Sunday May 6th

[Arial]

OK guys - need a little kick start this morning! I started a really good exercise program and have found the motivation to do it regularly and felt great for it - this last week, though, has been back to normal sloth-like self where the world looks much easier and prettier from the confines of my armchair. So stick of dinamite, dose of Weemelons' energy?? - anything to prise me loose from this apathy!

Apart from that, happy Sunday everyone! - hope it's a beautiful day for you all wherever you may be

Just found this quote which may be my own answer to my own problem...

"This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever; in its place is something that you have left behind...let it be something good."
(author unknown)

OK, now I'm thinking - what's the good thing we're going to leave behind with today? I feel the running shoes beckon! See you all later! :h

[Determinator]

Sunday May 6th

Very early good morning from the high desert Arial and all AB-FAB's to come! Exercise motivation? maybe some heart-pumping new music? Running in a new area? Chocolate coated Espresso beans for breakfast!!! Well, Dx and I are off to the airport...type at y'all next from VA. It's a work trip however we plan to sneak in some historic sight-seeing.
Be well friends!!

[dilayne]

Sunday May 6th

Good Morning from an old 'cross poster'! Looks like I'll be hanging around here a little more, if you don't mind. 7th day AF, and realizing that's the way it's gotta be with me. I started MWO last summer and have experimented with topam, supps, with and without topa. Once I'm committed to AF, I do great, and enjoyed almost 5 months of being AF until something in life came up and hit me in the face...well, it left me spinning and you know the rest of the story. Those who know me know that I only resumed drinking about five or six years ago after about 17 years of 'sobriety'..so here I am again, back on the topamax and trying to humble myself to the truth. I don't like the feeling I have been on the topamax, but for now, it's better than how I was feeling drinking close to a bottle of wine every night..gaining 10-12lbs, wasting precious time drinking. I'm going to stay on the topamax until I feel fully committed to abstinence. I've decided to stay at a low dose for the next week or two untl I feel I'm on more solid ground. Since day one on the topamax, I haven't wanted a drink, but I also know that when I've had enough, I've had enough. I'm just dissappointed that I lost my footing so easily, but that's the way the cookie crumbles, isn't it?
Have a lovely Sunday everyone.
d

[dilayne]

Sunday May 6th

I wanted to say that I was AF for close to 5 months up until the end of February and started drinking again the beginning of March..so March and most of April were not great months!

[Paddy]

Sunday May 6th

Hi Arial - hope the running went well! Great Quote of yours. I'm also working on my resolve and still not sure on my plan on either moderation or total AF (still in two minds ....)

Dx-es, have a great trip! Hey, and there's nothing better than a great expresso in the morning. I'm an espresso freak myself - have a big espresso with integrated grinder at my home (it's a real religion in the morning!)

Good on you Dilayne re-commitment on total AF. I suffered a relapse yesterday (despite Topa). Was on one bottle of wine. I'm not beating myself up over it, but it just sort of drives the point home to me that while Topa helps enormously, I need to have a plan in place. And I sort of more and more hinge towards towards total AF, as moderation (as much as it appeals to me) seems unsustainable to me longterm. I seem to have moments where I just relapse. So I commend people like yourself who religiously stick to committing to total AF.

Have yourselves a great weekend - everyone else coming in. Mine is coming to an end, and Monday the root of all evil is already knocking ...

[lucky 2.0]

Sunday May 6th

I am back on abs train. Have to be. I am not happy if not abs because I cannot do mods. I am really quite tired of this ...

Good luck to us all with keeping our motivation levels high.

Have scheduling conflicts today so I am already annoyed @ 7:30 a.m. I need to be/want to be 2 places @ one time. And they are 2 hours away from each other.

ugh

And yes, I have a headache. Hit my head on something on Friday night and it so sore in addition to the headache.

Enough of me. Have a good day everyone!

[kitkatsue]

Sunday May 6th

Good morning to everyone,
It's hard for me to get into the gym but I always feel better about it after.

Dilayne, March and April were not good months for me either, I stupidly thought I could be moderate, and I am in no way in any place to do so, it's hard at times to think I can't moderate but I feel so much better AF, it's only been 14 days and it seems like it is taking forever to recover from my binder.

Well take care everyone and have a lovely Sunday !

kitkat

[sammys]

Sunday May 6th

I am with you Lucky on going abs for a while, been doing good and although I did not go completely overboard last nite I could have stopped while I was ahead and didn't. I did have a couple more than I needed to and for me thats all it takes. Kitkat Hi there, Paddy, dilayne and determinator and arial have a easy day.

Will check in later
Sammys

[Breez]

Sunday May 6th

Good Afternoon All~

Had an early morning softball game~& boy did we freeze our tushies off despite the fact it's SUPPOSED to be spring!

Arial~lovely post, thank you
Deter & Dx~have a lovely & safe trip
di & lucky~welcome back to Absville...we love the company
Paddy~keep up that attitude....& you're in love today{warm fuzzies}
kit~have fun at the gym

Have a great one....off to see my dad who's out of ICU & into his own room. Things are looking good.

[Breez]

Sunday May 6th

Hi Sam-we posted same time

[Popeye]

Sunday May 6th

Evening all,
We had a great day today, walking on the banks of Loch Lomond. 14 miles of easy beauty.
I was supposed to be off work tomorrow, but I got a phone call asking if I'd go in. I'll get another day off later in the month. Ah well.......
Have a good one.

[Ripley]

Sunday May 6th

Hi all

bit of a relapse last night - great friend came round with 2 bottles of wine and we polished them both off. the shame of it... also smoked about 5 million cigarettes. weak weak fool.

I am boring myself now with all this. back on track tomorrow, and back to logging in daily here. See you in the morning!

K x

[Arial]

Sunday May 6th

I'm afraid I have to admit - not a run in sight! However, a really long bike ride made up for it, though it was pretty leisurely so not really counted as a workout. However, it was so beautiful it was definitely one of those 'it's great to be alive' moments...

Breez - I'm so glad your Dad's out of ICU and in his own room - I hope his recovery is now quick and he's home soon :h

Dilayne - thank you so much for your honesty - if someone with such an excellent track record can slip easily then it's a really powerful reminder that this is an on-going battle, not something to ease up on, relax about or get too confident with - so thank you for the increased ammunition - and many congratulations on your new resolve! :goodjob:

Lucky - so sorry to see Lucky duck with such a sore head - hope it feels better soon!

D and Dx have a wonderful trip :wavin: - hope you don't get caught playing hookey when you sneak off ...!

Popeye - sounds absolutely wonderful - Runrig springs to mind when anyone mentions Loch Lomond - though not really a tranquil sound to reflect the beauty!

and KitKat, Sammys, Paddy and Ripley - hope your respective weeks go really well and everyone achieves what they want to!

:l

[pansy]

Sunday May 6th

Hi all,

I too am trying to rededicate to AF. After getting news about my job and then finding out that my first backup plan might be a no-go, I just sort of gave up as far as AF. I need to move on to my backup backup plan, which might involve an out of state move for a year ... and then I will have to pay to live in studio apartment AND my mortgage for my condo back home ... until the job front is better. Still, all is up in the air and I won't have a clue as to how things will work out for almost 4 months.

I am not good at NOT knowing and because I am single and am the only source of income, I get really mad at anyone at work who tells me that it will be okay (and they have not lost their jobs and anyway, when they did get laid off they just stayed at home because their husbands made lots of money.). So, I am UGGGH today. Drinking will not help.

In the past few months I have been doing better, but I do not want to slip right now. I drank 3 times last week and drank last night. I have 56 AF days out of the last 67, which is not too bad, but I know that if I do not get vigilant I will be drinking during the week which I cannot do. Really, I would like to be AF for at least the next 6 weeks. So, I am back here posting again - it does seem to help.

Ducky, sorry your little head is sore. I hope you are feeling better.

Arial, congrats on the exercise.

D - have fun in VA - that is one of the states in which I am looking for work!

Welcome to the abs board Dilayne.

Paddy, I am glad you are in love!

Popeye - sounds like an awesome walk! The weather here has really turned and I am feeling ashamed that I did not get out and enjoy it!

Kitkat - I am very glad that you have your 14 days in. So happy to see you back and being good to yourself - you deserve it.

Sammys - I miss being on chat and seeing you. I am glad that a whole bunch of us Chat Regulars are doing AF. That will help me a lot.

Breez - glad your dad is doing better.

Ripley - ick smoking ciggies feels worse than wine the morning after! I quit almost 10 years ago and sometimes I still taste the nasty things ...

Okay, now going to do some work! Hope all have a great evening,

Pansy

[Accountable for Me]

Sunday May 6th

Good evening all you abbers! Just got home from grocery shopping. I feel like I have gained a million pounds since moving 6 days ago. Nothing but eating it seems - ack! Oh well, guess it is better than drinking eh!?

Nothing really exciting to say. I hope you all have a great night!