze - no booze last night.
big party tonight and i decided I may drink tonight as at mo more hassle to try to stop at bloke's 40th.
My plan is to buy my own 2 drinks or I may even not drink but hide fact I'm not drinking.

Tomorrow I am af again. this really sums up for me the bizarre bind of 'social' drinking - i feel i have to drink fit in but don't want to - not very social is it??
This may sound rubbish but party has been v stressful to organise and it will be something else to think about tonight, I don't want anymore pressure today.

but we'll see I may go af - it's just if people notice I'm not drinking and encourage/hassle me I will then set myself up to fail tonight and drink - i can feel it. Then i will feel that i can't go af again and have failed.
anyway thanks for all your support - i already feel optimistic about af again - i didn't drink last night and feel much better.

Interesting since i started drinking last sat i have put on 2 pounds, not been to the gym once, drank in week twice when my plan was always af in week and ate huge unhealthy takeaway last night due to hangover - takeaway wasn't even that nice and another takeaway last sat pm.
anyway thanks for listening - see you in abs land maybe even tonight but definitely tomorrw