Today is day 41 - still can't believe it. Not thinking about booze atm and have arranged to see my team play Saturday, and lift share home and skip after party. Friday am seeing a friend,who is drinking BUT I am driving to hers for food/takeaway. TBH she usually drinks too much wine so that won't tempt me.
I am travelling to another office today so I have a long journey ahead of me - about 90 minutes usually.More training but with a few gaps so I can do some work inbetween.
TT - like the point yesterday about people maybe not wanting to carry on hanging out with me if I keep drinking.
SF - the alcoholic/alcohol abuse issue is interesting isn't it - I think whatever helps you to deal with it is fine.I agree many are dealing with alcohol now before it becomes a bigger problem - that's what I'm trying to do.Can be tricky as the really really bad consequences I am avoiding are possibilities in the future that haven't yet happened. The word alcoholic makes me think of HAVING TO quit forever personally and I come up with the ' I'm not that bad' stuff - yet. Alcohol abuse or problem drinking is easier as focus is on changing my behaviour,rather than thinking there is something permanently 'wrong' with me and it feels more possible. I like Soberistas book as it is practical and inspiring yet doesn't deal with moderation either. Whatever works - we're all different.
PPQ - my triggers are all round social events,the more I do sober,the more I can prove to myself that it is possible.The benefits alcohol gave me socially are partly fantasy anyway - I felt anxious and awkward when drinking,and sometimes went further into myself.Then if I got more drunk I felt self conscious of that and worried that I'd made a fool of myself.
Only just realised I am losing my 'cover' today of being AF for October for charity.
I am going to say to people that I am aiming for another month as I am trying to get fit to get fit and ready to go back to rollerderby. Partly true!
Have a great day
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