I read the last few entries to last week's thread. I liked: "What would love do in this situation." I too can be very judgemental & opinionated. I have to challenge that all the time. Also, I too am just beginning, after 3 years in AA, to explore the more spiritual aspects of the program. Yesterday, I took some time to meditate & am happy I did. I try not to judge my meditations & just go w/the flow.
No, I can't change my past, but I can change my future. Sometimes the best amends of all are the "living amends." Changing what I do is a powerful expression to the people around me that I am moving forward in my life.
I too kept my blood alcohol level to the point where any discomfort was numbed out. I was pretty good at not going too far out there & getting dead drunk...though sometimes I did. That's why it came as a surprise to some people when I came out as an alcoholic. What an effort it took to find the right level between drunkenness & numbness. I absolutely don't want to go there again.
mary
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