Ladies on a Mission Week 3

[NoSugar]

Ladies on a Mission Week 3

What can be wackier than baring your soul and hanging out your dirty laundry on a GLOBAL INTERNET FORUM??? I'd say none of us should be judging nobody :H!

[j-vo]

Ladies on a Mission Week 3

Dottie and Narilly, I hate to say this, but I'm gonna...My husband loves to cook. His dad was an excellent cook, and my hubby spends his Sundays cooking. The first thing in the morning on Sunday is his question, "What should I make today?" And yes, it's all good. But it's even tastier sober. Yes, Ma'ams.

Pav, you're getting through this! We're here for ya, dear.

K9 - I am such a klutz not drunk. You all can imagine how many injuries I sustained. Endless list.

Ann - You're moving forward with what you need to do now and that's wonderful! Every one of us has to build a program that meets our own needs. No one's program will be the same. What works for you may not for someone else. No judgments here about abstinence or harm reduction. But I do agree, have seen the threads and fights. Not a comfortable position to be in.

NS - great point again! Yes, freedom to go and do what you need to do is a wonderful feeling. As a matter of fact, and not that I really want to, but it's almost 7:00 pm here and I need to get off my butt and down on my treadmill. Couldn't or wouldn't do that if I was drinking.

Available, you're sounding great! Congrats on your day 4 Lady!!!! And speaking of the garbage trucks...omg. I started not to put stuff in recycling bin because it was so much louder! All in the garbage.

Have a wonderful, sober night ladies.

[Dottie Belle]

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j-vo I am sssssssssssssoooooooooooooo jealous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :H

[scottish lass]

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Very quick check in - lots of meetings today:upset:not my favourite part of work! Long drives Wed and Thur with meetings too - argh! Totaly triggers for me - and I even looked longingly at the left turn to store on way home but managed to over correct the automatic strreing and turned right - so home with no wine.
Yes, day 20 - only 10 more to that elusive 30!
So many checkins here today.
So glad to see you Ann - I had decided to PM you when I got home to chase you back to the warmth of the thread - glad to see you did it yourself - i am going to wear this quote out, but here you go.....?You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call ?failure? is not the falling down, but the staying down.? ?Mary Pickford
OK - off to get supper again....and hoping this headache leaves (that meeting thingy!!!)

[narilly]

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SL, automatic steering!! That is good.
J-Vo, I am with Dottie on this, sooo jealous!

I'm watching TV with my daughter so I will talk soon. Yummy Perrier and licorice tea!

[scottish lass]

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Licorice tea - hmmmm! Does it taste of licorice??? (do you make it with the perrier :H)
I am not one for these teas, but looking for drinks, so reaching out - bought some lavander and vanilla tea, have to pluck up courage to make it now! I drink lots of earl grey though - but that is morning, need an evening tea!

[narilly]

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SL, I love licorice, I guess licorice tea is like tea made from fennel seeds. I kind of surround myself with a bunch of AF drinks and just go for it. And, no, I don't make my tea with Perrier haha!

Be courageous and drink your tea SL

Well, beautiful ladies. Stay sober and have a great night. I am in bed early and am looking forward to a great sleep. Hope you can sleep tonight Available.
Dottie, Pav, K9, NS, Byrdie, Ann. J-Vo,SL, Big hugs to you all. I'm waking up in my big comfy bed tomorrow am just like The picture.
You know what I'm talkin' about!

[scottish lass]

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I love licorice too - might check that out!
Sleep well Narilly, and everyone else - and stay strong and committed for the new day....

[Dottie Belle]

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Licorice and i are not friends....red is OK but black is not..so none of that tea for me...
I like green, black and fruit blends. I have a cabinet of teas that I "collect" and have daily. If I drink caffeine free I make a big pot and drink all day if it is green tea it is just in the morning...but I like all of the...other than that I drink filtered water with lemon..I have the coolest pitcher that has a tube that I can put lemon and mint or whatever I want and it infuses the water....love, love that too..Lots and lots of options if u get a little creative..

[Pavati]

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Hi, all. I just posted this in the Nest but wanted to share with my Lovely Ladies on a Mission (BTW - I LOVE licorice and have found the Yogi Licorice tea a delicious substitute for a drink AND for dessert. A tad expensive, but cheaper than a glass of wine).

Oh, lord, I just got back from my counselor (well, about two hours ago). I have been seeing her for a few years and have talked about moderating, etc., but have never been honest about it all. Well, she heard it ALL tonight - the last year of my life that has been hell on wheels as I have slowly become the alcoholic I have been so determined to avoid becoming. She listened and listened as I spoke, cried, rambled, tried to remember things from this weekend, and finally she said, "You know what the coda is, right?" and I said "I have to quit drinking." She said, "you, my dear, are an alcoholic." Let me tell you that was a slap in the face, but like an old Bogart/Bacall movie slap in the face - where it brings the end of panic and a look of relief and acceptance. Boy oh boy was that one of the hardest hours I've ever spent, but boy oh boy was it worth it. We have a plan for this week that includes my having another phone appointment with her on Friday, and a check in tomorrow when I am at work.

Which brings me to my question for you all who have been around a bit - what was that like? That day when you went to work with the acceptance that things need to change but the anxiety and fear that naturally comes from the end of a long road of alcohol abuse? I am looking forward to some structure and routine, but I am afraid I will be a crying mess at the drop of a hat.

I am honestly in fog right now - relieved, scared, accepting and grateful. I am very grateful to have the support of you all here - it means so much to be typing this to a group of people who I know "get it."

I still feel anxious and tired from the hangover/withdrawal/agony I have caused myself, but I am still relieved to be on the path of recovery. (I also now finally get THAT word as well. Amazing that these words actually mean what they say).

I will now go back and read some posts and try to respond. Thanks for listening.

Sleep tight Ladies Thanks for being here.

[HumbleRider]

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Welcome Rosie.

Glad you are back AOM especially since you started this thread. I remember the day one anxiety very well. Resting and diverting my attn from my panic by playing games, reading, watching Netflix helped.

I got my sewing machine today, NS and all. So excited to try it out, even if it is just mending my husband's coat pocket. NS thanks so much for taking the time to post such supportive and all-inclusive messages.

Dottie Belle, I'm with you on the water and lemon juice. First thing I like to have in the morning.

J-vo, I cracked up at your depiction of the doctor who treated you, haha. And NS with battle-scarred legs. I'm enjoying our cuts and bruises stories. They remind me not to go there again. I woke up with a black eye one morning, no idea how I got it, and I had been drinking alone at home. I guess I ran into a door jamb or something, ouch. How embarrassing to go to work like that for a couple of weeks.

Yes Pav, I will always remember now that you are coming right up on me, just 28 days behind! Great that you told your counselor. What a relief.

Pavati mentioned replacing guilt with gratitude. GSR for us should come to mean not only guilt, shame, and remorse for past behavior but for us here now gratitude, sanity, and rebirth.

Day 30 for me, yay! I don't think I'd be saying that without your help the past couple of weeks or so. Thanks to you all.

[patrice]

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Hi Girls,
Thanks for the posts, I love reading them!!
The time diff is a bit of a problem for me because when I post you are all in bed (Except Ava) and vice versa.
All good here, another AF day. I do count in my head but I prefer the SL way of dots on the calendar, seems to work better for me at the moment while I'm getting my head around the whole thing..
I'm just so flat out at the moment that haven't got time to be more personal with you all but I did quickly read back and fab on 30days Humble
Hope to post later girls!
x
Patrice

[available]

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30 days Humble a big congrats on that achievement. I too had a black eye once, hit the side of my head on my bedside drawers right on my temple and got a black eye. Lucky i did not have a bloody brain aneurysm.

Good on you Pav for fessing up, that must have been hard for you but a relief. I am not game to say anything to my dr, dont know why as he is just lovely, i know i am an alcoholic but maybe i am not ready to admit it to everyone.

Hope Dot you and hubby are feeling better now and can go snow cone making. We dont do that in Aus but probably as it does not snow all over Aus. Your pitcher sounds lovely, never seen one like that before, another thing to look out for. Ebay maybe?

SL how is that new bed? I so love my bed, i'm in it now, thinking of going to sleep early and hoping to sleep all night.

Nar i love licorice but not sure about the tea, mmm may look and try some. Tonight i just had a cup of tea, glasses of OJ, glass of milk and a pie. Oops i obviously needed them all mixed together. Im craving something at the moment or everything.

Hows it going JVo, K9 and all the other lovelies. I hope your day/night has been a good one. I have had better days than today so that is why i am staying warm and cosy in my bed and reading on MWO. Keeping close on here, Day 5 tomorrow and cant wait for another AF day and to wake without a hangover.

[HumbleRider]

Ladies on a Mission Week 3

Hi Patrice and available,
Good for you ladies to get started with such enthusiasm again. I think I might start the dots on the calendar routine too, Patrice. Thanks for the congrats on the 30 day mark for me.

Available, I hear you on hitting the corner of the bedside drawers.

Once, in order to avoid doing just that, I veered and stepped squarely onto a toy wagon and went flying across the room only to fly forward flat on my face. Another welt on the temple. And I am humiliated and ashamed to say that was when my son was only 2, I've been at it that long. He would be 33 now, but he died when he was 20 in a bizarre accident, no drinking or drugs involved. He wasn't a drinker, that's for sure. My only child, and a story for another day.

MAE to all! Thanks for the support and well wishes on my reaching day 30. Day 31 here and I am up early with dh, since he starts at 5 am....

[patrice]

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Humble..so sorry about your son xx
I love getting up early.. it's the coolest time of the day and the quietest time.. I live opposite a jungle so all the sounds of the birds and monkeys and other creatures start up around 5am..
Even used to love it when I was drinking.. gave me more time to get over hangovers etc!!

Oh those injury stories... I once got so hammered at a friends party on watermelon vodka and fell into the balcony railing only 4 days after I had had dental implants ( at a cost of huge $$$$$$), was so worried about those after that I took no notice of my black eye which got so painful.. I had broken my eye socket and all the fluid was leaking into the bone...I could have lost the sight in that eye!!! What a tosser!!