af day Mon 3 Dec

[YoungAtHeart]

af day Mon 3 Dec

Kuya, do try to settle down tonight. There's not much that is worth losing sleep for. I wish I could send you some z's the way PPQ sends p's. Anyway, good luck getting settled tonight.

nurdl, that picture is great. Today was great convertible weather. Glad you enjoyed yourself.

It reached 70 degrees here in north central Maryland today. It was so beautiful!

That is a beautiful bridge, Lav. How much is the price difference in gas between where you live and Maryland? I'm curious.

Have a good evening, all.

[Lavande]

af day Mon 3 Dec

YahYah,
I've stopped looking at the gas prices in PA because the gas station I go to in Fairhill is actually the closest to my house. I live 1/4 from the state line :H :H
I did glance at gas prices yesterday as I traveled closer to Philly - yikes!!! Closer to $4!

[TheSunFlower]

af day Mon 3 Dec

I have been MIA....with a reason.

I knew it was coming and gave in. Lets just say that "I NOW REMEMBER WHY I GAVE UP WINE 8 YEARS AGO". Sadly, I enjoyed every moment.....right up until the blackout....5 good hours I can't account for. But, have consequences from. Nothing that will not be repaired....but, not enjoying them the least bit.

I have not touched a dropped since then. But, its like I have opened the devil's gate. I am haunted by the smell I loved....they high is way different than I ever got with beer. 8 years off wine....and it came flooding back in as to how much I loved it. But, I know there is no way in hell I can ever touch the stuff again.

I know that some hate slips posted here. I chose to drink the poison and take responsiblity for that. I am settled back into AF life and why it is so important.

I just hope my story....makes someone think twice, before they give in. Especially in during these holiday times. I am grateful it happened when it did.....instead of ruining my entire holiday. I am clear....no booze

It was a scary ordeal....but, if I needed to learn a lesson....I am glad that I did. It will be a month before the consquences heal.....but they will and so will I.

[porqoui]

af day Mon 3 Dec

SF....you just tell me who hates having slips posted here, I'll have a word with them :boxer:

We're here for all the good, the bad and the ugly...doesn't matter we care :l

I'm so glad you're not beating yourself up and have chosen to look at it as a lesson learned.

:goodjob: on taking responsibility for your decision and like you said you now know you can never touch the stuff again.

It's posts like this that help all of us....

Positive P's on the way...:angel:"P P P":angel:

[scottish lass]

af day Mon 3 Dec

Quick check in - so busy, I got a new boss a couple weeks ago - interesting days, I actually hired him and was his boss for a while. We got a new CEO and now things are changing - my schedule is changing - we had an office move and I now live just over 80 miles away from the office, my staff is all remote so I was given flexibility and ability to work from home 2 to 3 days a week etc and all worked out - but that is going and now they want me in the office (where none of my staff are) four days a week for 8-10 hrs - it doesn't work when I am alos being a single mom to my girls - oh my, will have to see how this goes!
So in the hope to change my mood, here is a joke - not stealing your role Mick for sure (ps thanks for a kick up the you know what! I needed that, especially after my day)

A fleeing Taliban, desperate for water, was plodding through the Afghan desert when he saw something far off in the distance. Hoping to find water, he hurried toward the oasis only to find a British soldier selling regimental ties.

The Taliban asked, "Do you have water?" The soldier replied, "There is no water, the well is dry. Would you like to buy a tie instead? They are only ?10.

The Taliban shouted, "You idiot infidel! I do not need an over-priced tie. I need water! I should kill you, but I must find water first!" "OK," said the soldier, "It does not matter that you do not want to buy a tie and that you hate me. I will show you that I am bigger than that, and that I am a much better human being than you.

If you continue over that hill to the east for about two miles, you will find our Sergeant's Mess. It has all the ice cold water you need. "Inshallah."

Cursing him, the Taliban staggered away over the hill.

Several hours later he staggered back, collapsed with dehydration & rasped......"


They won't let me in without a f*cking tie!"

[Determinator]

af day Mon 3 Dec

Kuya, aren't employees fun? xxxx sorry hon

Lav, nice pic. looks like a lovely area.

a bridal shower with no jello? well that's like being rushed to the emergency department and finding no clowns in the waiting room.

or going to rehab in LA and not bumping into any celebrities. hmmmm

Sun glad you didn't suffer any tragedy when you blacked out. it's scary stuff I know all too well.

Scottishlass, hahahaha

Grazie for the P's PQ

ok, off to check chat xxxxx all

[Catbuddy]

af day Mon 3 Dec

Hi all,

SL, I am laughing here over that joke. I'm tired from work, too, and that brought a smile to my face. The situation at work is awful. You might look into a principle in CA employment practices - "constructive termination." Your company has done that to you by moving your office more than 50 miles from your home, when it was previously within 50. This should qualify you for severance and unemployment, if you choose to look for another job.

SL and I are at the end of the time zones, so I tend to chime in late. First, Happy Birthday, YAH! Hope it was wonderful.

TDN, thanks for pointing out the supplements Lav has recommended. I need to read that book, too. Later, probably after this Christmas rush.

Cantoo, I was sad to read of your son's thoughts about the tree, and loss of interest. I feel I just barely made this decision in time. My son is 9, and had never commented on my drinking or put 2+2 together. But I have lost years with him, and I am ashamed. This will be my first Christmas without AL since I separated from his Dad. We still put up a stocking for him, and my son always thinks of us as a whole family. I don't want to rob him of that, and believe we can have a welcoming place for his Dad here always. But it runs a knife through me. Without the AL, I feel it now. Tonight, I had to lay my head on the floor as he was talking about "our family." He stopped, got concerned, and asked what was wrong. I made an excuse; we moved on. But whoa, the pain I avoided is now here. Help me hold on, my friends.

SF, your post scared the shit out of me. Thank you so much for sharing. I would be like that. I LOVED wine. I think it would be like a heroine hit for me to try it again. This is my first quit, so I lack the reference point of slipping and knowing how much harder it is to come back. So I read your stories, thank God I have you guys to talk with, and believe. I did have one brush. I had heard of people's caution around any AL exposure, and thought it was extreme. The other night I was making stir fry, and wanted a sauce. Normally I would add white wine. I have no wine (!) but still had sherry for cooking. I took it out and smelled it. WHAMO. Massive craving for AL. I literally rocked on my feet. I poured it out immediately, not that I would drink sherry (blech) but I would drive to the store for wine. It was scary. Now I need to project how one glass could actually lead to the bottom of the hill again, AND WORSE. Amazing. Now that my system is really Al-free (it's been 63 days), the re-introduction would be powerful indeed, and disastrous. And my son would lose me again. This time, he might not forgive.

Goodnight to all, thank you for sharing your advice and your struggles. We learn from both!

Sleepy Cat

[kuya]

af day Mon 3 Dec

SUN .....as PPQ said this is a thread with people trying to live alcohol free. We don't always succeed, but that is our intention.
As you have we may occassionally slip up, but regret it.

What I can't handle in large amounts is repeated talk of moderating, peeps who can and do have a few drinks and can then abstain. They are healthy drinkers ...... I can never be.......but when I hear it I wonder for a few moments if I could and it lowers my resolve.

To slip and regret it is one thing...... A warning. To drink and enjoy it and stop is a fantasy I have abandoned, if that makes sense.

AF daily to me means intending to live AF day to day....an intention not a requirement.

This is why this is my 'home' thread and not any others with lovely people indeed, just not as clearly AF.

I have safe drinkers in my 'real' life, I do not have sober recovering alcoholics and I need that, even when they are human and occassionally slip up.

[Kaslo]

af day Mon 3 Dec

Hi everyone... I know its not Monday, but i wanted to welcome TDN back, also SF and reassure Cat that il will take some time but eventually the smell and temptation of AL will receed. Remind yourself that when you quit, you really hated it. Remind yourself of the very last time, and what THAT was like. Not a picnic I expect.

Also ScottishLass, that was a HOWL. I have to tell my brother that one.

kas