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[roxane]

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g'night. hugs to girly.

[jenniech]

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Check out this blog?..i could really relate to it both as an alcoholic myself and the adult daughter of an alcoholic who died at the age of 56 over 20 years ago?..
DeBie Hive: Addiction, Mental Health and a Society That Fails to Understand Either

[little beagle]

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Rox it should be all about youuuuuu. Right now. Hang in there. Read in the tool box. That helped me through some rough moments. Have a hot tea. I use that to sooth myself when I am anxious.
Giraffe first congratulations on 100 days. :wave: you are really kicking that old al's butt. Next, don't think that drinking is inevitable. It isn't. I am living proof. That kind of thinking does lead us right back to the beginning. I personally choose not drinking and embracing life. The good, the bad, and the ugly. I never want to go back to the unmanageable hell my life was Before. I prefer the After story.
Ava hope your dog is ok. The gut wrenching anxiety I feel when one of my girls id sick. Yuck. But you are right. Drinking will turn a bad situation into an unmanageable one where you are helpless to do anything. I hate feeling helpless.

[paulywogg]

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Hello ladies,just wanted to pop in to congratulate Giraffe on 100 days!! that is awesome,but please dont think a relapse is inevitable,i know you are trying to not be too cocky or complacent but thinking youll relapse is an awful way to think,just keep truckin' Available,im so sorry about your dog,i hope she feels better,i love dogs,more than people sometimes,on the news theres this bitch here in Vegas that had a designer pet boutique,cute little pugs,yorkies,teacups etc,little outfits to dress 'em in,well she and some guy went in and set the place on fire for insurance with 27 pups inside! luckily the sprinklers kicked on and fire crew got there,all the dogs are safe and sound and the animal shelter,this just happened 2 days ago,im glad they have her on her own surveilance camera,so hopefully she rots in jail,sorry for the sad story but people being mean to animals fires me up! Have a good wednesday everyone

[paulywogg]

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P.S just wanted to tell Daisy that we have the same quit datelets get our 100 girlie

[daisy45]

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Roxanne, hope you took that walk in the rain - nothing like pure nature! Hang in there.....
So happy today as I got back to my swimming. Went to the gym then a 50 lap swim - this should help with the sleeping. Getting better but not before 2.30 am in the morning - looking forward to tonight!

[daisy45]

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Cross-post Paulywogg - great stuff! I look forward to it!

[Pavati]

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Ava - I hope Maddison is ok. I love dogs but am not home enough to care properly for one, so we just visit with my parents dog (he lives upstairs).

Rox - glad you came here and posted instead of drinking, and wonderful to hear that it worked! Ava and I were in our first days together - we posted a lot (if you can imagine more than we do), and watched a lot of alcohol documentaries as well. They will scare you sober!

Off to work. Take care ladies. Will check in later tonight.

xo

[narilly]

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Girrraffffeeee!!!! Yip! Yip! Yippee!!! Way to go Girl! Keep on smiling babe, you deserve it.

Jennie, I am going to read that blog, thanks.

Ava, I hope Maddison is ok, that sucks when your dog is sick. I love my dogs so much, they can be a royal pain but they are so worth it. Love ya no matter what. I remember my little mini daschund Franky, she was soooo cute. One night I got drunk and ran to the toilet to throw up and did not quite make it, I threw up on little Franky (just a bit). I felt so bad! Poor Franky. That dog followed me everywhere and loved me unconditionally (even after that). How terrible.

Anyway, glad that won't happen again EVER! I love my sober life. The next 50. Clear minded, grateful, sober me.

Thank you for all your help everyone.
Rox, way to hang in there. Hope Ava isn't giving you too much grief! (love you Ava)

Pauly and Daisy, Go for it!

SL, we are on to our next 30 days and we are holding J-Vo's hand right?

So f'n cold this am walking to work. I had my long johns under my corduroy pants and my big Canad Goose Parka, ear muffs, hood, 2 sets of mittens, big boots, sweater, scarf and a snowboard scarf to cover my face and my legs were still Frozen when I got to work. It was about a 40 minute walk. It takes like 10 minutes just to get out of the house cause you gotta put all that stuff on! -28C this am.
Tomorrow I am going to Florida and it is gonna be warm! I will just walk outside. No parka, toque, mits, NO long johns, nothin' honey! OH, maybe some light clothing... but thats it!

Anyway, will talk to you soon,

[giraffe1234]

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So chuffed to see all the messages of congrats and support, as well as the good advice re thought of relapse.
Thank you:
Narilly
Paulywogg
Daisy
DreamTD
Little Beagle
xxx

[HumbleRider]

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Ava,
I'm jumping in here to reply starting at your latest epistle, so lots to write about. I found this site years ago as well but never joined as I knew even though I wanted desperately to quit, I didn't yet have the mind set to be held accountable for my actions. I felt I could drink secretly and no one would be the worse for it. Now I know how ludicrous that sounds. I hoped your little one gets better soon. I am so excited to hear that you don't have a desire to drink this situation away, which of course would be doomed to failure. Great that you can show your daughter what you're made of.

Rox, Ava mine wasn't Friday or Saturday. Unfortunately, it was every day. Although each day had its own pattern, start/stop times, carefully orchestrated by yours truly to deceive those around me into thinking I had it together. Meanwhile my behavior was obvious to everyone but myself.

Nar, I've also dreamed of the loamers and how bad I would feel if I took that drink and had to be held accountable here at MWO. I wake up happy knowing that I will come here in a pinch and tell all for some welcome support.

Daisy, I love waking up now after a restful sleep. Take a look at j-vo's pic--that's us in the am, haha.

Rox, I didn't think you were being rude, and it's a darn good thing you checked in here before taking yourself up on that urge. You know you will regret it if you do it, so why bother? And yes, it is all about you, just like it's all about all of us, so keep it coming.

Jenniech, thank you for the link--I will read it after I get home from work, sounds like a good one.

I'm with you LB--choosing not to drink and embracing it, that's what it's all about. Otherwise, I'd be plowed in a few hours.

Oh no, Pollywog, that is a terrible story. How can people be so cruel, especially owners of the shop! Greed, desperation, whatever, nothing should result in the taking of innocent lives.

Pav, you and I had the same quit date I think (Nov. 3). You seem to be doing pretty good, keep it up. See you later tonight.

Okay all, I had better start doing something related to work since I'm sitting in my office. Will check in later, AF of course! xo

[sweetpea29]

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Hi Loamers


Been away a few days......everyone still doing well I hope?

Just wanted to offer my congratulations to Giraffe - well done long-necked one :wd:

Hope your Dog is ok Ava? Narilly- enjoy your break away from the cold- I can't imagine trying to live in those temps ye have. Don't work too hard Humble!

Hi everyone else:hiya: sorry not to mention ye all xx

[available]

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Loamers hello

Well not much on the thread but i am sure i can fill a page lol.

Jenni thanks for the link, i will look at that later, its always good to watch doco's and read, keeps us focused on what our mission is all about. A bit of shock therapy never hurt us.

LB so true, i never want to go back to the life i had before, it wasnt a life it was an existence for me and damn it feels great to wake up sober even with all the crap we have to deal with daily. You for one keep me on the straight and narrow, if you can do it then anyone can in my opinion.

Pauly that is a horrible story, i hope they put her in a room and set it on fire. FFS what is it with people that they can hurt other living creatures.

Daisy your are doing so well keep it up. Are you swimming in the cold also? A brave soul if you are. You have a quit buddy, no excuse now.

Pav wear yourself out with your last post haha. Totally true about posting, posting and more posting but look where we are and gees there were some bad days at the beginning werent there? Life is so much better on the other side of the early days.

Nar how the hell do you actually put one foot in front of the other? You so deserve a bit of warmth, run naked through the streets if you care to. You deserve to do that one! Poor Franky, funny how whatever we do they still love us unconditionally, i used to constantly kick mine as i was falling over them. If only they could talk.

Humble that does not sound ludicrous at all, sounds exactly how i felt for a few years. Why would anyone care, they wont know, i dont have a problem as bad as some on MWO, i can control my drinking if i really want to, i just dont want to. My drinking days were ones ending in a Y and who were we kidding thinking no one knew how bad we were, i know my children did but if they said anything i was defensive and no way would i listen, i would just pour myself more wine to block it out.

Sweet hello and glad you can check in and say hi.

thanks you all for your thoughts with Maddison. I am going to take her to the Emergency Hospital at 8.30. She is drinking but not pooing or weeing and she vomited on my foot when i woke this morning. Mothers intuition, i know she is very unwell. My anxiety is right up there which it has not been for ages, i dont want to have a day off work as i need all the days i can get since i am going away but she is worth more than money. My son Liam said to me before "she will be fine mum" and i was like "i love her like you and i would do anything for you so i need to do this for her", he understands but knows i cant afford this expense. My last dog cost me $2000 but she was part of the family, then we moved houses and she ran away, farking dog! lol. I have to wake Mia as i cant do this alone, i cant take her to the vets just in case they say something bad, i cant think like that but i do.

Glad every one is doing so well and Rox i am so proud of you, you may not be online but i know you have the strength to carry on with this journey, you are putting all the tools in place.

Hugs to all xxx

[narilly]

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Ava, your dog ran away after you spent $2000? FFS! That is funny and sad at the same time

hmmm...running naked through the streets. Maybe if I was drinking! But since I am going to be sober I will just saunter naked throught the streets.

Sweet Pea, You could live here no problem! It sounds worse than it is...I think!

Humble, Isn't it funny how we dream about MYO. I joined back in 2006 and never found the connection like I have with you ladies now. Maybe I was not really ready to quite. I think I was still trying to mod. Ya, and we all know where that got us!

I am going to have a sober AL free trip to Florida, can't wait. I will post you beautiful ladies from there. I need to make sure I don't have any slips.

xo

[j-vo]

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Ava and Roxane, I read your posts, and i'm glad I saw how this can work. I knew it could, but it was good to see you two in action and how that one call for help can really make a difference. I'm glad you made it through and Ava, good work!

To add to the things that will make our AF stick/and us to be successful:
Stealing great ideas from others and posting them in my journal. It's like my own little toolbox,

Daisy, nighttime is a trigger for obvious reasons. My deep thinking happens at anytime of the day, although cause more anxiety than thoughts of drinking. I need to cut the start using my distracting tools when I think too much.

NS, I loved your list of things that you did to make you successful. I probably will steal that, too, for my journal. But I'm going to start with the "calling" or posting idea first. I also liked how you didn't pressure yourself to exercise and push yourself into hobbies right away. I pressure myself to exercise, although it's not a lot of exercise, it's still on my mind that I need to do it. The only thing I need to do is take care of my family, go to work, and not pick up a drink.

LB, also like the brain reprogramming. I have a few mantras I'll say daily:

No matter what happens, I will not drink.
No matter how I feel, I will not drink.
I do not drink,

Some smart chick named NS gave me those.

SL, after all that, you handled yourself so well. Good for you sista. Did you notice all the hands on you? It was us!

Nar, long john index!! Wow! And I wish we could warm you up a bit. Hopefully you can sit by the toasty fireplace this evening. When do you go to beautiful sunny Florida? I love Florida!

Giraffe, congratulations on your 100 days!! What a great achievement for you!!! I loved your post!

Pav, you were in a fun for three weeks, yet you didn't drink. You used your tools with success. I like your idea of the mental playlist and playing it out until the end. Excellent one.

Jennie, thanks for the link on addiction. Gonna watch that in a few minutes!

Hi Patrice, Dot, Star, Humble, Ava (praying for Maddison) Lb, Pauly (what a stupid, crazy bitch to do that. Just awful! OMG. That angers me.) and Sweetpea, Rivergal, Roller girl, and all Loamers.