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[roxane]

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MAE

Day 3 is done.

Sneaky drunk brain used the fact that it is the weekend to niggle at me to drink tomorrow.
Didn't surface when I was feeling sorry for myself this morning. (thanks for humouring me!)

Well it's gone now. Was niggling at me from about 3pm, i even told it to fuck off out loud. 6.45 It just switched off.

Going to really have to watch what it comes up with tomorrow.

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little beagle;1624353 wrote: . Other's behavior is on them. That is hard for me to accept and YES it affects me personally and daily, but a few yoga stretches and a hot cup of tea or a walk with my doggies is what I do. Sometimes a hard cry in a hot tub. Or a visit on MWO ###$$& thread. But never a drink.

little beagle;1624264 wrote: As you know here in Louisiana we are in Mardi Gras season. This will be my first sober. Christmas holidays I was ok with, but this one is a bit more difficult. I wrote my plan out and I will be staying close to MWO.

LB, I am so impressed with how doggedly (pun intended :H) you are guarding your ever-lenthening sober life. You've learned how to reward yourself (or at least let some steam off) in positive ways. When your family's problems worsened, you organized family meetings to share what you've learned. Actually writing out the plan is such a good idea -- makes it even more real and lets different parts of your brain in on the news about what is coming up.
I found the French Quarter a little too wild on a normal night so I can't really imagine what this week must be like! I hope you enjoy the holiday.

roxane;1624431 wrote: MAE
Day 3 is done.
Sneaky drunk brain used the fact that it is the weekend to niggle at me to drink tomorrow.
Didn't surface when I was feeling sorry for myself this morning. (thanks for humouring me!)
Well it's gone now. Was niggling at me from about 3pm, i even told it to fuck off out loud. 6.45 It just switched off.
Going to really have to watch what it comes up with tomorrow.

You're doing great, Roxy, and it is so good to wake up and get to read posts where someone successfully uses MWO to make progress. Getting on here and posting instead of drinking really can work. Don't worry about what you write - whatever is there needs to get out and you often end up helping someone else at the same time. Keep doing what you're doing - it's working!

Daisy and Pav, Good for both of you sticking to your plans! Don't worry about the doubts of others, Pav. They don't know how committed you are (unless you tell them the same things you share in your posts ). The important thing is that YOU know you're not going to make the choice to drink (and so do we).

I had a gift certificate for a massage and decided to use it today . Much to my dismay, my masseuse was quite the chatty one, in spite of my monosyllabic responses . After awhile he kind of clammed up a bit and BEST of ALL, he didn't stop for almost 90 minutes for a 1 hour appointment!! I had initially been thinking he was talking his tip away but he ended up with a bonus! I'd like to tell him he can talk the whole time next time if he wants to :H ...

Ok, Humble, you've got me looking for the West Coast Evening edition of the Daily Loamer! I'll be checking back later to see what you've got to say!

xx, NS

[roxane]

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Being on here is a massive help ns.
Especially as I have a stalker following me making sure I don't trip up, showing me where the hurdles are (you know who you are, muah)

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Loamers hello

Well what a horrible site mwo was to me last night, sorry Rox but would not let me post and when i looked it posted twice, i gave up in the end.

Lb, lovely, i totally agree, my mothers behaviour is hers completely and we cant teach an old dog new tricks as much as we try. I can put up with her behaviour but when it affects my children then i am one not very happy mother which i am not atm but if i keep all the anger inside of me that is not healthy and i know it will lead to me drinking again and like you no one is worth drinking AT. I can remember when i was younger i swore i would never bring my children up the way my mother did and thank god i remembered thinking that. Even my children tell me that they are glad i am not like their nana.

Rox you are more than welcome to tell us how you feel, its not just about giving up al, its about why we drank in the first place and believe me we all have issues with our parents, siblings or someone from the past but the past has to be the past and letting it go is such a weight off our shoulders. We are here to listen to you and i hope your dog is not too worn out or lame from his walk. What kind of puppy do you have? My girl is still at the vets and i am glad as it was 30 degrees overnight and is still that temp. Its killing me guys! You are sounding in a good place now, keep it up.

Daisy good on you for going home and looking after yourself. Isnt it a great feeling to "be there" at events instead of thinking about drinking and are we keeping up with everyone or drinking too much and when we can get our next one etc etc etc. It is draining to say the least drinking! Thanks for the congrats, yes i am a pretty happy woman, never thought i could do it and neither did my children. They are realising that this is the new me and i am not going to fail them anymore with drinking. Stay strong lovely.

PAV, PAV, PAV 70 days for you my sweet, the massacre is way behind you now. Maybe we should pop over to the 100 dayers and tell them to prepare for our short and sweet posts ha ha or just suprise them! You are a joy to have around. I so agree with just the thought of drinking now, it is just a thought as such, not a craving at all, just a desire to have one. yeah right, bring on that massacre! If dh is "not sure" about asking maybe he should just shut up lol. I still have a supply of bricks for everyones dh's, all in different sizes, colours and patterns and all for free. 70 feels good doesnt it and i am sure i am not driving my kids nuts being af about how i feel but better than being hungover and not enjoying being af and it is a constant reminder of how i really feel. A big hug for your day. Regarding the room, vacuum vacuum vacuum. I used to tell the kids to clean it up or it was vacuumed and it was always vacuumed. Barbie had some many single shoes, they should have made "amputee barbie" for my girls.

Humble lol, i will never stop posting though i was quietish last week. Bryd put up a great poem for me on NN yesterday, thanks to NS too, good thing i dont get too paranoid anymore about posting though instead of clicking on "post quick reply" there should be a "post Ava's epistle". Just watching a tv add about "gamblers help" never seems to be anything on tv about al. I feel so frustrated that al is soooo not recognised for being a horrendous addiction and affects so many. God i wont get started on that. How is the 100 dayers? No no dont tell me.

NS a massage with a male, now was he cute? I had a massage in Thailand last time i visited and could hardly walk for 2 days but damn it felt good at the time. I slipped two discs 3 years ago so i am wary about people touching my back.

Rox who is your stalker? Let me at them! ha ha.

Well hoping today Maddy comes home, i am getting impatient but i do know in my heart she is in the best place to get better and she is not a spring chicken. I do have my dumb shitzu who loves me to death with me and she is so liking getting all the attention. As we speak she is under the doona, wtf its 30 degrees, her brain is not very big but damn she is cute. May be going on a lunch date with the guy who had air con, god i wish i had a book on understanding men. His shout and i am like "damn right it is" and its near where maddy is so i can kill two birds with one stone. free meal and pick up my girl.

Oh another brutal day so the news says, cant wait!

Love you guys and very proud of you Rox, you are nailing it.

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available;1624492 wrote: I used to tell the kids to clean it up or it was vacuumed and it was always vacuumed. Barbie had some many single shoes, they should have made "amputee barbie" for my girls.
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You need to have your own Comedy Thread, Ava! You are hilarious :H:H:H.

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It was glitchy with me aswell, I gave up aswell.

Stalker Ava? Why, you! You called yourself one.

My dog is a black Labrador. They say walking your dog is a good way of meeting people. Not my dog, they ignore me and get all sloppy over him. All they say to me after, ooh five mins of fawning over him is what a beautiful boy he is. Then they walk off.

Fantastic that you broke the chain of behaviour your mother gave you.

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Love this thread! You guys are helping me so much even though you may not realise - everything I read relates to me in some way.....
Well rested today and 10k cycle and 50 laps - sleep getting better.....day 12 done and dusted! YES!!!

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Stalkers have their advantages maybe lol. As long as you dont mind, all good and look at you, doing so well. I love labradors so i would probably ignore you too, such beautiful friendly, loyal dogs. well all dogs are loyal. I used to have big dogs but with 4 kids i thought little was better and easier.

I could never do to my kids what she did to me, i mean who gets the shits with their kids and doesnt talk to them for 6+months and then you have to apologise for something you dont know what you did.

Now that Maddy has to go on a low fat diet so she proceeded to tell me all that i had to do, which i already knew, and she asked a friend of hers and he knows everything. Mmmm, still the kid who cant do anything right. She is not an animal person at all so maybe that says something but she does love maddison, keeps telling me she could take her home and im like "not on your life". I dont look after her, give her enough attention etc etc etc, even puts me down with my dogs lol.

god now you have me bitching about my mother ha ha.

Daisy you are exhausting me but glad to hear you are doing so well and be proud of everyday you dont drink, i am! Every post gives me something to think about or laugh at or cry at, i cant start my day without logging on here and then i am on for an hour or so and yep nothing gets done but who cares.

[Pavati]

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MAE!

Ava - as Byrdie says, just like an alkie to start the party early. I am still hanging out in my day 69, your day 70 while you're at your own day 71 and hanging out in my day 70 (darn that International Date Line). I still have 6.5 hours.

You are hilarious - the Amputee Barbie made me literally laugh out loud. My kids are both boys, so we need the Amputee Bionical for our house.

J-Vo - I get a lot from your posts, too. I get a lot from everyone's posts. That's why I like this thread so darn much.

I'll check back in later. A lovely RAINY here, I went for a wet walk and am getting ready to watch some Olympics.

Keep on keepin' on, as they say.

xo

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It's Saturday Night here and what a lovely thing to be sober, watching stink bugs crawl out of my fireplace, smash them (more like grab and throw down the toilet as they stink if you touch them) and relax with my Ipad. Hubby is at a fundraiser for son's baseball team and I was going to go, but had been out last night and all of today, so I decided to give myself a quiet break.

I was telling NS that I feel really great, even though I had those few slips, (and don't get me wrong, those slips had me in the slumps) I still feel on the right path this time. My life has been so different in such a wonderful way without AL to ruin it. I need to ensure I won't slip up anymore, so I can feel as though I can trust myself completely, and not worry if someone says something that doesn't sit right with me, put an Al idea in my head (and it'll happen, I just need to react properly). So time does mean lots. I want it to become more of a natural thing, such as not eating wheat for NS, or sugar for that matter. What the hell, then do you eat NS? Just kidding. I know it takes time for our brains to rewire, and since I'm a little mentally challenged, it could be a little longer for me. But whatever it takes, I'm ready to keep going this time. Thank you girls for your continued and unconditional support. It means the world to me.:l

NS, massage sounds lovely.

Roxy, great going! You're doing fantastic by coming here and getting things off your chest. Watch out for that Ava. She's quite the stalker!

Daisy, you're days are getting higher and higher. And what a great way to fill your time by exercising. I'm doing some, but also being somewhat lazy when I can.

Have a great night ladies.

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Hi all,
LB, me too. I've actually acted like that Bronco fan I posted, so embarrassing to watch her and remember that person. And I'm an introvert, for God's sake. Doubly humiliating. Hope Mardi Gras is going well and you are having fun actually remembering the Olympics. . Sorry to hear about your mom.

Rox, hang in there and congrats on those 3 days. Every AF day is a milestone and soon you'll be feeling better and better. Good luck with your mom and step dad; relationships can be so difficult but that's why we're here. I should have taken a walk with the dogs like you did today, but I was too lazy.

Daisy, that's great that you could drop them off and go home. I've also had those split-second thoughts when in similar situations and have managed to ignore them, or shift my focus.

Ava, I love to remember that AT phrase, so thanks for mentioning it about your mom. For me, it was my husband. Now we aren't fighting since we aren't drinking, so there is no desire to get wasted at him. Phew. It's amazing how much discord alcohol consumption can cause. I have a good relationship with my mom, for which I am grateful. But I have treated her poorly in the past, and all of it alcohol fueled. Oh and I haven't crashed the 100 day thread yet. . Good luck with Maddy's low fat diet.

Pav, good for enjoying dinner out and not drinking! I admire you. It feels great to do, doesn't it? My husband used to ask me the same thing when I'd get home. At first it hurt my feelings that he didn't think I could do it and maybe wanted me secretly to continue in moderation, but I realized that he'd been living with me getting hammered for years. He really couldn't believe I kept not drinking. Now he's fine with it and doesn't drink himself.

NS I really do not like talking massages. I need to get a masseuse in town, haven't been to one in years. But I need to make sure she isn't chatty. Actually, I just need to get my husband to do it more often.

Well, another relaxing AF day. Hung out, read, watched a couple episodes of The Good Wife, took a couple pictures, made crab quiche and asparagus for dinner, now just finishing up this epistle. I still marvel at how I can fill the time formerly reserved for planning to drink, drinking, and recuperating from drinking. That was what scared me from quitting in the past--I couldn't imagine what I would do with my sober self. Have a great night everyone, I'm going to hang out with dh. Which means we'll probably watch some mindless Netflix show and crash. xo

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J-vo, another cross post! I want it to be a natural thing too, it's the key. So glad you're feeling strong. Just keep in mind that you aren't a drinker. It took me so long for my brain to rewire to the point where I could get this far. First time ever in my drinking career I've gone this long except when I was pregnant. Woohoo.

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Wow Nosugar, I really need a massage. 90 minutes. Sigh.
Humble that was an impressive post.
Daisy 12 days. Roxy 3 days. Every day af is special. Someone very wise recently told us.
I don't live in New Orleans and God knows I don't want to visit the French Quarter. ESPECIALLY during Mardi Gras. Stepping over vomit, pee, and ???? Trash doesn't even get picked up during that busy time. Phewwww. Unbelievable.
We have fun here. Just a few of the parades are intense. The biggest is the one that rolls past my daughter's house. Of course she has open house, Mardi Gras party and I co-host. Same routine this year except no al for hubby and I. But lots of fun. He is making me a ladder seat so I can be seen. I am pretty short. If they can't see you, you don't get good loot. I am saving beads and throws for next years doggie parade. Which is where this year's loot for doggie parade came from. Last year. Well that should make all recycling fans happy.
Olympics are fun.
Have a good one all. :bling
If anyone surprises me with a visit, I have room, and no al in my house. Just lots of fun.

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SHE IS HOME SHE IS HOME SHE IS HOME. She was so excited to see me and she is like a 2 year old again, just to see the sparkle in her eyes again is so worth everything to me. She was sitting in every seat in the car, including mine just smiling away. She has her morphine patch (luckygirl) and has osteoarthritis (welcome to old age) so needs supps and is on a diet of chicken and rice forever but hey thats not too bad a diet.

Oh Pav, i always like to be first to drink at a party and the last to finish (all those leftovers mmm) but to me you are on day 70 whether you like it or not but hey i can post again if i am not asleep.

Jvo glad you decided to stay home and protect your quit and have a rest. Its great to recharge the batteries. god i hate stink bugs, they are gross, we get them here but not too often. I went for lunch today and had 3 lemon lime and bitters and no al. I even seen women having a wine and not a thought of "fark i would love one". The guy i went with had a red wine and i asked how it was and he said "do you want a sip" and i just said no thanks, better not too and i didnt want a sip though i did look twice ha ha.

Humble lovely post as per usual. God i remember the al arguments with my ex, i was always right, he was always right, the not talking, the name calling, the anger combined with a hangover in the morning. god the list never ends. My mum and i usually argue when she has had a few too many and me having had the same but now we wont be fighting as i wont be drinking and i think it will be good for her to slow down also though "she doesnt have a problem" so she says. 3 glasses plus a night mmm for a 77 year old mmmm. Who am i to judge though.

AT is my favourite phrase atm as it is all about drinking AT people for me. Now that i can cope with the stress and everyday life i dont want to drink for me per se so it would be AT. No one is worth that.

LB now you are not drinking how possibly can the recycling fans be happy. Remember those bins full of bottles, oh lets not go there. My bin always has room now and my cupboards and drawers and .....

Well time for a nap, still hot and windy here and lots of fires about. Wind and heat dont go very well together at all and it is sooo dry. The whole house is dusty and i feel the same but no point in cleaning or dusting till the wind stops.

Have a great night ladies, i love you all. Happy 70th Pav ha ha.

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Welcome home, Maddison! She must be so happy (as well as her sisters and mum). Someone had some red wine she LOVED at the party I went to last weekend and she offered me a sip. I must admit I was thinking, sure - a small taste. Duh. I hope that part of my brain continues to calm down as it has been doing over the last 69 and 22/12 days. :thumbs:

OK, Ava - we'll just have a three day celebration for all of our big milestones - so far that has been every day that ends in a zero, right? That will keep us partying 3 days out of every 10. I think I can handle that.

Not much new since I last checked in. I hung some pictures and ordered new beds for the boys so they don't have to be up in bunks still. I also found where I had put the vodka after my final night drinking. I always knew where it was but didn't want to bring it out and pour it out in front of the kids, but I finally got a chance today. GOOD RIDDANCE!

LB - I went to Mardi Gras in New Orleans once during college - really it is a miracle I survived. Nice of your husband to build you a chair - mine's not very handy.

Humble - that was a doozy of a post from you. My aged brain can't recall if you hit 100 days yet - my recollection was that you are 30 days ahead of me which would make tomorrow, right? I started to type my congratulations but then couldn't remember. FFS, it is a miracle I can remember anything. At least now I know it is not from drinking.

J-Vo - I covet a night home alone - I can do, watch, listen to, eat, or wear whatever I want without someone asking me "what's for dinner." Hope you enjoyed yourself.

NS - Do you eat any bread at all? Gluten free? I think they are all terrible, but I quit eating wheat (after I did so for a diet and my life long heartburn and eye allergy (flaky eyelids and styes) went away), and I really do miss sandwiches. Maybe I should just treat it like alcohol - no two thoughts, I just don't any more. So sad for me.

OK - good night all. Feeling kind of emoticon tonight, so I'll leave you with this: :hitme: