Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

[mauritiusdodo]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Sleep is very important, with the info given to me by the AL dependance unit there was an article on it, apparently we need to get up and go to bed the same times every day in order for our bodies to function efficiently.

I struggle to get enough sleep because my son likes to wake around 5am even when he isn't ill I always try to be in bed by eleven at the latest these days.

I am looking forward to being AF with you :l

[Byrdlady]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

It sounds as tho everyone's head is in the right place! I am so proud of each of you for grabbing life by the ____ and taking it back! I consider a drink in my hand as a one-way ticket to hell...
All the talk of how you want to be remembered makes me think back a few months when I got word that a former co-worker of mine had died suddenly. He was a PARTIER at all of our company functions, always leading the Karaoke and loud and fun! Always a smile and a red face. He left the company and when I got news of his passing I tried and tried to find out what happened. Why, at age 44, would a person just die? I finally found out after some serious digging....he had gone out with some friends on a Saturday night, went home with them and went to bed and never woke up (alcohol poisoning). The friend said to me...'you know David had demons he was fighting'. What a sad commentary...that a wonderful person in his passing is discussed in hushed tones and innuendo. I'll be DAMNED if I go out that way. I want to go out kicking and screaming...I want to be celebrated, not just tucked away and discussed with heads shaking 'what a shame'. I want to live every single minute of this short life and I want to be present for the good, bad, and the ugly that comes along...not just numbed up and brushed aside.
We are all making the decision to live!!! For us, there really isn't much of a life with AL on board. Celebrate your decision to take back what AL has claimed! You can do it!! Byrdie

[scottish lass]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Happy Friday all, yet another good morning as I wake bright and cheerful.
Thanks for the post Byrd - poignant reminder as to what we are doing and why.
Daisy, I have been going to bed later each night and then reading for a while - I need to reset the clock and ensure my sleep patterns don't get too mixed up - thanks for the hint.
Well I have a long commute to a distant office today that we are having an open house for, with free wine and sangria - i can fly to it, but chosing a 3 hr drive there and 3 hr back as that will stop the fight not to drink - and I have to come home as I go early tomorrow to get the girls from camp! AND I DON"T WANT TO DRINK ANYWAY!!! The drive is a beautiful one through hills and mountains (N California to Reno) solots of time for good reflection.
Thanks friends - and good luck today on our first Friday and looking forward to a bright, happy weekend!

[retteacher]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

D: I don't always get around the forum, so I just noticed your posts. Congratulations on your first day of abstinence. I joined MWO in Apr. of '07. I relapsed continually for 2 years after that. I finally became willing to become & stay sober in March of '09, & thank God haven't had a drink since then. It isn't easy. I have thought about drinking, though not lately. One of my best strategies is to remember my last & worst drunken experience. I ended up in the emergency room, & it was undoubtedly the most humiliating experience of my life. At this point, I'm a member of AA (I found I needed face-to-face contact w/other alcoholics), & also come here every day. Good luck. Mary

[daisy45]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Hey Mauri; looks like I may be joining you on the 'sick child' front. Picked up the little lady I am minding for the weekend - she has been none too well since she got here, although after a dose of Calpol, she seems to have perked up a bit.....hoping it is only a little quickie one. I do feel for you though; when our kids our young and fun, it is the same time that you are so exhausted that you aren't functioning on full power. When I look back to photos of my beautiful children in baby pics, I wish I hadn't got in the photo - like a zombie half the time......hang tight; it'll pass...
Hi Byrdie - I feel just the same; so sad to remember someone as just being a drinker - I wish people would see beyond what they see on the surface, but that is just not how it is with everybody....

ScottLass, enjoy your drive; long drives don't bother me either. I love putting the music up and singing as I go - when you're away from home, no-one recognises the lunatic behind the wheel anyway....

[daisy45]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Sorry Mary, cross-post. Thank you for that - it good to hear from people who try and try and then something clicks. I follow you on the AA thread and am always interested to hear about what goes on there.
Thanks for your support - means a lot.

[techie]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Hey there daisy, my word association thread pal. I'm following you here, keeping up with the posts. You are in such a positive place now. Hold onto that. I am heavily into sports, hiking and exercise. I've competed in triathlons. Maybe you already knew that LOL. Anyway keep up the GREAT progress. Adopting a healthy lifestyle is a huge motivator. Keep me up-to-date as you get closer to that 50mi bike ride.

Techie :l

[daisy45]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Hi Techie - got my bike out yesterday - oiled up, pumped up, batteries changed - just waiting for my sorry ass to jump on and get going.....haha. I go to the gym and swim but haven't cycled properly since I completed a maracycle at 111 miles this time 2 years ago. I broke my leg badly 3 weeks later and never really got back to it. So next week will be my first real go at getting back on the road. Booking this cycle is just the nudge I needed.
My brother done his first triathlon last year. He wanted me to swim across the lough with him - I just couldn't.....just the thought of it. I can go a mile in the pool, but open water...aaaagh! Think his stories about the strong currents and jellyfish gave me the wobblies!!
Thanks for the thumbs-up!

[scottish lass]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Home safe and sound - 368 mile drive for a good excuse not to drink - whatever it takes!!
Happy to see everyone here.....Happy Friday, looking forward to a bright Saturday....

[mauritiusdodo]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Morning Daisy how are you today? hope your little visitor is feeling better today, I wish DS would take calpol it is brilliant but he refuses any medicine point blank!! Are you going for a bike ride today? It looks like it could be good weather here, hope you have the same

[scottish lass]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Mauri - was just getting ready to shut down, it is still Friday night here, but think it is Saturday with you - and the 28th! So HAPPY BIRTHDAY and good luck on Day 1! I admire your strength so far, and know it will serve you well....
Have a great day...:l

[mauritiusdodo]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

scottish lass;1356094 wrote: Mauri - was just getting ready to shut down, it is still Friday night here, but think it is Saturday with you - and the 28th! So HAPPY BIRTHDAY and good luck on Day 1! I admire your strength so far, and know it will serve you well....
Have a great day...:l

thanks SL it is Saturday but my birthday is Monday we were just going out tonight, thank you though

[daisy45]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Well, here I am on day 3; feels like sobriety is just how I live - and it is!!!!
I didn't even have to set my alarm today - up at 8am after heading to bed at 1. That might sound late to some of you, but for me it is a good result.
Was so tired last night, I didn't even check in here...
Yesterday was good; went swimming for the first time in weeks. I just feel alive when I get back to my exercise. Managed 50 lengths; and was so proud of my 9 year old niece. She was trying to do a few lengths and got to 20. I told her that 32 would bring her to half a mile. I swam the last 12 with her and she done it.....she is so proud of herself!
I do not know what it is, but I really feel as if I just live a sober life - I feel an acceptance I have not felt before.....don't really know how to explain it, but, you know what, who cares.....all good right now and I am happy about that.
My sister is back today from her weekend away so she will be collecting her foster daughter at some stage; she has been a breath of fresh air this weekend. Loves make-up and shoes, talks non-stop, and she is only 6.
I will be away in the morning with my mum and dad; dad was diagnosed only 3 weeks ago with liver cancer. He is due to have keyhole surgery in 2 weeks time. We are going for his anaesthetic assessment in the morning to make sure he is ok for surgery, so I would appreciate anyones prayers that you could send his way - he is afraid...
Going to get this day into action now - laters.........

[mauritiusdodo]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Loving the positive vibes in here Daisy, well done you for day 3!! I know what you mean I feel different this time, the wine aisle didn't even cross my mind in the supermarket today and I spent my spare cash on household things for my DD moving into her new home on wednesday - felt really good!

I will keep everything crossed for your Dad's operation and for his speedy recovery :l

[scottish lass]

Reaching for the stars - after a good kick up the ****!!!

Daisy, way to go for teh positive energy - what a great feeling message.
So sorry about your father, that will be scary - and a great time to be sober to face what comes - stay strong to get thru it.
I haven't been swimming in years, used to love it - maybe I will look into it again -the local gym has a pool....hmmmmmm.....
Have a good Sunday all....
PS Mauri - sorry for getting your birthday wrong, confusion is a problem for my poor addled brain just now