AA Thread - May

[catch22]

AA Thread - May

catch22;1509289 wrote: I know where i gone wrong i been living on the edge for ovver a year and it got worse without me realising. But i feel am coming of the edge now. Am on step 1. where i cant moved forward. And to be honest am not sure how far am going to .hit bottom this time.

I have not had a drink i feel my relaspe has happen last year. Am at the point where they say in the bb the jumping of point. where u dnt want to pick up a drink but you want to jump off.. not nice. when the mind thinks tbat way. Will get to a AA meeting whn i can. good news got money for petrol for wrk and to get back home. sorry if i dampen the thread.x

[Cinders]

AA Thread - May

Catch,

I have just seen these posts and am very, very worried about you.

Please, please call your AA sponsor or someone in AA. I know you must be sober when you do, but explain your situation. Someone will help. :l:l

If I was where you lived, I would come get you.

Stop drinking and start calling.

Love,
Cindi

[bettygirl]

AA Thread - May

you haven't done anything to the thread but brought honesty about how you are feeling, catch. I hope you are ok now and you got past the point of wanting to take that drink. reach out, darlin'! all the best and we are here for you.

peace

[catch22]

AA Thread - May

cinders ....AA cannot help my situation am in . Am in a financial state, but i will be going 2 a meeting tonite which. will help sort my washing machine out. Thanx you cinders btw am not drinking i panic big time my next worry now is no gas electric will run soon i had to go into my mortege money i have separated from my husband... i cant drink no money. xXx
Thanks you x BG i panic big time needed to reach out i felt like i hit the breaking point in side me. feeling better today trying not to think to much abt my situation and just get on with it. But i knw there will be a nxt time the nightmare of my situation is not over .
Thank yoi both for caring . xoxox

[retteacher]

AA Thread - May

catch: I just read your posts today. So sorry about the financial problems. Take those one step at a time...easy for me to say...that's all you can do. Thank God you didn't drink. A meeting will help alot. I haven't had financial problems, but shortly after I got sober in AA, my daughter was diagnosed w/breast cancer. That set off a whole set of surgeries, & I thank God every day I stayed sober. My AA group helped tremendously. Good luck.

Cindi: Good to see you here. Hope all is well w/you. I still love step 1 & do it all the time. Yes, we're powerless. I remind myself constantly that I'm an alcoholic & cannot drink like a normal person. As I've heard at meetings: "You can turn a cucumber into a pickle, but you can't turn a pickle back into a cucumber." Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.

Again, Catch, go to meetings, & that will reduce the panic & put this into perspective. Congratulations for not drinking! Mary

[catch22]

AA Thread - May

Thanks Mary am also wrking on step1 around this situation that am powerless over & keep hopeing for the best. YES. meeting.for me tht for sure.

[bettygirl]

AA Thread - May

hang in there catch...if only money grew on trees.

I am going to tear my eyes out if my allergies don't chill out! I wonder if not drinking makes allergies more pronounced or if I am just noticing them more being sober? ARGH!!!!

anyway, just wanted to check in and say hi...I will be gone all weekend (anniversary!) so you wont be seeing me unless the "plan" changes.

peace!

[Solitaire]

AA Thread - May

Hey ho, hey ho.... it's off to BB study I go...

9am on a Saturday in a beautiful garden! Love this meeting! And all the others!

Sober hugs xxx

[catch22]

AA Thread - May

Enjoy ur meeting sol sounds good in the garden. In the UK am still wait gor the summer
really could do with the sun right now.
I when to a meetim last nigjt clear the my head a bit. The good thing is this meeton is in
walkimg distances which is handy. . every friday tht where i will be for now on. Looks like it my home meeting.
Take care all and enjoy ur wkevnd and be safe. x

[retteacher]

AA Thread - May

It's good to have a home meeting. I am the GSR (general service rep) for mine. I love seeing my friends there & know I can get the support I need.

I don't have much time right now. Hope all is well w/everyone.

Mary

[Doggygirl]

AA Thread - May

Hi everyone! I'm not totally caught up on the thread but did read the last couple pages. Catch, I'm so glad you are here and posting and not drinking and just taking things one day at a time. That's all we can do. No matter what is going on in my life, my stress levels always seem to be lower when I am active in AA. Seems like a mystery sometimes but that's the way it is for me. I'm grateful.

Last Wednesday was my 5 year anniversay!! I was able to get to my old home group meeting to get my coin. I still haven't found a new home group which I need to do. (Too many clients attend my old home group - conflict of interest). Anyway...my current sponsor suprised me by arranging to pick up and bring my last sponsor (Sister) to the meeting. WOW!! Lot's of people there and a group card and all that. It was really special and just solidified for me what the fellowship is all about and why it's important I stay better connected than I have been lately.

I was thinking today about Deter for some reason. Det - how are ya?

Take care fellow travelers!!

DG

[cpn1004]

AA Thread - May

Way to go DG! 5 years, wow, imagine that. That is a big deal. Glad to see you again here.

[Cinders]

AA Thread - May

Hello AA friends,

Good to see you Phil. :-) At home this weekend? I hope so.

DG, many congrats on the 5 years. Awesome.

Catch, Mary, BG, Det and Sol glad you are all here.

I had a BB meeting with 4 of us in attendance. We ended up only reading one paragraph from page 63 because one of the people had a burning question. It was a good meeting and I sorely needed one since I had missed going the last two days.

I drank too much coffee this afternoon/evening and hope I can get to bed soon. I have to watch the coffee and (sigh) candy intake when I have evening meetings.

I haven't really got a home group decided on at this point, myself. Once hubby is back at work and I see how the scheduling works out, I will find one and stick with it as a Home group. Until then, it is catch them as I can.

Cindi

[retteacher]

AA Thread - May

First: DG congratulations on your 5 years! I so remember us being on this journey together. I'm w/you in spirit. Yes, I know you'll find a home group that's a good fit. Keep looking.

Cindi: Isn't it amazing how a good meeting puts everything into perspective? Keep going you're doing great.

Deter: I know you were going to chair a meeting. I hope that went well...as I'm sure it did.

I'm doing well. Our weekend groups are doing OK. Changes are happening, but I'm sure HP knows what he/she is doing.

Mary

[retteacher]

AA Thread - May

Everyone: I went to one of those meetings where there was a lot of emotion in the room...total honesty. It was a small group, so there was more sharing than usual. The one thing I took away was that I can never drink safely. There were a lot of "yets" (i.e. that hasn't happened "yet") for me. However, had I continued drinking the way I was, I would have probably gone through more losses than I did. For me, it was enough to have lost my dignity & integrity. Now, when I make a blunder or mistake, I can chalk it up to being human...not drunk. I hope all is well out there. Mary