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[retteacher]

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I can identify w/all the doubts, stumbles, & questions which were brought up. I have to remember this is a one day at a time program. Everything happens when it's supposed to happen. Some of us get it all at once. Some in small pieces.

I'm definitely an incremental sort of person. I never got the HP in a flash. In fact, I try not to overthink the HP/God concept. If there is an HP/God, that's great...if not, that's OK too. My sponsor is pretty gravely ill, so my work on the steps in on hold. I'm in a dilemma about what to do but have faith that an answer will come. I try not to engineer my life too much. It didn't work while I was drinking.

I do go to meetings regularly. I know if I fell off from meetings, I would definitely drink again. So, that's the one aspect of the program I'm faithful to. I think there are as many ways to do AA as there are people in it. I try not to let the hard-liners make me think I'm doing something wrong. That's not how it was in the beginning w/the founders.

Go easy on yourself & things will fall into place. Time & energy are finite.

Thanks for sharing.

Mary

[cpn1004]

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Mary,
Thanks for keeping this thread going. I attend at least 5 AA meetings a week but only get here about once a week. Yet, I need this thread for my sobriety.
After 1174 days of sobriety I have no desire to drink, BUT I still have the desire to Not Feel life occasionally. Of course I drank to change the way I felt at that moment.
Now I just deal with life on life's terms.
Hmm, imagine that? Normal people have done that for centuries. Why do I think I'm so special? Oh that's right, I'm an alcoholic.

[retteacher]

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Phil: I absolutely used alcohol to not deal w/life, my feelings, conflicts, etc....you name it. I too have that feeling of not wanting to go through an event to the other side. It seems so much easier to just numb it out. But, as you point out, normal people get through far, far worse than anything I've ever encountered on their own strength & resources. If they can do it, so can I. M

[Doggygirl]

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Molly - I can absolutely relate to so much of what you posted. Especially about the HP thing. Sigh.

Mary - I love your reminder that this is a one day at a time proposition. That is what keeps it manageable for me I think.

DG