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[Andy1111]

Hey gang,
Haven't been on for awhile, but just thought I'd check in. I've been up and down. Went for some long periods of AF and some binges. I started doing AA and that has helped a lot (along with campral and my therapist)

You guys are great, but there's nothing like being able to call my sponsor at a moment's notice. I'll be here and there, but I hope to be around online more often.

Here's what I've learned: This whole disease is about cycles. You may drink in moderation for awhile, but you always fall back into that rut of heavy drinking. I think the key thing is: Eventually you just get tired of it and you surrender. You give up trying to drink. You surrender your desire to drink. That's what I'm trying to do.

Best to all,
Andy

[Newyear]

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Hi Andy. Glad you posted and Glad you are back. Hope to hear more from you.
And I think you are right about the cycles. I've been struggling with whether to try
a drink here or there but I think you're exactly right. I could probably be good for awhile but I bet it would sneek up on me again.

Good to hear from you!
Lisa

[Beaches]

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Welcome back Andy!!!

[Andy1111]

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Thanks Lisa. It's nice to speak with you again. The cycles are vicious creatures of habit that I am trying to put an end to.

I went 18 days AF back in Jan/Feb adn then WHAM went on a cruise and started drinking almost everyday again. I had been feeling so good during that 18 day period. So, for me, it's all about ending that up and down cycle. I'm tired of drinking -- physically and mentally.

[Determinator]

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Andy, I can really relate on the cycles. they used to be very quick cycles for me years ago 3 days boozing heavy, then 3 days of depression and recovery, back and forth driving me nuts. cycles are still here, just slower....forming new habbits now.
be well.

[lorisunshine]

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Well, Andy I just responded to your post and it went "puff" into thin air. Oh, the tribulations of modern technology.
What I said was that I am glad you are back and as for myself I cannot moderate, without falling back into the rut.
Lori

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Hi Andy,

I so agree - I definitely surrendered as the constant battle was too much - haven't been able to moderate for years so have finally given up kidding myself - and it's such a relief! Good luck with your battle and nice to see you here