af day Wed 5 Dec

[nurdl]

af day Wed 5 Dec

true that Kuya! we rock!

[Determinator]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Happy humpday ABerooonies!

Kaslo, mega congrats on 21months and your 2nd sober Christmas! yes AL is a big deal to us, we are after all 'special' in that way and complacency is always waiting like a ninja armed with a bandolier of those little booze bottles (I amuse myself with my hyperactive mental imagery).

seems we have a few blue moods in ABs land. hoping you all perk up shortly and find something to charm your day/night.

feeling pretty hyper after a heavy bag workout, then trying to remember how to use my TRX fitness thingy.

well, this is my official warning to myself. I feel really good. and that's my warning. that's when I'm most susceptible to relapse. must keep my guard up and eyes wide open.

Dx's mom sent us a box of Omaha steaks. oh my! oink. now I feel super special. everyones invited for dinner!

be well fam xxxxx

[shelbysmiles]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Another check in from Northern California! Nice to see other locals on this thread!
Very shitty day here and I want to fall apart. But, alas, that's not an option. Found out today my youngest is failing Kindergarten. I'm talking bottom of the spectrum. Like learninig disability here. How does one even do that? 3 years of preschool and apparently he does not know his alphabet. I don't want to really talk about this to my "in real life" friends because they are all raising boy wonders. It's a wonder I'm not a raging alcoholic with all this...wait, never mind. But, I'm not drinking today. 10 days-double-freaking-digits!

I'm promise I don't normally bitch and moan this much. It just seems that the hits keep coming this week.

Det-keep your guard up. Steak sounds delicious.

Congrats to everyone racking up the days. I need to read back over again but I saw some inspiring days adding up!

[ThreeDogNight]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Great post, Kas. Lots to think about there. Glad to see you back here.

Made my call to the insurance agency this a.m. and got to talk with a woman there who is very active in AlAnon. Felt a little more comfortable speaking with her. First spoke with the book keeper, who was my best pal when I worked there. She said he didn't kno I'd had the DUI, but I think she was being polite. Anyway, I should have some quotes by tomorrow. And my info was faxed for the breathalyzer, and I have to give them a call tomorrow Left yet another message for the probation officer, and--nothing!! I am at wit's end with her. I will call tomorrow and then ask for her supervisor. She admitted to me last summer that she never reads the monthly reports I send, as she is too busy It's just not right that she has had all my paper work since October and has not helped me at all.

I'm tired after working all day, standing on my feet decorating the trees, but I have gotten faster and really love the finished products. I'll go in tomorrow as my "volunteer" day. More trees to do and probably more orders coming through, too. I should go and soak in Epsom salts, but am too comfy sitting in bed. Going to continue my book and see ifI get to the part where he stops drinking.

Mr TDN picked up the painting I had framed of our dog who has been gone a month now. It is so life like, and I started tearing up again. I still can't believe he's gone. I know he's in a better place, but it is so hard.

Hope you all had a good day, and I'll "see" you tomorrow.

TDN

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

shelbysmiles;1422560 wrote: Another check in from Northern California! Nice to see other locals on this thread!
Very shitty day here and I want to fall apart. But, alas, that's not an option. Found out today my youngest is failing Kindergarten. I'm talking bottom of the spectrum. Like learninig disability here. How does one even do that? 3 years of preschool and apparently he does not know his alphabet. I don't want to really talk about this to my "in real life" friends because they are all raising boy wonders. It's a wonder I'm not a raging alcoholic with all this...wait, never mind. But, I'm not drinking today. 10 days-double-freaking-digits!

I'm promise I don't normally bitch and moan this much. It just seems that the hits keep coming this week.

Det-keep your guard up. Steak sounds delicious.

Congrats to everyone racking up the days. I need to read back over again but I saw some inspiring days adding up!

SBS..... This is today's trigger, this is today's excuse if you want it to be. My kid is failing and every one else has geniuses...... I want a drink. I know how you are feeling cos I did the same, it is the way addiction talks to us. Non-addicts get information like this and have a cry. We all have to learn or relearn how to behave like non-addicts.

TEN FREAKING DAYS! That is the news of today.... Be happy.

Sober you will have the energy to help your son, drunk you will not.

[CanToo]

af day Wed 5 Dec

SBS - she knows what she's talking about! Congrats on the double digits!


Nurdl - 3 months, (my app says it's 92 days) Congrats!


And Cat you're getting closer to KY's favorite number....

Det - :H. Teabag? TRX, camping, cooking again! I like seeing your energy.

It's 8:45 and I'm off to bed.

......Must remember to touch the hippo.....

BYE y'all

CT

[shelbysmiles]

af day Wed 5 Dec

I'm definitely not going to let it be an excuse. I'm sure if I hadn't been drinking so heavily the past few years I would have picked up on him having academic problems. God, that's hard to say. I always felt safe with my drinking because I did not think I was abusing, hurting or neglecting my children. Who knows if I could have helped him sooner but the guilt is weighing heavily right now. No chances of me drinking tonight. Cuddled up with the kiddos watching some horrid Smurf Christmas movie :-)
Thanks again Kuya- your (and everyone else) support is so encouraging.

[TheSunFlower]

af day Wed 5 Dec

I am taking a break from being perfect. (haha) I dusted myself off....and got back on track....but, I am not a hard core abs person. I posted that months back. I started this journey with no intention of being abs forever.

I am pretty clear on why people have dropped off. Now it is time for me to take some time.

[Catbuddy]

af day Wed 5 Dec

CanToo;1422632 wrote:
It's 8:45 and I'm off to bed.

......Must remember to touch the hippo.....

Bite y'all

CT

Cantoo, I think it's great you bought the hippo as it connected with you. Years ago, I saw a wooden pig in a thrift store. It was a 1950s tupperware product; you put toothpicks with cheese in holes on its back. It is hysterical, and when I held it, I just knew I wanted it.

It's been on my coffee table (or bookshelf, or somewhere in the living room) for over 20 years.

You're going like that hippo!

Cat

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

shelbysmiles;1422633 wrote: I'm definitely not going to let it be an excuse. I'm sure if I hadn't been drinking so heavily the past few years I would have picked up on him having academic problems. God, that's hard to say. I always felt safe with my drinking because I did not think I was abusing, hurting or neglecting my children. Who knows if I could have helped him sooner but the guilt is weighing heavily right now. No chances of me drinking tonight. Cuddled up with the kiddos watching some horrid Smurf Christmas movie :-)
Thanks again Kuya- your (and everyone else) support is so encouraging.

:hPPQ

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

shelbysmiles;1422633 wrote: I'm definitely not going to let it be an excuse. I'm sure if I hadn't been drinking so heavily the past few years I would have picked up on him having academic problems. God, that's hard to say. I always felt safe with my drinking because I did not think I was abusing, hurting or neglecting my children. Who knows if I could have helped him sooner but the guilt is weighing heavily right now. No chances of me drinking tonight. Cuddled up with the kiddos watching some horrid Smurf Christmas movie :-)
Thanks again Kuya- your (and everyone else) support is so encouraging.

You are so lucky SBS.... My son was 23 years old before I realised how much my drinking had harmed him. Time I should have spent with him (he is dyslexic) that I spent with the bottle. It wouldn't have changed his dyslexia but I could have helped his self esteem I think.

SUN .... Why do people drop off ? I always assumed only one of two reasons.....they felt confident to post less or they were drinking again.

I know I NEED this place, I don't yet feel confident to fly solo, particularly with the silly season looming. Maybe at six months........

Hi Cantoo......if I were to do ONE burpee now I would be dialing 911 :H

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

PPQ ....love that sentiment :h

[porqoui]

af day Wed 5 Dec

kuya;1422658 wrote: PPQ ....love that sentiment :h

Thanks KY...We meet again. :H

I'm off to bed now...just had to check in first....PPQ

[kuya]

af day Wed 5 Dec

porqoui;1422660 wrote: Thanks KY...We meet again. :H

I'm off to bed now...just had to check in first....PPQ

And I am just starting the night shift

[Catbuddy]

af day Wed 5 Dec

Night, Kuya and PPQ.

Cat