af day wednesday 12th Sept

[txbird]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Glad I found you and this thread. (is 'thread' the right word?). I never really kept track of the days before, but this time around it's different. I want to keep track. So .... today is day 2. I'm off to the Dr. Will report back as soon as I return home.
PS I am so, so much better already. I feel hope and a confidence that I did not have even yesterday. Wow. Can I thank you and everyone else enough? No, not yet. I hope I can 'pay it forward' with time.

[porqoui]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Hi Txbird, yup thread is the right word. Tomorrow it will be AF Day Thursday 13 September...follow along.

Here's a calculator Mick introduced me to. Check it out.

AA History Sobriety Calculator

I'll be looking for you Dr's report later. Got to get off this site and get to work. PPQ

[shueaddict]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Welcome aboard, Texas Bird!!!! We do like to play with our names a bit - as KY, down under will no doubt confirm.

Tell us a bit about you. For myself, in short, I am a 36 happily married working mom of one boy, with a nasty fondness for Sauvignon Blanc - 1 bottle a day, 4-5 night a week was my peak drinking last year. For a few years I have been piling up kilos, black outs and the overall feeling of not really being in control. MWO has changed that finally. The key was been challenging everything I thought was great about AL.

TND - I have often wondered why doctors drink (they know a lot more of the consequences) - this addiction sucks!!!

Aussies and NZs - I envy you ... I am definitely suffering from a bit of summer nostalgia here ... The beginning of autumn is definitely my favorite weather ( perfect for hiking), but I am not quite ready to let go of the nice warm days.

[Mick]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Cinders....oops just had to redo that ..missed a letter out...ciders!!! nice to see you.Love the avatar..here are a couple of pics that I took with my phone when it was sunny....once!

Mick

[YoungAtHeart]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Just a fly-by hi. I miss you all.

My sister has been drinking every fecking night. I have been staying relatively serene drinking iced tea and virgin drinks, but last night I set a limit when she wanted to go out on the town. I told her I didn't want to put my sobriety in jeopardy, but she was welcome to go out if she wished. She was vaguely pissed at me, but I figured it was the booze talking. She was much better this morning.

It's aggravating, but I'm still SOBER! I won't be able to really catch up on all of you until Sunday afternoon. We're in Savannah now; it is really beautiful, and reminds me of New Orleans.

Hugs to each and every one of you.

:l :l :l

YahYah

[txbird]

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I'm home from Dr. He believes that I need to get on medication for my 'underlying' issues with manic depression. I was totally honest with him. I told him about my history and about the recent drinking patterns. So ..... I see my therapist tomorrow morning and I can make an appt. with the psych. at that time. My Dr believes that the mania (which I have more often than the depression) is why I crave the drink. I do like to drink when I'm manic because it eases me, it calms me down. When I'm depressed, it's the last thing I want. I have been on meds for manic depression before, and I took them for years with little or no affect. I will talk to the psych about what he thinks may help me.
The Dr didn't think anti-craving meds would help at all. It's only been two days and I'm not shaking now. I was a bit this morning but he checked that and my hands were steady. I told him that by tomorrow I may want to drink or most likely the day after. He has been my Dr for a few years and has always been very frank with me. He was glad to hear about this website, suggested I continue, urged me to see the psych and snuck in a pneumonia shot as well as a tetanus shot. He wanted to also give me a flu shot but they were out. I'm going back early Oct for that. He was supportive and glad that I came in to talk with him. He thinks that with meds for the mania, my outlook and mood will improve and with the support on here, my whole life will improve. I'm really glad I went.

[porqoui]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

:wd: Yeah Txbird :wd: I'm so glad things went good for you. Sneaking on at work just to check on you, will post more later....

Have a great day. PPQ

[porqoui]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

YahYah - Way to go. As they say...best laid plans of mice and men......Stay strong as I know you can and we'll catch up on Sunday. Have a good one. PPQ

[Mick]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

hi folks..Iam out early doors tomorrow..didnt find out till tonight..will try and start the thread..if I cant..can someone else? ta muchly

Mick

[porqoui]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

txbird;1377180 wrote: My Dr believes that the mania (which I have more often than the depression) is why I crave the drink. I do like to drink when I'm manic because it eases me, it calms me down.

Interesting Txbird. I could always tell when my ex was about to go on a manic...he would start to drink. He is a social drinker but when he starts going high all the rules go out the window.

Sounds like your Dr. has a handle on things and with seeing your therapist tomorrow and making a psych appt. you're doing everything right. And you know you have lots of support here to talk about everything that's happening.

We're really glad you went too. :wd:

I'll be on and off now as I'm home from work but now have the dreaded "other" work to do. One day at a time Txbird. As Mick says, Stay Close. PPQ

[porqoui]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

Hi Mick, yup we'll handle the thread start if you're not able to tomorrow. It'll be interesting to see who's up the earliest. Have a good one. PPQ

[txbird]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

I think I just finished an "urge surf". Anxiety. I'm better now. I like the idea of doing this mindfully. Of staying aware of what exactly is going on. This site keeps me more grounded. So, I did not drink. I used to tell myself that I'd feel better in the morning if I didn't drink today and that worked for me many times. It's funny how that stuff sometimes doesn't even come to mind.
Anyway, just wanted to share. I'm still sober.

[Mick]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

tx good for you..well done..get them surfed!!! thanks ppq your a star

[ChefRobaire]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

txbird, welcome...hang in here...lot's of cool peeps doin' the same thing you are....we're all in this together, I am really glad I am sober right now...Day 25 tomorrow...YEE...HAW!!

[kuya]

af day wednesday 12th Sept

shueaddict;1377132 wrote: Welcome aboard, Texas Bird!!!! We do like to play with our names a bit - as KY, down under will no doubt confirm.


TND - I have often wondered why doctors drink (they know a lot more of the consequences) - this addiction sucks!!!
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Hi Texas, I have been following your posts in the newbies thread, you are doing everything you need to do. Stick close to MWO and you will find the support you need to make a break with AL and get your life back.

Shue, whilst my response to TDN's observation was light hearted I feel compelled to respond to your comment about doctors, which would therefore include all medical professionals ( MPs)

First off MPs are raised in the same society as everyone else where the attitude to drinking poison( AL) is that it is 'normal'.
Most people start drinking in their late teens/early twenties and for MPs this period is at UNI where excess AL use is almost expected.
By the time they qualify they are just as likely to have started on a path of alcohol misuse as anyone else!
Then comes the real kicker! Their jobs are EXTREMELY stressful AND they have to live with the pressure of hiding their alcohol abuse since it would impinge negatively on their registration to practice.
They are also much less likely to seek help at AA because the risk of social exposure and harm to career is too high.

When you learned the facts of the harm AL was causing you ..... Did you stop? No, because you were already addicted.
It is no different for MPs, in fact it is worse because they KNOW the mess they are in, see their patients who expect them to be all knowing and perfect, and the terror of what they are knowingly doing to themselves fuels the need to escape further into addiction.

If it is not alcohol then it is drugs, often the ones they have ready and legal access to. The suicide rates amongst MPs is FOUR TIMES that of the general population due to stress and easy access to the means.

And if you are wondering at my slightly irritated tone, it is because I AM one of those medical professionals, so I know what I am bloody well talking about!

Thanks for listening

KY