af day Sat 5 Jan

[treetops]

Hi there everyone
still on our road trip but its almost over. Sitting here is a rather lovely garden waiting for breakfast to be delivered (yes!! this is a wee treat - staying in a very nice holiday house). I am ready to get back to work.

I especially felt for Nurdl's recent post on the being scared of alcohol/drinking - as I am almost up to my 3 month AL free mark. Yesterday was emotionally and physically draining for me - lots of me driving (which was great) but partner (I will call him G from here on) had one of his mood things - and just went on and on and on - while I was driving - daughter started crying, I started crying - etc etc. :upset:Here we are - in a f..king beautiful place and he wants to argue about how I deal with shit. Yet its me who has been dealing with my shit so much the past year (plus that of all the people and students I am responsible for at work), and I have not neglected the family. G has mood, mental health issues plus a big problem with overeating - and he will not take 'ownership' of this - just thinks it can all be solved by medication - that clearly is not working. So I had one of those moments - why don't I just leave - well I won't cos I love them - and I also know I need them and they love me - but sometimes its so bloody hard. My problems are really nothing compared to many....
anyway we get to this gorgeous house and I told G how it was for me - and I talked again about my year of dealing with AL therapists (more like non-therapists), AA, group therapy, going on Antabuse (currently off it but I might do another stint as it really helped me), paying $$$$ to see an addiction psychiatrist who told me f..k all, drinking copious non AL drinks, trying not to gain weight, etc etc etc - and how in fact I feel much much better. But I am so scared of drinking again, going back to detoxing myself, having bad liver function tests, and so on.
Anyway sorry to rant on and on and not say about you guys - but thanks for being there - MWO and this thread has really helped and will help.
Hugs all around and don't worry - I am not loosing it!

[TheSunFlower]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Honestly....I love the day ahead thread....makes me feel like daylight savings time on speed

TND....I hear you. This is a rough road to battle. Sometimes we listen to people who we think have our best interests at heart. I got real close to going to treatment.....my gut screamed "no". All I have ever heard about it.....its 24/7 class in AA. I like AA.....and would never encourage someone not to go check it out. Its not for me.....is all I can say. I know all the sayings.....read the same darn book over and over again. Stories of the past. Sometimes I might need that but, not today.

The reason it is not for me....is because at its core.....it makes you feel bad about yourself....unless you do what they say. I did what they said to do....and it never worked.

Tree....those are things to remember. But, they are in your past.....unless you pick up a drink. Sounds like you have enough to keep you straight. Keep posting.

Saw therapist again......and she is not about getting "sponsor'.....I had to find a person in my life who shared the same goals......non-AL related. Found her quickly....she is my cube mate.....and here we go. I like her because she will not allow me drop the ball on things.

Things feel good....things feel like they are going in the right direction.

[Mick]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Mornin boozebusters..and how are we today?...first af weekend of the year,so enjoy it without getting brain fried with booze!!!Got a bit of a surprise yesterday...cleaning out the garage ,and found 4 empty small vodka bottles...stashed in the road grit container !! think thats them all now!
Right on to business.............firstly Sunday tomorrow up very early ..so wont be able to start the thread..so theres an opener for a new career for someone :H..
Tea and coffee on the go now for all who want it

good morning TDN...well is it 30 degrees?How are you?Did you go out for the meal with Mr birhtday boy or is that tonight? Enjoy it.........no wine! Glad your dog is still doing ok.. looks promising on the job front too..get this licence shebang sorted out and the word is your oyster!!

Morning Lav...how are you? small coffee for you..went for a couple of miles run yesterday...certainly felt it!!Not exhausted or anything..just aching!!got to agree with you...this site is a real lifesaver literally..the more you put into it the more you will get out I find too

Morning Pauly...nice to see you ...how did New Year go for you?and like I said you are more than welcome here in the team

Scottish Lass...and how are you ? well done now on day 6...see you are doing great ..lets keep going..do you a deal ..send me some shepherds pie and I ll send you some HP sauce!!..Now heres a real treat for you from home..hard shelled meat pie, with mash on top and beans mmmmm..have a great day PS...hungover from salt.......defo better than from alcohol!!!!

Cantoo ..hi..specially for you green tea..wow loved that pic .have a great weekend :l

Nurdl..and how are you today?How did the yoga go ?This week needs to calm down a wee bit for me...doing what seems like a years worth in a week!!

Good morning SF. youre welcome..how are you today?See you have already posted on Saturday thread..glad you are doing ok and getting through finally to the therapist!

Tree cmere :l there you go big hug..coming up to the 3 month point well done you..as for the Mr G moods...hey dont we all have them at times?You answered your own question...cos we love him..maybe he needs to take a leaf out of your book.. and be honest with himself as you are with alcohol..ok I have got a drink problem that I need to address As for being scared of drinking...certainly wouldnt be scared..after all it isnt going to happen unless you let it. Apprehensive, yes, challenging ,yes but certainly not scared..you hold the key to that one

Right got to go...nice and sunny outside..going to let the rabbits out.....and shopping and garden centre and swimming and airport to pick mil up..ok how many hours of daylight left?

Have a great weekend ..will drop in tomorrow

Why don?t women fart? Because they don?t shut up long enough to build up the pressure.

?Waiter there?s a dead beetle in my soup.?
?Yes sir, they?re not very good swimmers. ?

?I asked my date what she wanted to drink. She said, ?Oh, I guess I?ll have Champagne.? I said, ?Guess again.??

Two lions are walking down the aisle of a supermarket. One turns to the other and says. ?Quiet in here today, isn?t it?

I phoned the local ramblers club today, and this bloke just went on and on.

An empty aluminum cigar tube filled with angry wasps makes an inexpensive vibrator.

?I took the wife?s family out for tea biscuits. They weren?t too happy about having to give blood though.?

I ordered a wake-up call the other day. The phone rang and a woman?s voice said, ?What the hell are you doing with your life???

A woman walks into a bar and asks for a double entendre ? so the barman gave her one.

What?s orange and sounds like a parrot? A carrot.

?My grandfather started walking five miles a day when he was sixty. Now he?s eighty-five and we don?t know where he is.?

[ThreeDogNight]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Have to head off to work, but wanted to say "Good morning." Will be back this afternoon. Now have a bad cold/upper respiratory thing that came on fast yesterday. Hate being sick!

TDN

[porqoui]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Good Morning TT...men really are from mars aren't they! Glad to hear you're not losing it.

Good Morning SF...glad you found your "cube mate". Definitely sounds like you're headed in the right direction. Sounding so much more positive.

Good Morning Mick...thanks for the coffee. Tried posting a couple of times yesterday but finally gave up. Wasn't your MIL just there? Maybe getting everyone mixed up. Easy to do.

Drove to a small town yesterday to play bridge with one of my seniors. I really believe seniors should be independant for as long as they can, but my GOD...I will never get in a car with that one driving again. :wow:

Been feeling anxious ever since I told the ex we could get together today. Well today's here and after a visit with my Dad I will go hear him out. I am steadfast on not giving up any of the caveats so am thinking it will be a short meeting.

Call from the lawyer yesterday was not what I wanted to hear. More postponing of court dates. :stomper: I will deal with that after the ex.

Feeling alot more positive today probably getting a good sleep helped. Usually it goes like this...



Have a great AF Saturday all and all to come....PPQP

[Lavande]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Good morning Abbers

Sunny & chilly in my neck of the woods today, tomorrow a bit of snow arrives or maybe that's just a rumor :H

TT, I'm sorry you are dealing with such an insensitive man.....I know a bit about that myself, believe me. Some of them just don't know when they have it good
Turning your attention to yourself right now it the best thing for you. You are doing great at almost 3 months AF - we are all very proud of you!

SunFlower, great that you found the right support person, nice

Mick, you are one busy dude today! Thanks for the coffee as usual & I hope you don't wear yourself out!

Greetings TDN ~ busy is a good thing!

I have tons of things to do today including hauling 150 pounds of chicken feed for Stella & the girls! YB promised he would show up to lend a hand....he'd better :H

Have a great AF Saturday everyone!
Lav

[Hippyman]

af day Sat 5 Jan

porqoui;1438478 wrote: Good Morning TT...men really are from mars aren't they! Glad to hear you're not losing it.

Good Morning SF...glad you found your "cube mate". Definitely sounds like you're headed in the right direction. Sounding so much more positive.

Good Morning Mick...thanks for the coffee. Tried posting a couple of times yesterday but finally gave up. Wasn't your MIL just there? Maybe getting everyone mixed up. Easy to do.

Drove to a small town yesterday to play bridge with one of my seniors. I really believe seniors should be independant for as long as they can, but my GOD...I will never get in a car with that one driving again. :wow:

Been feeling anxious ever since I told the ex we could get together today. Well today's here and after a visit with my Dad I will go hear him out. I am steadfast on not giving up any of the caveats so am thinking it will be a short meeting.

Call from the lawyer yesterday was not what I wanted to hear. More postponing of court dates. :stomper: I will deal with that after the ex.

Feeling alot more positive today probably getting a good sleep helped. Usually it goes like this...



Have a great AF Saturday all and all to come....PPQP

visualization is a positive first step.:H I'm over the moon that you aren't lossing it. Keep going and we will kick ALs butt together! :b&d:

[Hippyman]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Mick;1438381 wrote: Mornin boozebusters..and how are we today?...first af weekend of the year,so enjoy it without getting brain fried with booze!!!Got a bit of a surprise yesterday...cleaning out the garage ,and found 4 empty small vodka bottles...stashed in the road grit container !! think thats them all now!
Right on to business.............firstly Sunday tomorrow up very early ..so wont be able to start the thread..so theres an opener for a new career for someone :H..
Tea and coffee on the go now for all who want it

good morning TDN...well is it 30 degrees?How are you?Did you go out for the meal with Mr birhtday boy or is that tonight? Enjoy it.........no wine! Glad your dog is still doing ok.. looks promising on the job front too..get this licence shebang sorted out and the word is your oyster!!

Morning Lav...how are you? small coffee for you..went for a couple of miles run yesterday...certainly felt it!!Not exhausted or anything..just aching!!got to agree with you...this site is a real lifesaver literally..the more you put into it the more you will get out I find too

Morning Pauly...nice to see you ...how did New Year go for you?and like I said you are more than welcome here in the team

Scottish Lass...and how are you ? well done now on day 6...see you are doing great ..lets keep going..do you a deal ..send me some shepherds pie and I ll send you some HP sauce!!..Now heres a real treat for you from home..hard shelled meat pie, with mash on top and beans mmmmm..have a great day PS...hungover from salt.......defo better than from alcohol!!!!

Cantoo ..hi..specially for you green tea..wow loved that pic .have a great weekend :l

Nurdl..and how are you today?How did the yoga go ?This week needs to calm down a wee bit for me...doing what seems like a years worth in a week!!

Good morning SF. youre welcome..how are you today?See you have already posted on Saturday thread..glad you are doing ok and getting through finally to the therapist!

Tree cmere :l there you go big hug..coming up to the 3 month point well done you..as for the Mr G moods...hey dont we all have them at times?You answered your own question...cos we love him..maybe he needs to take a leaf out of your book.. and be honest with himself as you are with alcohol..ok I have got a drink problem that I need to address As for being scared of drinking...certainly wouldnt be scared..after all it isnt going to happen unless you let it. Apprehensive, yes, challenging ,yes but certainly not scared..you hold the key to that one

Right got to go...nice and sunny outside..going to let the rabbits out.....and shopping and garden centre and swimming and airport to pick mil up..ok how many hours of daylight left?

Have a great weekend ..will drop in tomorrow

Why don?t women fart? Because they don?t shut up long enough to build up the pressure.

?Waiter there?s a dead beetle in my soup.?
?Yes sir, they?re not very good swimmers. ?

?I asked my date what she wanted to drink. She said, ?Oh, I guess I?ll have Champagne.? I said, ?Guess again.??

Two lions are walking down the aisle of a supermarket. One turns to the other and says. ?Quiet in here today, isn?t it?

I phoned the local ramblers club today, and this bloke just went on and on.

An empty aluminum cigar tube filled with angry wasps makes an inexpensive vibrator.

?I took the wife?s family out for tea biscuits. They weren?t too happy about having to give blood though.?

I ordered a wake-up call the other day. The phone rang and a woman?s voice said, ?What the hell are you doing with your life???

A woman walks into a bar and asks for a double entendre ? so the barman gave her one.

What?s orange and sounds like a parrot? A carrot.

?My grandfather started walking five miles a day when he was sixty. Now he?s eighty-five and we don?t know where he is.?

I'm 60...OMG there is hope!

[scottish lass]

af day Sat 5 Jan

hi all, quick check in - laundry to do, groceries to put away, work to do at same time - but hanging in! Picked up some more of the yummy sparkling pomegranate juice...
Mick, will take you up on the meat pie (I like those scottish mutton pies!) with beans on top - yummy!!
PPQP - thinking of you and your visit - do not envy you at all....
TT - sorry for your stresses.
It is grismal today - cold, grey and foggy
PS PQ - that is a bubble of my head at night for sure, oh the joys of a good nights sleep - got one the other day, but they have vanished again!
Have fun with the sunday do Mick...
Lav - was thinking of you - found somewhere that will get me fresh eggs weekly - I just have to pick up at a local store, was so excited, then they said the chickens aren't laying as it is too cold - was so looking forward to some yellow yolks!
See you all tomorrow.

[porqoui]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Hi Lav...hope YB helped with Stella's food

Hi Hippy...I still like 4sure

Hi Sl...man you sound busy and I'm on the lookout for pomegranate juice

Great visit with my Dad today :yay:

Meeting with Ex done & dusted (as peeps say around here) :yay: :yay:

Basically he wanted me to give up all rights to everything so he could get out of the mess he's in. You all would have been proud of me, kept my cool and just said no.

I posted my thoughts on the https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9/a-42370.html thread if you're interested.

Looking forward to a good nights sleep.....PPQP

[TheSunFlower]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Feels werid posting again on the same days thread

Mick....I never understood the stashing the booze thing. I drank beer most of my career....so the only place to stash anything was in the frig. Back 10 years ago when I drank wine....I always drank it from the bottle....so if there was anything left over (rarely).....I always felt like it had to be in the frig. THEN.....with my recent episode with wine......I bought it in a box and the store owner told me it would be good un-refrigerated for 45 days! My alkie brain went...."this is awesome"......I can hide it in my closet and no one will know how much I am drinking! What a fool I was.

The therapist is good...she is about moving forward. Changing your life present and future...vs. reliving the past. I already know I screwed that up.

P....the cube mate will be great. She is all about being healthy. I will be held accountable by her to be healthy......doing the things I should have been doing for years. And my therapist said I don't need to tell her about my AL past......just that AL is off the books because it makes me fat and lazy

P.....I also have issues with sleep. I did all those alpha-delta CDS.....to no avail. For years I have used this one british guy....who literally talks you sleep. He has no idea how many times we have slept together

Thanks Lav....for the encouraging words. I appreciate them.

Now off to create my 2012 album.....that has over 3,000 pics in it! My kids were born before the digital age.....and the number of photo albums I have is just nuts. I love being able to create a CD each year for the kids to have when they get older.

[Lavande]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Good for you PQ, we are proud of you

SL, egg production decreases in extreme weather - be it heat or cold. Also depends on the breed. Stella & most of her friends are Buff Orpingtons - they are pretty hardy, I also have 4 Araucanas (blue egg layers), they don't do too bad either. You will just love the fresh eggs when you can get them, big difference!
YB did help me haul the feed today & get it stored properly. I refuse the feed all the field mice around here :H

Hippy, I just see you everywhere :H

Hi SF - we cross posted!

[CanToo]

af day Sat 5 Jan

PPQP - lookin good! Now how strong are you feeling tonight? :l

Here's a couple of shots from today's snowshoe trip. Drove approx 100km out of town for a 3 hour hike. I'm really enjoying these groups. I've now attended hikes with two different organizations. One more to go

Have a gr eat AF evening.


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CT

[CanToo]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Mick - this will be my first yoga course ( I attended one class with the, a few weeks ago ). I'll let you know if you can teach an old body new tricks....

[scottish lass]

af day Sat 5 Jan

Had to check in to see if there was news from PPQP - proud of you girl!
CanToo - I have been considering yoga, will be interested to see how you do...
PPQP - Pomegranate juice from Trader Joes - not sure if it is just a US store or if tehy have them over the border.
Lav - agreed about the eggs - I was so excited, they told me to check back end of January - I can get on a delivery. Det got me onto this last year and I found a community share farm for vegetables and they are now doing eggs, so hopefully it will work out - I will keep on it.
Well, I am glad all went well PPQ! I can rest now, and it is raining cats and dogs, so might just sleep well tonight....