Sunday 18th February

[Popeye]

Good Morning!

I had a nice lie-in this morning.
I woke to a crystal clear sky with a crystal clear mind.
Often, Sundays are the days set aside for recovering from the night before, but not today.
We are off to the hills for some good, healthy fun.
I'd just like to thank you all again for the help and encouragement that I have received here.
I love this place!

[Changeling]

Sunday 18th February

Bright & sunny here as well.
Glad you are back on form 'Popeye' - have a lovely day

Hope everyone has a happy healthy Sunday
Best regards
Changeling (Day 53)

[Pebbles]

Sunday 18th February

Popeye - I'm jealous, not because of the lie in, I had one too, not because of the crystal clear mind, mine is too (well as good as it gets) but I love the Scottish hills, Surrey just doesn't cut it. Although this morning, on my dog walk it felt like the world was getting ready for spring and I noticed...Sundays used to be, for getting over Saturdays.

Yesterday was a bit of a breakthrough, I went clothes shopping by myself as I've dropped 16lbs since October and none of my work clothes fit!

Usually I treat this as a big day out, shop a bit, treat myself to a posh lunch with wine and then do lots more, very uncontrolled shopping afterwards. Yesterday...grabbed a sandwich and a water instead. Realised I don't have to TREAT myself with wine all the time. It isn't a reward for anything, a good day, a bad day, a boring day...I have to learn to look forward to something else.

One of the things I had in my mind all day was a post Mikeupnorth wrote last week - to paraphrase :
Will 1 drink make me happy - NO
How much will I drink if I drink 1 - a bottle +
Will I be happy I've done that - NO
What's the point then ?

I hope that's what he said...that's what I took from it anyway, and it worked for me.

Hope everyone has a lovely Sunday
take care

[bear73]

Sunday 18th February

Morning, well had a hell of a lot more than 2 drinks last night, well unless you were using glasses the size of a bath tub. Well no more for me and I'm pleased and relieved and am going to see a hypnotherapist about low self esteem and smoking/drinking with money i will save.

Weird, another friend has given up since January and we were both chatting about how much more enjoyable life is wthout it, how much more money you have, having an extra day almost each weekend due to not staying in bed feeling as rough as a badger's arse.

For me today it's a case of loads of fluids,fruit, a big bit of bloke's birthday cake and tons of nice healthy food.Those encherritos are fab in the recipe section you should try them if you like mexican it's what we're having for tea (but with low fat cream cheese and less of it but still yum).

anyway I am excited about being able to do more exercise again./lose weight/buy loads more clothes - but more importantly feeling in control of my life and having that clarity and rested feling.what's eve nbetter this time is i know that i can do it and have no anxiety about it.this time i am not setting myself a date of whe ni will try to moderate again i am just going to do it for as long as possible - at least until my birthday beginning of april. I plan to lose a stone by then and i know it is so doable (need to lay off the alcohol free beer and stick to diet coke, not develop a huge cake addiction). This time need to go for the whole my body is a temple thing big time.

anyway happy sunday all and it's so great to be back.and without you people i would not even be in this frame of mind. So thank you I think this has all literally changed my life, and in time hopefully the size of my knickers!!!
:thanks:

[Pebbles]

Sunday 18th February

You go Bear, reading your posts over the last week or so, you have been in such turmoil, you know AF is the way forward. No decisions to make and break!

Have a great day!

[Mackeral]

Sunday 18th February

Good morning Abberdabbers,

Its a fresh sunny day to in my part of the world. The plan today like Paul is to get me Lisa and the kids outside and get some fresh air in our lungs...Maybe the park or go and have a walk down the lanes to feed the ducks.

Sods law...I wanted to get back to normal last night and have a good read and write on here but it was my daughters birthday and she had 4 friends sleep over...So i struggled to get into the living room never mind the computer. So fingers crossed i SHOULD be able to do that tonight instead.

Lastly i just want to say thanks for all the kind words and support i have got from people here...It helped tremendously..

Macks:l

[Sue Can Do]

Sunday 18th February

Glad to see everyone has a positive mind set today, truly hope you all enjoy your day, mine was fantastic and tomorrow even better.

[AAthlete]

Sunday 18th February

Nervous day for me today, although it shouldn't be.

Am racing twice this morning in our cycling team's Indoor 10K Time Trial. In the past, I've always had the fact that I drink to fall back onto when my performances don't meet my expectations. Now, don't have that anymore and even though I feel great I still have butterflies-- I must be crazy!!

I just remind myself that I am still new at this AF stuff, and that in the grand scheme of life this is nothing (and I should be celebrating racing AF for a change).

Hope everyone has a great Sunday!

[Mackeral]

Sunday 18th February

Best of luck today AAthlete,...Remember butterflies are a good thing...A bit of adrenalin gets those muscles pumping....Whatever you do though enjoy it.

[Java]

Sunday 18th February

That is awesome AA, have loads of fun my friend and go out there and enjoy your accomplishment!!!!

Victoria

[YoungAtHeart]

Sunday 18th February

Good luck, Aathlete, I have faith in you. It sure is strange doing things AF for the first time, though, isn't it? No drinks to reward or console yourself. But you will be okay dealing with your feelings. You've been working hard on yourself. I'm glad you came on here and talked about it.

I've had a very weird week. We had a big ice storm Tuesday night, and work and everything has been very helter-skelter. Wednesday I went to work to see one client, and when I came out of the office my car was gone--towed away because the street was a snow emergency route. I had a friend pick me up and help me locate and pay for my car, and we had drinks and dinner afterward. I'm glad to say that I drank moderately, even though I'm supposed to be abs, but Friday night (the first day of somewhat normal work, etc.) I got completely tanked at a friend's house. I mean completely. Ugh! In case I needed to be reminded what I have been missing, I learned that I'm not missing much. Yesterday, I pretty much sloggged through the things I had to do with a hangover. What fun! :-( At any rate, I had been avoiding this friend, and I guess that I was testing myself. I flunked big time, and even though I care for her, I can see that I'm going to have to continue to avoid socializing with her--it just doesn't work for me. I have given her husband and her info about the MWO site, but she just isn't ready yet.

At any rate, I'm still thinking about all of this and what it means, but for now, I'm also glad that it is a sunny Sunday, and I don't have a hangover. I have lots of things to do, and I'm looking forward to getting them done. I'm also re-reading a book that I read when I was drinking--there are whole parts of it that I don't even remember!! It's like reading a whole new book. It's fun, but a bit scary, too, to think that I was so out of it.

Anyway, I hope everyone enjoys their Sunday.

Kathy

[Mackeral]

Sunday 18th February

Hiya Kathy, that last bit on your post made me laugh out loud...There are so many films that i cant remember the end to beacause i passed out..Or like you said just too drunk to remember...Still its fun watching them again now to find out what happens:H
I shouldn't laugh really but i did.

[Java]

Sunday 18th February

Day 37 AF,

Okay here's the rundown,
I did my run yesterday morning with my friend, that would usually boost my mood, and it did, and that would be my saturday boost to avoid alcohol...holy sh...it...yesterday at about 2:30pm I was sitting in my apartment then all of a sudden BAM...slapped upside the head, felt like day 1, you know, where you are motivated all day, but then it comes around to "that time " and you break down and go to the liquor store and break all the promises you made to yourself. Well holy crap that was scary!!!!! I was sitting here going "what the hell??!!"

I sat here thinking about all i had accomplished, but all i could think about was the buzz feeling i wanted, and the feeling of a ciggarette as i inhaled it when i am drinking ...then I told myself once again this was stupid and i was not willing to break my chain of AF for a stupid craving, I looked up puppy breeds online (figured they are cute and would get my mind off of it) and waited it out until past that "time" I didnt write about it last night because i almost felt i might talk myself into it. See, I knew if I could make it through it I would be fine today, liquor was my drink of choice, and they dont sell that on sundays here. So anyways, with the exception of the first two weeks, that was the first time this has happened to me, I have been doing pretty good, even thinking that maybe when I hit 90 days or 100 days that i may try to moderate, but that feeling yesterday and that breakdown i had that could have easily ruined my streak of AF has taught that I dont think i can moderate, and i havent even attempted it, because the craving wasnt for a "glass", it was to go get hammered....


Victoria

[Accountable for Me]

Sunday 18th February

Victoria: I had a craving like that one last Saturday. It was insane. I am thankful I didn't give into it. Like yours it came out of no where and I didn't want to have just 1 either I wanted to get hammered!! Good for you for remaining strong!

Macks: Fresh air does a person wonders. I have been couping myself up for almost a week now - just gettng out for the necessities. UGH! Starting to get cabin fever. So today I am going to make an effort and get myself and my daughter outside. Anyway, have fun feeding the ducks. That is one of my favourite past times as a kid.

YoungAtHeart: Hang in there! You can do it. Those nasty hangovers are a good reminder of why we want to be AF.

Popeye: You are sounding good today!!

AA: Good luck with your race today. I know you will do great.

To all of you others (and hopefully I haven't missed anyone) have a great Sunday!

[southernbelle47]

Sunday 18th February

Hi Abers...
beautiful day here in Bama but very cold!
We have our son and daughter-in-love down with us for the weekend and having a great time. We(hubby and I) were afraid (Fear) that son was going to come down to tell us that his unit has been reactivated to Iraq, but it has not. (yet) Fear is a terrible thing....it will steal all your joy if we let it...
Lets not ""let" it!

I'm sad to see my friends here having struggles..It hurts to hear because I've "been there"....Every time I've done it, I've looked back and thought "now why would I do that to myself"?.....Yuck!! Let's write the yuck down and reread it next time before we do it again.. I'm really not fond of the cold floor in my bathroom and the barffing in the toilet...

Had a great sleep last night...10pm-8am....... Doesn't get any better than that.
I love you all....
:l Nancy