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[porqoui]

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scottish lass;1467351 wrote: I am very proud of what I have achieved, and do not wish to loose this. I have toyed in the modertation camp, but don't feel that that is where I want to be. I know I have to stop drinking for my health, my sanity and my happiness - I KNOW this, just have to get rid of the want bit...

:h

Mick may be confused but I'm not.

:h

We will help with the "want bit"....PPQP

[porqoui]

af day Friday 22

Mick;1467387 wrote: Hi ppqp....oops sorry you have got the dreaded man flu...mind you in the female version its a cold!!!!:H:H Madam has got it too ..see who said Jocks weren't generous..hope your visit with your dad goes well tomorrow

Thanks Mick...if I'm not feeling better won't risk spreading germs down there.

Just got an email from the lawyer...court postponed till March 6th :stomper:

Sounds like we're going to submit everything though and see what comes out in the wash.

I'm ok with that, just want to see an end to everything.

ps...I and my brother's wife got stalked today by the pi***ed off POA's. This time though it didn't phase me, I'm actually starting to feel sorry for her, but won't let that go to my head. :H

See you in the morning....PPQP

[porqoui]

af day Friday 22

treetops;1467391 wrote: I have already posted a daft start to Saturday's thread

:H :H

TT...sorry, just found that really funny, bet you meant to say draft

[TheSunFlower]

af day Friday 22

I want to thank everyone for their supportive replies. I posted that....and truly was scared I was going to log on and find 5 foots up my ass. I already have two in my ass...and I thank everyone for their kindness.

Cat-I have made my peace with AL. I don't feel like its such a struggle anymore.
Kuya-I was most scared of you.....yet, I can now say that I am sober because I want to be.
Det-thank you....you know the slippery slope
Mick-all I can say is thank you for putting up with me all this time

SL-I can so relate. I played that game for years. I am reading a new book...and I finally get it. Willpower sucks and you are never really happy going down that road (me). What I have always envied here....is a group of people who truly don't want to drink. My brain still wanted to drink....even if I did not drink that day. Everyone here I think truly enjoyed a drink....or they would not have kept doing it for years....again me. I always said in AA....that "I did not have the desire to quit drinking.....but, I wanted that desire". I even flunked AA Now I realize what happens when I put that drug into me....even the little bit.

I did not like the flush of chemicals that rushed out of my brain....due to the drug.

It is a drug....socially acceptable....flashed all over TV, friends and co-workers talking about it. Smoking went out of style....I don't know if drinking ever will. Our brains take in all this information.....that drinking is ok. Almost without us even realizing it. I am in marketing....I know a lot about how to sell products and services. Alcohol has a billion dollars behind it telling you it is ok. But, in your soul you know better. I cracked up....when someone pointed out to me...that none of the AL ads show someone home alone....drinking.

I don't want to be a drug addict. I wasn't as much tempted...as I needed to do a human experiment on myself...I did not like what I saw. AA is a wonderful support system that I still use....but, none of it goes into what actually happens in the body. Why did you get hooked....you did not go to bed one night a social drinker and wake up an alcoholic. Alcohol is a sneaky little devil....it takes time to cultivate it. Less so than with other drugs like herion.

It sneaks up on you. With all the messages...that are delivered to you daily to drink...it can be hard to break.

I am done with con job....gosh sorry so long. Needed to rant.....Alcohol Lied to Me

[blondie]

af day Friday 22

mae abfabbers

Standing on head, Mick. Still doesn't help; am blinded :H Beautiful bunnies!

PPQ - sorry about your delay, but what a happy little bunny you are these days :H

SF - I joked that I was a sophisticated drunk, because I knew a lot about wine, etc, etc. That I was somehow above other drunks. But it all leads to the same path. Sharp marketing for sure.

TT - It'll be more fun to embarass your niece when sober
Kuya - Breaks can be good. But you need to keep Mick in line.
Cat - glad to hear of your happiness in the dating world. Understand you wanting to see how things go at first, but we need some gossip. :H

SL - you are making progress and you are still trying. That's important.
Lav - chickens all accounted for today? Do you have foxes there too?
Hi Teezah, Det, and Paulywog. Where's CanToo?
Lovely cool day here. Had rain yesterday - yeah!! Pottering round the garden as befits my advanced years. :H Have a fun day abbers

[scottish lass]

af day Friday 22

Thanks for not being confused PPQ!
Thanks for the words and wisdom SF and TT.
I drank decent wine and drank it because I enjoyed it - I do not believe that I drank to get buzzed, and didn't like the feeling of not being in control - just in the later days I didn't stop drinking once started, and not for any real reason - just didn't stop.
I shop at a store famous for "two buck chuck", and wouldn't drink that - and it heard it was drinkable.
The only reason I looked to stop was for the sake of my liver, then I started enjoying drinking less again, and if I could stay there I would - but it seems that I can't - so I have to get ok with the fact I have to stop.
Mick, I want to drink occasionally - but it seems that no many times how hard I try, that is not to be - so I have to manage to want to stop.

PPQ - sorry for your disappointment in not getting things over and done with!
SF - quite the opposite, I am one of those peopel who believe better when I try it for myslef, so well doen for reading, researching and proving your theory! I am proud of you as i know you are aware of the risky position that you put yourself in, but instead it has made your resolve stronger - bravo!
Happy sober Friday night all.....

[treetops]

af day Friday 22

PPQP - I did mean daft NOT draft !!!

[porqoui]

af day Friday 22

treetops;1467524 wrote: PPQP - I did mean daft NOT draft !!!

:H Ok then....

[Lavande]

af day Friday 22

Yep blondie - the chickens are all accounted for today but I can tell they are still a bit freaked out :H
What do you do for a chicken with PTSD anyway? :H

SL, you are happy that you are making progress yet you seem to be dragging your heels a bit. I had an amazing fear of taking that final leap into abstinence. I didn't make the decision until I was near my 30 day mark. I kept a firm grip on to the possibility of being able to moderate at some point. But the elders here at the time to me to ask myself honestly if I was ready to have just one glass of wine. My honest answer was NO. I would not have been ready at 30 days, at 60 days, etc. That's when I realized it was time to just let go of that dream. AL is crap & it was ruining my health & happiness, it was totally controlling me. I am grateful that I got that virtual 'shove' from Doggy Girl & the others here at the time

I am hosting my grandaughter's 2nd birthday party here on Sunday! All fun & AL is not invited
I wouldn't have it any other way!

[blondie]

af day Friday 22

Lavande;1467529 wrote:
What do you do for a chicken with PTSD anyway? :H

Here ya go, Lav

Julie Jara - Jara Healing - Animal Healing

"Reconnective Healing can be facilitated for any animal that needs assistance. We can help your family pet, performance animal, assistance dog, farm animals and native animals in the wild. "
:H:H

[scottish lass]

af day Friday 22

Lav - you are one of those who I truly admire and respect on MWO - your words have changed my attitude many times and I carry your advice with me. You have been a big part of getting me to this point - and I wish that this woudl work for me.....I have been over 30 days at least three times in two years and have done over 60 days once....but the thought of not ever having just one glass of wine from time to time just won't leave me. Taking that next step would be huge! You were there at the beginning of 2012 when I drank after 66 days( i recall your words to me then!), and I thought that I could make it work then......and then in 2012 I kept getting close, managing a few 30 days, and then having a drink....
do the chickens stop laying when they are spooked?
Enjoy the party - sure you will be beat (knackered for the brits!!) tomorrow evening!

[treetops]

af day Friday 22

Hi Lavande -
we have a birthday on Sunday too (no chooks invited!)
My daughter turns 15 - we have some great pressies including an old-fashioned manual typewriter (sorry I meant retro). She is having a party later next month but it will be very low key with just a few close friends (her choice). She is at a girlfriend's party this afternoon and its warm enough for them to go swimming in the Pacific ocean.

[blondie]

af day Friday 22

Oh, TT, I used to have one of those old black Remington typewriters. You know the ones with the round keys (can't post a pic) but it was thrown out (or relocated!!) when my in-laws went through my parents house :upset:

Sad that it's retro :H She'll love it. And to think we actually used them.

[patrice]

af day Friday 22

Hi all, it's well into Saturday here...

TT - what a fab pressie, just love the noise those ole things make. tap tap tap. I'm still a big fan of William Burroughs and his cut up method of writing ( didn't his grandfather start the Burrough's typewriter or was it the adding machine?)

Hope everyone is having a great MAE.. today I'm carless again. Took the car back to the mechanics, he said he would give it a good clean. WTF?? Rather have brakes. Don't think he understood but will see when I pick it up later.

Take care
Patrice

[TheSunFlower]

af day Friday 22

Blondie....cracked me up. The book I am reading is from a "fine" wine drinker. Really thought he was gettitng 'fine" wine at $350 a bottle! He did point out that that liver really does care how much you spent on the booze. I guess they don't open you up after....and go...."all good here....she is dead...but, drank expensive wine"

SL I know that you are still struggling. Everyone has been there and I hope you find everything you need.