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[roxane]

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Trigger trigger trigger boing boing boing.

That is all.

[NoSugar]

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I'm not sure what you mean, Roxanne.
Are you faced with triggers right now? Maybe you could write about them - it will help you see them for what they really are -- NOTHING. It is your mind that is giving them meaning.
And even then, it is in your power NOT to respond to them.

Push the thoughts aside and get on with your AF life.

Nothing is worth taking a drink.

[roxane]

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yep, triggers, so i wrote it out.

early afternoon is a massive trigger for me.

chatted with someone on fb (they dont know) and now im heating up some food.

alls fine now!

[NoSugar]

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Good, Roxane! So glad you are doing ok.

One of my recurring triggers was: 4 pm. (Hard to avoid that one :H)

But what really was going on was this: I would eat a 'brunch' midmorning and not eat again. So... around 4 pm my blood sugar was about as low as it could get, making that first glass of wine so rewarding.
I didn't set out to do this on purpose - but it developed over time and was reinforced each time my brain had that huge relief from one of the most debilitating metabolic states - hypoglycemia. So eating a good meal late morning and drinking at 4 became part of my daily rhythm. And just like I was triggered to eat at 10:30 or 11 each morning, I was triggered to drink ~ 4 pm.
The red wine I drank did not contain much sugar but getting the calories and metabolizing the ethanol gave my brain what it "needed".

So was 4 pm really the "trigger" it seemed to be? No, but low blood sugar was. And, fortunately, that is easy to avoid.

[roxane]

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i tended to have breakfast and little or no lunch. unless im at work. then i have lunch and no trigger until driving home.

i had something to eat with this in mind, even though i didnt really 'want' to. still triggered so i guess its a mix of physical and emotional.

time now 6.15 and im over it. at least i get it out of the way early lol.

[narilly]

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NS, That is a good one. I will remember that if I ever have cravings late afternoon.

Roller Girl- keep coming back.

gotta get back to work, busy today.

[j-vo]

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Hi girls,
This is where I get off the pity party bus. I'm done feeling sorry for myself as I was for the last three days. I ready to move on and live my AF life with you cool AF girls.

Ava, I snore and talk in my sleep, so we must have kept each other up all night! I'm sure you talked more than I did, though!:H

Rollergirl, I never will have Day 1 and I hope you're with me!

LB, did you say you're having an accountability meeting? Do you mean at AA? I read about that actor that overdosed on heroin. Sad. After 20 some years sober.

NS, I've been trying to eat smaller meals more times a day. Healthy snacks in between slightly larger meals.

Ok, going to two basketball games this evening. Tues and Fri are the last regular season games as we've made it to the playoffs. We clinched the Section title on Friday! Really proud of the boys. Have a good night.

[j-vo]

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Hi Nar!

[available]

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Morning Loarmers, well for me it is. I am loving this sleep aspect finally of not drinking. A deep deep sleep and waking up looking like NS's pics, mmm maybe not!

LB i am glad things are going well, at least it gives you another focus, sometimes i really dont know how you dont cave, you are one hell of a strong woman who i admire greatly. My son was right into crack for over a year and did not live with me then, thank god he chose to come home when he was at rock bottom. He has shown great determination in not touching the stuff again and i admire him so much but now he also admires me. Like us, he knows he cannot have one smoke ever or else he will be on the slippery slope to hell. One day at a time for us all, it doesnt matter what the addicition. He has been clean nearly a year on the 27th March. I am proud of him. Yes I heard about his death, just tragic.

Roller, hello lovely, hope you are having a good day, i chatted to you last night so wont keep waffling on about drinking. Be strong and stop the AGAIN's.

Pat you had me worried there for a split second girl, glad you are doing well and dont the days start to roll by, keep them rolling. You know al makes you feel like shit so why drink it?

Rox after work was my trigger as i told you, be strong and ride it out, put some music on and dance, eat some food, clean. It wont last forever that trigger and it fades believe me. I get home from work now, feed the dogs and make a cuppa whereas previously it was get home from work, feed the dogs and have a wine or 10. Damn i deserved that wine but damn no i did not, i didnt save the world or discover a cure for cancer and even if i did i didnt deserve a drink.

Jvo i am glad you are off the bus lovely, one day at a time and today i will not drink. My mantras in life now. The problem with you talking is you dont speak clearly so i cant find out all your secrets so please work on that and sorry if i threw the leg over last night! Bad habit of mine also, it frightens the kids when they sleep with me. Have you done your list of when you feel those al urges coming on?

Well its "hump day" here and free food Wednesday. The neurologists all have a weekly meeting so the sales reps provide the food. I love free food, i love anything free really. I found out a priest at the hospital is leaving at the end of feb. I am sooo not religious but he seemed to appear in my life a few years ago when i was quietly having a breakdown and i am forever grateful to him. I never told him but he seemed to know that i needed someone in my life. It will be a sad day when he leaves but we all have to move on and he has had health issues. There is a special service for him on the 27th, i told him the chapel will fall down if i go and he said he will provide a hard hat.

Well no more news in the land of Aus from me. Be strong girls, we can do this.

NS hello and hello. I hope you enjoy your news update! You are a wealth of support and wisdom on here and i am so grateful for that.

Jvo i hope you guys win! You know to celebrate with a nice non al drink! xxx

[roxane]

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You do like long posts don't you Ava.

Image of the chapel collapsing made me snigger.

I rode it out as I saw it for what it was. I tried to swerve it but it knew and came at me.

Roll on day 2.

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Lol, well i have to answer everyone Rox, its me. Id get too anxious if i forgot anyone and then have to post some more! Al will keep trying to draw you in especially the first week, tell it to F off, talk yourself out of it. Well off to work for me!

I didnt get to where i am by being quiet!

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Pavati;1622532 wrote:
Our individual circumstances and differences are irrelevant when it comes to recovery. By letting go of our uniqueness and surrendering to this simple way of life, we're bound to find that we feel a part of something. And feeling a part of something gives us the strength to walk through life, hardships and all.

I'm so glad you posted these quotes here and in the nest, Pav. I think they really get at the heart of things.

I really thought I could solve the problem on my own and sure tried hard to do that, making the promises to and bargains with myself that so many others report. It would work for awhile but I just couldn't sustain it until I came here and found out that I was not the only one who did all this crazy stuff and gave up so much just so I could drink. I hadn't imagined that anyone else who like me, appeared 'normal', would have this awful secret life. What a relief it was when I came here and found out that I was not unique at all!

Once I decided that I was pretty much the same as the people I met here, I figured I should just do what the successful ones I admired were doing and not doing what the ones who kept starting over where doing. Since I felt like I was in over my head, having failed using all my big ideas, copying others started to seem like a good strategy and I still think it is. Addictions, at their biological/chemical core, are pretty much all the same even though we are all so different from one another in other ways.

It also is good to be a part of something bigger than ourselves -- a like-minded, generally supportive community of individuals who share a problem. Getting involved has been important. Others have commented that they didn't have success until they stopped lurking and started posting. I also think helping others is one of the best ways to help yourself - it can be a win/win situation. Plus the more we get to know one other, the more we realize that really cool people can wind up with addictions -- does wonders for the self-image .

[roxane]

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available;1622784 wrote: Lol, well i have to answer everyone Rox, its me. Id get too anxious if i forgot anyone and then have to post some more! Al will keep trying to draw you in especially the first week, tell it to F off, talk yourself out of it. Well off to work for me!

I didnt get to where i am by being quiet!

Nooo, I love them!

I can't keep up with all the posters so I don't even try.

I will have to really watch out on Friday, and be prepared.

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I know you do but you will get to know everyone and posting on here is essential to me in being accountable. need to go and buy a coffee for this hour drive.

[narilly]

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Hello sweet ladies.
Love your posts.
NS, that was really interesting. Love Pav's post and also what you said about doing what the successful people did and not doing what the people relapsing did.
That is what I do at work. I look at the successful people and the not successful people and try to be more like the successful ones. It seems to work. That's why I am kicking butt at work. haha...

I think I will follow your strategy. Holy Smokes YOU have helped me so many times Girl! Thank you.
So what do you think the successful ones do? Keep posting, help others on this site, what else?

Ava, moderation, no Farkin way! I know that and agree for sure.

Yes Roxane be prepared. I find the days you are prepared are the easiest. Its when you are caught off guard when you might slip. Make sure you have some tools in place to fall back on in that situation of being caught off guard.

Pav, I had a drinking dream. I was drinking gingeral and then looked at my drink and saw it was really a glass of Beer! OMG! In my dream i was thinking that now I have to tell Ava, Pav, J-Vo, NS, and ALL the rest of the loamers and I was dreading that! Wierd eh? Dreaming about you lovelies

J-Vo, have fun at basketball. That is so much fun and your son must appreciate his sober mom being there!

Talk to you soon sober ladies.