AF day Saturday 21 July

[shueaddict]

AF day Saturday 21 July

Sausage, you're sizzling ... At 150 days?

Sunflower, your story made me laugh and cry and cringe ... I can sooo relate to that, the wine at the kid's birthday parties, the beers at 10 Am in the park ... I am rooting for you, you are doing so well.

[Lavande]

AF day Saturday 21 July

No one around tonight?

I'm still trying to wind down after watching my youngest grandson this evening or I would be getting some zzzz's

Great job on 150 days Sausage!

Lilly, congrats to you as well! You did great, made the right decision - be proud!

Wishing everyone a comfy AF night. Tomorrow will soon be here

[TheSunFlower]

AF day Saturday 21 July

Checking in late. Started to clean and get things organized in the house. Around 3pm the uneasiness started to set in. I had no desire to actually drink....but, just wanted the uneasiness to go away. Finally, it went away around 6pm. I just hate how my brain seems to be like an alarm clock going off at the same time everyday. Need to unplug the damn thing!

Thanks to everyone for your kinds words of encouragement. No plans of putting myself in that situation again. But, al is everywhere and it is hard to avoid it without being a hermit. They sell it everywhere here....was at the grocery store today....and went to get a bag of chips....of course they are in the "cold beer" aisle. My kids were funny...."don't look Mom, don't look Mom". And quite frankly I don't care that everyone in the aisle was looking at us strange.

I'll wear a t-shirt saying..."I'm an alcoholic" if that is what it takes

Mick...I like the idea of writing it out. I do it in my head, but my head is still is not to be trusted. I think if I write it out....the uneasiness maybe will subside much faster.

Lifechange.....I am glad that there are places here that are safe. No drinking in the theaters, sidewalks or parks. Thank God for that.

Lilly...at least now you know how uneasy it makes you feel. My most dangerous time is when people are just getting that buzz on. And I CAN NOT watch normal people drink. Sitting there with a drink for a half hour! But, I do remember....once people started to get drunk...it just did not look like fun anymore. That said....I went back out there.

Sausage....your signature reminds me. I got sober 2x for numerous months. After the 2nd relapse it took me 6 years of trying just to get the resolve back that I have now. Before I said it was 8 years....but, I was counting back to the first time I got sober.

Two close friends had some really bad things happen to them. We were all trying to quit, but kidding ourselves at the same time. It really was a matter of days or weeks before I was in their shoes.

Thank you to everyone who posted. Each and every post lifts my spirits.