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[roxane]

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wow, amazing what goes on when youre sleeping.

an awful lot of feelings happening.

its good to see you all are getting it out there and thinking about it rather than feeling defeatist = reach for the bottle. lets face it, its what we automatically did.

im not including you in this nar, you didnt have that drink to blot everything out. you are thinking about why and will work it out.

ava, im not and can never be a 'normal' drinker. i abused it right from the start. at 14 i was buying a litre of cider and topping it up from a small brandy bottle. half a shandy? no way.

daisy, i will post in the roll call when day seven is up, i want my moon!

im sure ive missed something blatent, so please forgive my appalling memory

[roxane]

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*putting my practical hat on

ava, how about opening, say three letters a day. put them in three piles. bin, later and today.

do you know why you have no gas? was the bill not paid? they would have sent a letter to warn you of this. yes. a letter that you didnt open.

im saying this because, by avoiding (small) problems, they can escalate. by nipping them in the bud you can avoid them turning bigger.

im aware im teaching you to suck eggs lol but by putting this out im hoping you can objectify it.

i understand the aversion ava, i have a huge one to making/receiving telephone calls. its gives me palpations.

if im talking bollocks please ignore...........
give poochy a cuddle from me. btw poo watch, you havent said, id love to know :H

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Well rox i am out of the shit as when they sent it to the Occupant/Homeowner it was not in my name so i was not obligated to open the letter so they are in the wrong which is why i am putting in a complaint.

That is a good idea about the three letters. I see them build up and i think i have to open them, i have to open them and then i get so anxious they stay there until they build up more and then i figure i have so many that i so cant open them, then one of the kids say they will open them and i cant let them do it. I know, i know. The electricity and gas i pay fortnightly but for some reason the gas was not included in my electricity bill.

Oh god the phone, i make anyone that wants to talk to me to ring the phone, hang up and ring again, then i know it is for me.

Maddison is just great, we took her morphine patch off today and tomorrow she can have a bath as she is pretty smelly and a check up at the vets on saturday so i am sure she is definitely on the mend.

hows your freezer going?

[roxane]

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good to hear about maddy, pleased shes 100% it could have knocked her back at her age.

my freezer is off atm, have to let it settle, but i just peaked inside and shut it and it doesnt seal. grrr. its clean so i dont know why. ill clean it myself and see. would be rather annoying if it doesnt work properly after all that palarva.

adding to the phone, i dread answering the door! i quickly scan round to see if there are bottles about and if i stink of alcohol. i should have put that in past tense.

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Yes definitely past tense. I never worried about that as no one visits me without telling me and was always the boys friends so i didnt care really.

I hope it seals for you as seals are quite expensive to replace, well over here they are.

Gee that cold shower was refreshing lol.

[roxane]

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btw, day seven today, moon tomorrow. not that im counting you understand.

sleep is getting a little better, wake up feeling ugh but that soon clears.

i would like to say a big :thanks: for holding my hand ava, you didnt need to. everyone here is so helpful, and for me, you in particular.

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I thought you got a HAT tomorrow but moons are great too. Believe me i am counting your days with you Rox, you are a changed girl from the one that came on MWO and that is only in 6 days or a bit more as took you awhile to get used to mwo, so it has been a pleasure for me to help you along and i will keep holding your hand and hopefully i dont have to smack it too much. I had a lot of hand holding at the start and its what i needed to make it worthwhile not to drink and let anyone down as we dont like letting people down and that is why we used to drown ourselves in al. Keeping posting is always a must and i can see you already helping people on the NN which is fantastic as you have some great words of wisdom i notice. I'm a proud mother hen on your achievement Rox.

[roxane]

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oops, hat then, im jumping the gun!

youre so right, dont like to let others down. but your self? yeah, no problem. irony is you are letting people down by not being there. maybe in body but not in mind.

i dont know if im talking out of my arse when i reply to people, but sometimes you just want to at least acknowledge them. that in itself helps. i know it did for me when i was here before. but i didnt involve myself, i sat on the sidelines. im a natural wallflower.

this time its different.

[DreamThinkDo]

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roxane;1625964 wrote: btw, day seven today, moon tomorrow. not that im counting you understand.

Liar liar pants on fire:H:H:H:H

Hallo Loamers!!!!

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yes when people mentioned my name at first and still now it gives you a small thrill to think someone is actually thinking of me and maybe reading my posts. Now thats why i type so much as then you all have to achnowledge bloody something lol. No you are not talking out your arse as if you help just one person with a post then it is all worthwhile, if you sit on the sidelines, everything passes us by as we well know.

Yes i can hear from your posts that the switch has switched and you can tell that with newbies also that some it just hasnt gotten to that point but they want to reach out and hopefully they stick with the journey or come back when the realise that moderating is not for alkies like us. It took me 3 years to get to this point and i still have a long long way to go and many a time i would have failed if not for the love and support on here. Left to ones own devices is never a good idea, our friendship with the bottle is still there, well it still is for me but i have made the choice not to keep on with that friendship.

A natural wallflower, yeah right, not on here Ms Rox which is brilliant! Would you believe so am i? No didnt think you would haha.

Hey Dream how is life? Its nice when there are some awake. Nearly 9pm here and thinking of crashing shortly. Another day done and dusted but a close call with my al brain.

[roxane]

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*goes to find extinguisher, cant find one so runs out to sit in a puddle*

[roxane]

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i knew there was a switch but didnt know where it was or how to look for it. i was directed to the toolbox and i knew it was there somewhere.

a couple of weeks ago i found it and flicked it on. i stood staring at it and it switched off (4 days).
i found it again and am holding my hand on that damned switch. i want it to rust and stick in place.
im in a comfortable position so its not painful, but everynow and then i need to change fingers.
i have to watch for when i need to change hands.

i have a habit of talking in analogys. they work for me as i am a visual learner.

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i get it Rox, sometimes you need both hands and the ten fingers to hold that bloody switch in place but its worth it at the end of the day and it becomes normal to wake up sober, its just hard sometimes to deal with the crap life sends us but there is al in the house tonight as my son is having a drink and i dont have an urge to drink so that is a bonus after today debacle.

anyways i am off to find some spray to kill a lone fly that wants to become friends and then go to sleep. Be good and take care and go give some good advice to some people who need it, never think u are waffling.

hugs
xx

[roxane]

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hope its not a march fly, bloody things.

have a good sleep and make sure to keep the covers on!

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Its not March yet silly. We dont get many of them thank god, the still like all .......

cooler now so definitely moving the dog over who is hogging the covers, she is going to share. This dog is a shitzu who thinks she is a rottweiler.