Ladies on a Mission Week 3

[NoSugar]

Ladies on a Mission Week 3

narilly;1593983 wrote: We are all young women in our 40's to 60's

I love your optimistic view of us, Narilly! :H

Actually, I do feel younger than I did a year ago. All the work that goes into acquiring the AL, hiding the extras, drinking it, hiding the evidence, disposing of the evidence, acquiring more, and on and on can really wear a person out. Add to that being constantly vigilant about what you say, your breath, the color of your tongue, remembering conversations, walking carefully and really, who wouldn't be tired? Then when you consider how draining it is to be beating yourself up for being weak, crying, never truly relaxing... It is an exhausting way to live.

Why did I choose that life? It was a choice and it was a terrible one. If any of you are doubting your decision not to drink, please just let it go. I promise you that every thing will be better without AL in your life. The amount of time and energy you eventually gain make the remaining life issues so much more manageable.

I just got home from my second spinning class - LOVED IT. It feels so good to work hard for the sheer joy of it - not to try to burn off AL calories or to compensate for treating my body badly.

Ann - we've been looking for you! Glad to see you back. Welcome to you, too, Rosie.
Star -- am I going to have to come searching for you AGAIN?? You were a regular in the nest when I joined and it was clear to me that posting everyday like you, Byrdie, Lav, K9, Kuya, and a few others were doing was the ticket out of Hell. So, come back and do that again, ok? It really can work.

HumbleRider, I like to sew, too. Has your machine arrived?

Patrice, I hope you are sound asleep right now. See you in your morning :l.

Available, Pavati, SL -- good to see you. Please stick with it day by day. You will never regret not drinking. EVER.

xx - NS

[narilly]

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All the work that goes into acquiring the AL, hiding the extras, drinking it, hiding the evidence, disposing of the evidence, acquiring more, and on and on can really wear a person out. Add to that being constantly vigilant about what you say, your breath, the color of your tongue, remembering conversations, walking carefully and really, who wouldn't be tired? Then when you consider how draining it is to be beating yourself up for being weak, crying, never truly relaxing... It is an exhausting way to live.

NS, this is totally true! Not to mention all the energy you spend on your hangover and trying to pretend you feel good the next day. Trying to forget how stupid you were and how bad you feel emotionally.
See how strong we are, just to get through a hangover day attests to the fact that we are strong!


Like you said NS, like we ALL have said, AF is so much better. Lets stick with it gals!

[j-vo]

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Hi Young Ladies! It's so nice to have my ipad here at work, as I can lock my door at lunchtime and kick back and read a bit. I don't use my work computer for anything but work related stuff. Too risky. Anyhow, back to work after 5 days off and it wasn't bad as it's been in the past. I didn't have the dread that I drank every night (I did that one night and not going to forget it, but have learned from it) and it feels darn good. I got on my treadmill last night and I feel so good when I'm finished. Going to start my toning video today.

Available, I don't know where I read it, but here on the boards somewhere someone mentioned to eat all you want in early days. Fill yourself up with whatever food you want and there will be no room for AL. Makes sense to me! Melbourne sounds lovely!

HI Pav, Glad you're feelin better young lady. And what a wonderful way to change that mindset from guilt to gratitude. Love it. I took my son downtown to take his driver's permit, we went to lunch, and it was such a wonderful few hours with him. I'm glad I have that. He passed! OMG. Just threw up in my mouth a bit thinking about it...

SL, Day freaking 20! Woop, Woop! YOu're sounding like a Happy Young Lady!

Humblerider, I learned my lesson the hard way. Learn from me! Day 30 and you rock!!!!

Narilly, I think I beat you at injuries. Three years ago, I ended up in the hospital when we were away for a family vacation. I went to the bathroom in the middle of the night (after a long, long day of drinking) and on my way back to bed, fainted, my face hit the door, and lost my two front teeth. No freaking lie. Ambulance took me to hospital, doc said, "Ma'am, your inebriated. This is why you had this accident." Oh! OK! Now I see why you earned your medical license you little dip shit doctor of about 27. Thank you!!!!

Patrice, you'll catch up on your sleep eventually, sweetie! I have to get up at 5:30 am daily and by Friday, all I can think of is sleeping in on Sat.

Rosie, welcome to a wonderful site and thread. So glad to have you. Ann started this three weeks ago and I'm so grateful for this! Yes, we have lots in common, so read, check out the toolbox, and let's get started!

Ann, welcome back to the Young Lady that started this wonderful thread. So glad you're back. We wouldn't be here if it weren't for you.

NoSugar, Thanks for the reminders of what the beast can do to us. It's good to keep that fresh in our minds so we don't go back to that misery. Good for you on the spinning. At least your head isn't spinning from AL! Awesome!

Have a wonderful Sober Tuesday. I will not drink today.

[Dottie Belle]

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Lazy day here so we can try to get better. Taking the meds and doing a few chores. The laundry does not do itself like dh thought when he was working and I did all the laundry...amazing how his clothes showed up in the closet clean and on hangers....they can be so clueless...and I worked full time too...
Gloomy and cold but I have tea brewing so I am warm and comfy..

[Pavati]

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Good morning, Young 'Uns:

Acadia - look back at my posts in the Newbies Nest to see the agony I have suffered as I finally was actually trying to moderate. I am not in a happy place right now, except that I am happy to have the support and understanding of you all.

NoSugar - I needed to read that this morning - thanks. The acceptance is such a relief.

Have a great day back at work, J-vo. I am worried about even using my iPad at school as it has to go through the network, so I am relegated to using my phone and the cellular network. More sneaking, I guess, but sneaking for good.

HumbleRider - Congratulations on your 30 days. If I had stuck with my plan I would be celebrating with you. I hope I always stay 28 days behind you on this journey. Speech, speech.

Rosie - welcome back. Settle in and use us to help you make it through.

SL - 20 is great. I love those nice, round numbers.

Everyone else - have great days (or great sleeps depending on where in the world you are). I will certainly check back in later.

[narilly]

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Dottie, I am sure we ALL do way more around the house that our husbands do. Mine 'thinks' he does as much. But there is no way! Tea is good, enjoy your cuppa and enjoy being sober

J-Vo
Ambulance took me to hospital, doc said, "Ma'am, your inebriated. This is why you had this accident." Oh! OK! Now I see why you earned your medical license you little dip shit doctor of about 27. Thank you!!!!


OMG, that made me laugh right out loud, too funny! I think I would have thought exactly the same thing. :H

I woke up one morning in September 2013 and the bridge of my nose was killing me and a little swollen. I realized that i hit my face on the stairs when I stumbled up to my room. I still have my teeth though. I am sure we all have a million stories about hurting ourselves when drunk.
The best thing now is that when we see something misplaced or have a bruise, it's ok. It's not something that happened when we were drunk and don't remember. I put things in wierd places sometimes and used to blame it on the drink but no more! It's just me

Thank you for being here everyone :h

[narilly]

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Dottie, I am sure we ALL do way more around the house that our husbands do. Mine 'thinks' he does as much. But there is no way! Tea is good, enjoy your cuppa and enjoy being sober

J-Vo
Ambulance took me to hospital, doc said, "Ma'am, your inebriated. This is why you had this accident." Oh! OK! Now I see why you earned your medical license you little dip shit doctor of about 27. Thank you!!!!


OMG, that made me laugh right out loud, too funny! I think I would have thought exactly the same thing. :H

I woke up one morning in September 2013 and the bridge of my nose was killing me and a little swollen. I realized that i hit my face on the stairs when I stumbled up to my room. I still have my teeth though. I am sure we all have a million stories about hurting ourselves when drunk.
The best thing now is that when we see something misplaced or have a bruise, it's ok. It's not something that happened when we were drunk and don't remember. I put things in wierd places sometimes and used to blame it on the drink but no more! It's just me

Thank you for being here everyone :h[/QUOTE]

[K9Lover]

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Hi Kids!

Just checking in to see how all the lovely ladies are doing.

Narilly - One time my entire left side was bruised from shoulder to foot. I had fallen in the shower during one of my drunken episodes. Why in the hell I would take a shower after 12 beers is beyond me, but hey it seemed like a good idea at the time. Not long after that incident, and sharing my story in the Nest, I had the gall to think that drinking again wouldn't "be so bad". One of my beloved Nesters reminded me of that full-body bruise, and basically said "Oh really....that's NOT SO BAD?"....that woke me right up. That is why I share my horror stories, so that when my stupid alkie brain tries to trick me, someone can shake me back into reality! And yes, now when I have a mysterious bruise, it's simply because I am a klutz...or my dog got over-zealous with his welcome home jumping. LOL

[NoSugar]

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I repeatedly shaved my legs under the influence... looked like I'd been in a battle!

[narilly]

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OUCH!!

[acadiaofmaine]

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Hi Everyone,

Great to read all your posts and thanks for the support. Yeah, freedom from AL would be so great! I am tired of thinking about drinking, and tired of thinking about NOT drinking! Does the obsession ever go away? Will we always have to think about this every moment?

I am doing a bit better this afternoon. Very busy day with work, which has helped. Bought two huge chocolate cookies to keep me company later. Went to my second AA meeting. I don't know, I am very mixed about it, many pluses and minuses. But I feel like I must pull out all the stops this time!

Anyway, gotta get DD dinner soon. Thanks again to all, will respond more personally later!

Ann

[NoSugar]

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acadiaofmaine;1594132 wrote: I am tired of thinking about drinking, and tired of thinking about NOT drinking! Does the obsession ever go away? Will we always have to think about this every moment?

Ann, I think I wrote exactly this a number of months ago. I felt like it was driving me crazy.

Guess what? The negative obsession does go away. I still think about it often but they are random, good thoughts of appreciation. I think about it when I wake up each day. I think about it when I do something (like spinning class) with full enjoyment rather than how it was in the bad old days. I think about it when I make plans for the late afternoon or evening. Here is an example: I just made my annual dr. appt. and was asked whether I wanted a morning or afternoon appointment. MORNING used to always be my answer! This time I said, whatever - either is fine. AND IT IS! I tell you, the freedom that is waiting for you and the extra hours in a day you're going to have are just the greatest things.

I don't want to stop thinking about it in this way. I think it always needs to be near the "front" of our minds. And when it is there in a pleasant, appreciative way, it increases the quality of life.

Just let it play out in its own time. As long as you don't drink, all of this will sort itself out .

[available]

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MAE everyone hope we are all doing well. I am at work and everyone is in a meeting so a quick check in it is.

NS god the noise the garbage truck used to make when it took my recycling bin was deafening. So many tomato sauce bottles in there! I used to have wine bottles under the bed, in the bedside drawer. I started to go back to that and that is when i realised i had to stop again. So day 4 it is and other than the bone tiredness i feel today life is good.

JVo i am eating up a storm and even ate a banana on the drive to work, god how many years since i put fruit in my mouth. Tasted nice i must say. I need to gain a few pounds anyway so i'm not complaining and the bonus is i am eating.

K9 My sons used to wheel me to my bedroom in the computer chair so i would not fall over. What a horrible feeling it was when they told their friends but didnt stop me. Blacking out and hitting a ceramic pot plant i am sure my cheek was fractured but no drs for me. We all certainly have a long list of injuries from AL.

Pav, Nar, Dot, thinking of you guys and reading your positive threads, we can do this and today I will not drink. Well better go and do some work, not overly enthusiastic i must say but a walk is in store at lunch time so i can smell the flowers.

[acadiaofmaine]

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No Sugar,

You always hit the nail on the head. I have experienced the relief from not having to schedule EVERYTHING in the mornings! I didn't know anyone else did that! I also remember (vaguely) that I did become able to walk down the street without even noticing the wine store.

But I got worried at the AA meeting today. SO many people, going every day, talking talking talking about it all. Day after day, for years and years. This is in NO WAY a cut on the program, it will be a long time before I make up my mind about it for me. But it did scare me a little.

Ann

[acadiaofmaine]

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And also, I really hope we don't open up an AA/no AA discussion. That, and moderation vs abstinence, has caused more problems on MWO over the years and many hard feelings. I am just trying to figure this all out, take the good from whatever I am trying. I also ordered a book on SMART Recovery. What's next?

I AM going to run tomorrow, I have not in a couple of days. It makes all the difference in the world!

Ann