Restless, Irritable and Discontent
I've been Restless, Irritable and Discontent for the last few days.
Nothing happened, I attend meetings, I see my sponsees, I'm in touch with my sponsor...
Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to drink today, the obsession had been lifted. There is no craving for booze, not even thoughts of the "relief" of getting drunk, but I do realize that in the past I would've been drinking for the World Cup when in this space/mood.
"Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks-drinks which they see others taking with impunity".
Excerpts from "The Doctor's Opinion"
I went back and read P61.... Let go.... I am NOT the director....
Right now, I know all of that, I believe it, and yet, it is hard for me to live it...
Step3 Prayer:
"God, I offer myself to Thee--to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!"
Hugs from Africa xxx
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