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[satz123]

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Mick;1392743 wrote: Nurdl ...very well done on 40.....just my age...(ish) can I offer my CONgratulations...very similar to Satzys cogratulations..only better :H:H

Michael -last time you saw the number 40 - t'was prolly on a bus in Glasgow :H:H

[satz123]

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Turnagain;1392919 wrote: Greetings FABBodiferous ones...the daughter is wrapping up her visit here. Helping me out with some heavy lifting around house this morning...going to watch dad work this afternoon and then off on the aeroplane tonight. We are just so fortunate.

This weekend, one of my son's friends died in Texas. He was walking on a high bridge, texting while drunk and fell to his death. This is so tragic. Another one of my son's acquaintances died last year after drinking so much that he passed out, vomited and then choked. These are young ones just barely in their 20s. Despite this, my son continues to drink excessively which is just scary to me. I wasn't as much of a binge drinker when I was his age and look where I ended up: a daily binge drinker by the time I hit the back side of 40. This addiction is just insidious.

Last night, I had a drinking dream. Yup after, what, 15 months of sobriety or something in that neighborhood. When I woke up I just felt awful - just as if it really had happened. I actually felt sick to my stomach. Just goes to show you the power of the mind. Now I need to go shake that off. Power up the super gratitude list to drown out that nasty reminder of life in the dark ages. Ethanol is poison. It doesn't do anyone's body any good. I am thrilled to be FREE!

PPQ, I would like 4 extra large bundles of positivity, please. I am running a little low this a.m.

NURDL....congrats on 40! It really does keep getting better!

Hugs to the rest of you around the planet. Please cork your dogs for the sake of slowing down the global meltdown. We're a bit sensitive to that up here.

Lovely post Turn - we can only advise the young ones - and hope they get sense before it's too late.
In the meantime you are a great example for them to follow !:goodjob:

[Mick]

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Satz....bang on the money/.....thats scary..No40 used to run through Maryhill...where I used to live !!!! you sure you aint stalking me from wayback???

[BlondeAFAmbition]

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Hi Daily Abber thread! I'm not new to this site...been a member for a while and have posted a few things in my time as you can see. BUT, I am back to day 1 today and last time when I went sober, coming on the daily abber thread was a tremendous help in not drinking that I'd like to join you again if that's alright. The monthly abstinence section is my favorite here on MWO...I don't post much anywhere else. To those who I haven't "met" before, greetings, I look forward to the AF journey with you. For the senior members who may remember me, I hope you are all doing well and know what an inspiration you are to us all. My first day sober is almost done and I have been successful at sticking to my plan. Time for another cup of tea and then some down town reading. Hope to sleep better tonight then I have in months. I miss waking up sober...it totally rocks. Or waking up in the middle of the night and realizing that I'm not hungover...looking forward to that later tonight

Good night to all, I'll check in tomorrow!

[porqoui]

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Turnagain;1392919 wrote:
PPQ, I would like 4 extra large bundles of positivity, please. I am running a little low this a.m.

It's a good thing my stock came in........"PPPP"

(Actually I've been searching for a pic, finally found one but then it wouldn't post the way I wanted it to! Thought I'd better send them "as is" to get them on their way.)

Off to cook supper but wanted to say :welcome: BlondeAFAmbition to the daily abber and congrats on AF day 1....PPQ

[BlondeAFAmbition]

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Thanks PPQ! Looking forward to getting to know you! Your avatar is super adorable BTW. Have a great night!

[porqoui]

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BlondeAFAmbition;1393142 wrote: Thanks PPQ! Looking forward to getting to know you! Your avatar is super adorable BTW. Have a great night!

Aww thanks. BTW your name might get shortened to BAFA as BlondeAFAmbition is waaayyy too long to type, so please don't take offense.

We will be checking on you in the morning and you'll get to meet Mick...our Esteemed Thread Starter.....PPQ

[Lavande]

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Nah PQ - I just call her Blondie :H

Glad you are back Blondie

[Determinator]

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BlondAF great to see you again, yes indeed those unhung versions of reality truly are a joy

Turn, yikes! so sorry to hear of your son's friend falling victim to the beast.

off to hotel-land tomorrow. all packed up. sigh.... will try to make the most of it. at least I'll be super busy.

ciao dawlings.......

[Turnagain]

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BlondeAF!!!!!!

Welcome Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been hoping you'd make your way back and here you are. Let us know how we can support you.

[Turnagain]

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PPPPPorquoi! Thanks, grazie, danke, awa'ahdah for the quad P's!

[Determinator]

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Turn, I saw you came on chat but no text? have you updated java?

[Turnagain]

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Det...I have been having puter problems. BUT I think in this case...I just spaced out. Pugs are barking...peeps are talking...and working off a small laptop....I lose track of the java window...

sorry...

I've been missing you and the gang in the chat cave!

[Kaslo]

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Hi Blondie, welcome back... Good to see you again... Turn SO sorry to hear about your friends son, thats really tragic.

kas

[LillyE]

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Hi all,

Well, was probably obvious from my lackluster posting of late I haven't been in the greatest place regards being AF. Even though I did go over two weeks without drinking (note the did, because, yes, I'm sad to say I fell off the wagon again), I knew that I wasn't really back in that strong, positive, committed to quitting place and therefore it's not all that surprising to me that I drank again - I kind of felt it coming, just as I felt the complacency creeping in before.

I don't know what to say. I don't know quite how to get back there. I wish to hell I hadn't had that stupid sake on that date with some guy I'll never see again (not that it was the sake's fault or the date's fault - just emphasizing the pointlessness of it all when I had been doing so well) because it so wasn't worth it. Let this be a lesson to all if you don't know it already - if you've managed to get some decent time under your belt that "one" drink is really, really not worth the trouble it'll cause. I soooo don't want to spend another year doing this on-again-off-again thing.

I thought I had been doing a lot of the 'right things' to try and get back to where I was: rereading my books on alcoholism, reading here and elsewhere (though not posting much); journalling; seeing my therapist. But yet… I keep thinking about what Molly said to me, about how after you go a decent amount of time then slip how it can almost take MORE of a push to get motivated again. I am obviously finding this true. I just don't quite know what to do right now. I feel a bit lost honestly.

I am not a Dr Phil fan but I happened to catch the end of his show today while at the gym and he was talking about the stages of committing to change between intellectually knowing you need to change and mentally and emotionally being prepared to change - this is where i feel stuck right now, between the two. I know intellectually and in my heart of hearts that I need to be AF and that, even though it's not easy it's far better. But, but, but… I just feel lackluster.

Thanks for listening. I don't want to keep coming to this thread and talking about drinking. It's embarrassing and I don't want to stir up ill will for those who (understandably) prefer this thread to be about living sober not relapsing. So I may have to go stick my head into that 'tail between legs' thread for a bit or something. But I do hope to be back and posting when I'm actually sorted my shit out.

Meanwhile, keep up the good work folk.

Lilly