af day 6 March

[kuya]

af day 6 March

porqoui;1473401 wrote: Starting to get a complex here....everytime I post everyone else stops

Here's my morning chuckle (as Mick's a little busy this morning).

TOO TOO FUNNY! :H:H:H

It's all about perception

[kuya]

af day 6 March

shelbysmiles;1473513 wrote: Hi Abbers!
Not much to report except that I have been feeling much more at peace this week. Last week, as I was approaching 30 days I was getting so anxious. I'm starting to realize I might can make a go of this long term sober thing :-)

PPQ-Funny pic:H

Take care everyone!

SS, I think it comes as a shock to everyone to find they are 'doing it' , like the first time you ride a bike without falling over. You go from ' I CAN'T DO THIS' to ' OH MY, I'M DOING IT'

It's exhilarating AND scary, and you still have wobbly moments.

I am trail riding in the foothills ATM, ever mindful that I still have to pick a careful path, rest often and stop from time to time and enjoy the view.

[TheSunFlower]

af day 6 March

I am a dumbass and drank. I consider you guys the best on the "board"....but if I can't get my shit together it is time to leave. I'll be back if I ever get it together. This stinks and sucks in so many ways. I honestly have come to believe that I will always be like this. Trying and failing.

[blondie]

af day 6 March

Hi

Quick squizz through - still downloading and printing docs.
Mick your doc/receptionist episode reminded me of the joke you posted about the old man who couldn't piss out his ear :H But hope your op? goes well.
PPQ - the trick to keeping the lawyers' bill down is not to talk to them :H Like the snow image!
Det - hope your helpfulness doesn't land you in strife.
Hi Lave, SS, SL, Kuyta, Cat, CT...
Have a great day

[blondie]

af day 6 March

Sunflower

I guess you would know what is best for you at present, but IMHO, now would not be a good time to leave. The site's about getting sober, not about being here when you've succeeded. Do stay.

[scottish lass]

af day 6 March

Oh SF, don't go away - it doesn't work, believe me I know!
You have stuck with me and all my decisions to drink (as has been said, no slips just bad choices) = stay around, we wil support you here - read the quotes on my signature, and just keep on trying, it will stick one day - I have to believe that, so believe it with me,,,,:l:l

[TheSunFlower]

af day 6 March

I am confused

Thank you SL and Blondie. It is my understanding that this an abs board....and it should be here as a safe haven for people. Which I totally agree upon. This is not the board to decide whether you should be af or not....and you should come here when you are totally comitted. Want to be totally AF....line in the cement...but, seem to routinely f-up. I just have no idea on how to cross that line.

I feel awful....I can't believe that I don't "get it"....which makes me feel even worse. Meaning I don't know if I ever will. I am still in the small percent that looked for help....

[porqoui]

af day 6 March

Thank you for posting SF :h Bet you had tears in your eyes when you did. :l

Sorry, but you got a couple of things wrong.....

You are a valued friend who has made some "dumbass" decisions and we can help you get your "shit" together if you stay and let us.

You can "try and fail, and try and fail", as long as you end that sentence with "try". And we can help you with that too...

I remember when I posted my first "slip" = decision to drink and I couldn't quit crying. Stayed away for a bit and just read the posts.
Felt too ashamed to actualy post myself. But I started again and am so glad I did.

Keep reading here and maybe the newbies nest? No insult intended but you may be able to read something there that speaks to you.

I read the tool box again from the begining to end, (skipping over the 'congratulatory posts') because even though I'd "f'd up" I knew in my heart I still wanted to be AF.

Special Delivery...:angel:"PPP":angel:

[TheSunFlower]

af day 6 March

Thank you for all the "p's' I am feeling like I am in a sinkhole. I am sinking deeper and deeper.

[porqoui]

af day 6 March

X-POST...

TheSunFlower;1473783 wrote: This is not the board to decide whether you should be af or not....and you should come here when you are totally comitted. Want to be totally AF....line in the cement...but, seem to routinely f-up. I just have no idea on how to cross that line

I don't know SF but "want to be totally AF...line in the cement..." sounds like a commitment to me.

Maybe have to take a closer look at why the "routinely f-up's" are happening?

That line is a tough one to cross and I for one (and by the sounds of it other's) are willing to help. If this is where you feel comfortable posting, then please stay....PPQP

[porqoui]

af day 6 March

TheSunFlower;1473809 wrote: Thank you for all the "p's' I am feeling like I am in a sinkhole. I am sinking deeper and deeper.

"sinkhole"....shit, now I have to come up with an analogy for that! :H

[kuya]

af day 6 March

SF......do you think you could come and shout 'FIRE ! ' here before you buy alcohol?

I know that there is a period of self debate before the 'fuck it' moment, when it is possible to be pulled back by posting and asking for help.

We have had this discussion with SL also.

Not asking for help, for whatever reason, is a common flaw with us alcoholics.

Anyhoos......pick up and :l:l.......tomorrow is a new day

[treetops]

af day 6 March

I will try and crank up the 7 March thread - so thats where my message for SF will be.