af day Wed 5 Dec

[treetops]

Morning all fellow abbers - not so great weatherwise in NZ today. But not as cold as where many of you people are. This is a tough month for many - whether alkies or not - the stress is so big and you wonder why?????
Mick's advice on doing the little bits - very true. And it will pass - there will be more celebrations and millions and millions of people throughout the world celebrate without booze. And for those that do partake - so be it and let them enjoy the time out - because most don't have the years of daily abuse most of us here have. And if it all gets too much - walk away, read a book, go online, or just have fun in the ways you can.

Thats a bit preachy - sorry - its the morning here! Next time I post it will probably be from a hotel room. I am taking my wee AF treats with me and lots of reading/DVDs for late at night. As soon as I get to my room I will put the little wine bottles on top of the fridge away.
Has anyone ever asked room service to take the AL out of the minibar???

Lots of hugs!!!!!

[TheSunFlower]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Thanks for all the support. I needed it.

[scottish lass]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Just trying to beat my fellow N Californian to say hello here - I am cheating beacuse it is not tomorrow and she signed in at midnight yesterday, but todays (yesterdays) posts put me in such a good mood that I just feel like saying hello to tomorrow!

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

scottish lass;1421981 wrote: Just trying to beat my fellow N Californian to say hello here - I am cheating beacuse it is not tomorrow and she signed in at midnight yesterday, but todays (yesterdays) posts put me in such a good mood that I just feel like saying hello to tomorrow!

And if you understand that you have a degree in gibberish ! :H:H

Morning all, and happy yesterday to SL for tomorrow

Yeah weather crap today Tree, and I'm feeling crap too.

Feeling less anxious about Xmas though just ongoing money worries getting to me. This economy is so flat and my clients are struggling to find any extra for pets.

Aw well ..... At least I'm sober. If I were drinking I would be in a scary place right now.

Hi Sun ...... Chin up and good to see you :l

[treetops]

af day Wed 5 Dec

I am checking in again - now away from home at a conference. In my hotel room and all is OK - but felt really sad today as I had to leave my daughter for a few days. Also she is getting older and more independent (as she should at 14 years) but I feel old, like I wonder if I have done as much as I could for her - or have I done too much (ie been too protective) - you can see how I am beating myself up. She is quite a quiet young woman and I worry that she might be unhappy - we talk about this - and she says she is happy...so why am I having these self doubts about being a Mum. Yeah - its been a worrying day for me - and I guess this sobriety is kicking in those raw feelings.

Sorry about your money worries Kuya.

Oh dear - now I feel guilty that the people on this thread will wake up - their time - and read my woe because i am usually so chirpy in the mornings! I better try to sleep as I have an early start tomorrow.:upset:

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

The way I see it Tree is that this place is the place to be real.

Hiding our feelings with booze is how we ended up here, we need ups and downs cos that is what life is.
I have felt down all day, but tonight I feel OK again.....without booze.

One day at a time, my friend, one day at a time

[ThreeDogNight]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Good morning, Abbers.

Just finished reading all of yesterday's posts. Now on to today, although it is tomorrow for some, I guess. Can't keep all of that straight!

Got to do a little shopping yesterday at a new Trader Joe's about 45 minutes away. I kept thinking of how I will be so happy to go shopping alone when I finally get my license back. Mr TDN was patient, but I really wanted to stop at lots of other shops. But we had lunch out and then home.

Getting the breathalyzer thing sorted out. Good thing I as able to call a guy I knew from AA, as he told me just what I needed to do. This a.m. I have to call the insurance agency--where I worked part time three years ago--and it is going to be embarrassing to ask about the special (expensive) insurance I need to get. But I have to do it. Called the probation officer who is useless, and left yet another message. I have to get everything straightened out in that state before I can get things going here. And my court papers for reduction of time in this state have not been signed off on. I am going to ask a friend of ours--who is also a friend of the judge--to put in a word for me. I wish I'd let him do that before I went to court last year. Won't go into details, as it is all in older posts, and don't want anyone to think I was trying to avoid punishment, but I did get the maximum due to the prosecutor being our police chief. I keep focusing on what brought on all those problems for me, and accepting that I can never drink again. I've remained in the "trap" because I couldn't accept that I am not the person AL made me, but I know that is just what I need to look at every day. Not sure that this makes sense.

Am more than half way through the book I started two days ago--WHAT DID I DO LAST NIGHT? Wow, Sykes is only thirty at thee point I'm at, and it's non-stop drinking all the way! I know he quit, and that will be coming, but I am really amzed that he lived to tell!

Working today--and probably the next to days, too--and that is a good thing.

Hope you all have a great AF day.

Hope Mick is back later. Miss the jokes

TDN

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Good Morning Boozebusters

SL...I almost posted on todays thread yesterday after I saw SF's post. You sounded so happy before bedtime.

SF...You are most welcome.:l

KY...My first degree...GIBBERISH...Sorry you're feeling crap today here you go :angel:"PP":angel:

Speaking of crappy weather I had to get up and look out the window because of the noise.
Ice Pellets...could be an interesting drive for some this morning.

TT...thanks for starting the thread and yup being AF will do that to you. Don't be too hard on yourself. Read CB's post from yesterday "Something Brilliant is Happening".
Saved a couple for you Tree...:angel:"PP":angel:

TDN...sorry you have to deal with all that, but DEALING YOU ARE and it will be a thing of the past soon. You are not the person AL made you. A few more AF days and the real you will come shining through.
See, you put a plan together for your trip and you wouldn't have done that in the past.

CB...PPQ, how you doing? Can you make me an avatar if I find a great pic? My ride is a green subaru outback...send away Cat, I'd be honored.

Det...teabags...I LOVE IT.

Well since Mick didn't arrange for takeout before he left I'll have to go make my own cuppa.

Be safe everyone and have a Great AF Wednesday all and all to come....PPQ

[Lavande]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Morning Abbers,

Woke up to a ho-hum type of day here. No sun just drab looking out there.
I'll turn on a bunch of lights & drink a lot of coffee & soon forget all that :H

Work for me this morning, afternoon of babysitting, no time for a trip to Curves unfortunately.
I'm trying to not let stressful Christmas thoughts take over because I am having them too,
What a waste of head space ~ huh??

Wishing everyone a great AF Hump day! Good luck getting your license stuff sorted TDN

Lav

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

:hallo: Morning Lav...not only head space...what a waste of energy. Enjoy your day!

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Morning Laugh

Since Mick isn't here to share a laugh I thought I'd try...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U430rpfjIIQ[/video]]Mrs Brown's Misunderstanding - Mrs Brown's Boys - Series 2 Episode 5 - BBC One - YouTube

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Nurdl...


CONGRATS ON 3 MONTHS NURDL

:happy::wd::yay::yougo::danthin::woot:

[Kaslo]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Hi folks, First CONGRATS NURDL!! Way to go.

Its been a while since I posted on here. Everyone sounds calmer and more settled that say six months ago. Kuya, I sympathise with the financial things, people have less money, and they are cutting back on everything so I expect veternary work for pets is one of the things that gets cut. Hope it looks up soon. TT, I remember so clearly having to leave my two young daughters to go out in the bush for weeks at a time, driving to the Vancouver Island ferry with tears in my eyes. The older one always worried about me getting killed by a bear or a logging truck on those old back roads of the caribou or the chilcotin or where ever the hell I was off to... It was tough, and I wish I had spent more time with them when I was home, and less time at home drinking in the evenings to relieve stress. Hah, like it helped. Honestly we can have degrees in gibberish or what have you but we can still be eegits.

PQ sending some sunshine from the west Kootenay your way, and you can then send the pellets east. TDN, I am so glad to see you posting here again, and you sound like you are really sorting it out and making peace with yourself. Facing up to realities of why we drank and what to do to prevent it from ever happening again is really hard to do, and I can tell you have made a ton of progress, it really shows, so well done. Even if Mr TDN doesnt get it, I believe that reading about it as much as possible is a huge help, and also writing down the feelings and what is causing the stress that pushes us back toward AL.

Lav as usual, you are a saint. With a tude. lol! Hi to all the others, CanToo, Det (my pal), Sausage.

As for me, well, I am now at 21 months, and contemplating my second sober Christmas, this time in a rented cabin out in the Burnside farm area of Victoria with my grandkids. My daughter got her first job post having two little kids in a row, so she cant come home to us for Christmas, we are going there. I have not slipped this quit, and I am determined not to. I see so many others and learn from their experience, but I am not getting complacent. I went to a dinner last night for my garden club, and there was wine and a non AL punch, thank God. I think I saw two glasses of wine go out, and that was all. It always amazes me, as I tell Mr. Kas, that most people seem not to care if they have a drink or two or not. it makes no difference to them. Its STILL SUCH A BIG DEAL FOR ME. I cant get over that. Havent touched a drop, but I still worry about failure.

Hi Mick, if you are there.

Turnagain... helloooooooo. Marshy, Shue and Lilley and all those other regulars from a while back I hope you are all ok and doing well. I would like to think of myself as normal from now on, but somethings never really get sorted out.

Kas

[nurdl]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Kaslo, thanks for the nod and congratulations to you on 21 months. I am always encouraged by those here who quit and stay quit, even though there is a constant fear of failure. My three months isn't much but it's a good start and I intend to stay AF. It's great to have you check in. Keep coming back every now and then.
~nurdl

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

NURDL......congrats again!

Obviously I can so relate to how you feel being only a week ahead. Now it is time to consolidate and put away the daily fear of ' can I do this?'

Hi Kas ..... Nice to see you. So happy that sober life has been established and you sound content to be there. Can't wait to be you

KY