I'm starting this thread a few days early. I'm hoping we get some new people to join in. If you're lurking here, please feel free to make a comment or ask a question. You don't have to be an AA member to participate.
Last night's meeting was on step 12. I shared that I wouldn't have been sitting at that meeting if someone (a friend of ours) hadn't extended a helping hand to me when I really needed it. The key is that I was finally willing to admit that:
1. my drinking wasn't normal.
2. I was sick of the drinking life.
After 3 years of sobriety, I'm beginning to see that I was unwilling to accept life on life's terms. I wanted the world to fit my specifications, & when it didn't I drank to escape. There's an acceptance passage in one of the stories in the BB that really captures the essence of the AA program. I must be willing to accept that whatever is happening right now is supposed to be happening. I'm not paraphrasing it very well. I'm going to look it up & see if I can find it.
Anyhow, I hope all is well out there. If you're new to meetings, it really does get easier. Even now, I sometimes say: "Why am I sitting here when I could be doing something else?" I just know that AA is what I need to live my life the way it's supposed to be lived.
Mary
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