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[j-vo]

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omg NS. That was excellent, "in-between." And you've almost redeemed yourself from the candle cake!

This is where Ava and Pav may be. And I like that you're both going to stay away from al, stay determined, and stay here while you're in-between.

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Hello loamers

Well i had a good sleep so feeling refreshed which is great. I see on the news that there are floods and snow storms O/S and fires here. What a strange world we live in.

LB its hard trying to help someone else when we are still in recovery also and worrying if they will fail and if they do feeling that you have failed also. Its hard to work at being sober and staying there and dealing with life sober everyday. I mean it was so farking hard drunk but sober 24/7, come on! Haha, but i would not have it any other way as you would not either. Just remember to protect your quit first and foremost and i hope they make you proud. I am a helper also and if i dont succeed it is heartbreaking for me, i wonder what else i could have done and cant understand why they did what they did but we are all human after all. Big hugs girl and keep on here, we all seem to be a bit down at the moment.

WHERE IS NAR?????

NS that is so true what you posted. I feel every feeling in that verse, its like being in an abyss and just standing there thinking "well what happens now". I know nothing will happen unless i make it but i think "well what do i do". I will get one of my bricks and use it on myself this weekend i am thinking. Thanks for that one it was much needed.

Rox see you are like me! Everyone says things so eloquently and then there is me! Maybe i should think before i type. No i am too impatient to do that, let alone read over what i have written. I used to do that in the early days as i thought i would hurt someones feelings, now i just type it out. Hope your day was good. i need to soooo pop over to the NN before work.

Daisy exactly true we need to ride it out. I feel on a plateau at the moment like being on a diet, go forward or give in. well thank god with dieting i always went forward so i have the determination and im a stubborn woman and we all hate failing.

Well time for that lovely hot hot shower. i purposely did not shower last night so i could take it all in this morning. Have a great arvo/night lovelies and will catch up later on. Lots to do at work today.

xxx

[j-vo]

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Ava,
Eloquent? You are eloquent and more! Through your writing, you express kindness, concern, guidance, support, and love while making us laugh until we cry. And to boot, no matter who you are responding to, it seems as though your words are a perfect fit for that person in need. Yes, your words seem to flow out of your mouth effortlessly, as you have a great gift.

Rox, glad to see you and Ava having chats while we're getting our beauty sleep!

Hope everyone is having a great night. I'm feeling a bit under the weather with sore throat, swollen tonsils, just blah, then I read Pauly's list up in Just starting out, and this cold ain't so bad after all!!!! Read the list and you'll see what I'm talking about!

[daisy45]

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Hey J-vo; just read the list - how easy it is to forget! I relate to it all and more! A good wee kick up the ass for when silly thoughts come creeping in......
Heading to bed so nightie niight!

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Hi sweet ladies!
Ava, I am here. Thanks for asking, it made me really feel happy. I am glad you have gas again. (Haha, that sounds funny!)
I love reading your posts.

Rox,congrats!!! Yippee

J-Vo, congrats to you too!! Thanks for pointing out Pauly's post.

Pav, hope things go well with your family. Your counsellor gave you some good advice. I have used a lot of those tools/tips to make it work with mine.

NS, that post from Fallen Angel was good, thank you.

You know, it may be that feeing of being in the middle for me too. I can stop drinking no problem but then I get over the 30 days and seem to lose steam. Anyway, I have to work on that. I drank sparkling water tonight and don't plan to drink tomorrow.

Holy smokes you girls have been posting a ton by the way.

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Oh Nar glad to have you back with us again, now back to the lectures and love for you my friend.

Hey you know we post a ton or two, thank god it is not on paper or we would have a shortage of trees, well Aus would.

So give us the goss on the holiday please.

Just a quick post as i am at work, about to kill my idiot work colleague he has nothing to do, whereas i have plenty, as you can tell and he is whistling away. Ava's PET HATE is whistling. About to shove my foot up somewhere where it is not supposed to go!.

I am so happy i have gas Nar, never been happier about that in my life. Well that and no drinking make me pretty happy. I feel so glad i am back to normal today.

You remind me of Jvo she SEEMED to get to a spot and then blew it (not anymore though), so we need to get to why you guys did/do this. Oh something else to rave on about.

Boss back so must be off. love you all xxxx

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No Sugar that post was very helpful. I do feel like that right now. Kind of in transition. Growing pains from just starting out to becoming a person who actually has some experience to share with those who are just starting out.
Like Ava said, this is scary. I don't want to let anyone down.
Thanks Ava. You do know just the right words to make me feel loved. And accepted. And laugh.
I am tired and I will catch up more tomorrow.
Have a great night ladies.

[HumbleRider]

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Ladies, I'm going to have a lot of reading to do here tomorrow am. Just here to say goodnight after a long night of doing work-related things. Sober. . xo. Hope all is well.

[Pavati]

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Hi, all:

NS - thanks so much for that post. It makes sense. I'm trying to ponder if it is "in between" I am feeling or just life. Like there will be no "other side." I guess time will tell, and you long timers say there will be, so I'll believe.

Ava - Even though these are not great feelings, I'm always glad to hear that something I'm feeling isn't just for me - there are others experiencing it, too. Since you took away a day from yourself in the Roll Call, we can do it on exactly the same day now. (BTW, my son is a chronic whistler - it's all I can do to keep my foot where it should be as well. I have to tell him I love him but shut up (I USUALLY use nicer words) all the time!)

I really appreciated your replies to my posts, everyone. I get so much help from hearing what you have to say.

LB - I agree with Ava - don't forget to take care of yourself. I am also a caretaker (hmmm) and get how disappointing it can be to feel unsuccessful in our efforts to help others. My sister likes to quote the al anon creed - today's expectations are tomorrows disappointments.

Nar! Glad you checked in - we miss you. I think Ava asks some good questions - something for the group to work on. One thing I do is remember the worst hangover on record and remember that I never want to go back there. I don't really know your story or what brought you here, so I don't know if you have that to fall back on.

J-Vo - I read that list. Yikes. Alcohol is a poison, people! ew.

How're you doing, Daisy? Still hitting the gym all the time? I'm about to be on vacation and I always eat, sleep and exercise well (especially now that I don't drink on vacations!).

Late day at work for me, too, Humble. I'll turn out the lights.

Toodles.
xo

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Hi Loamers, my sleeping beauties

Jvo you are a doll, it is nice to get compliments, they boost the wounded soul so to speak. Its nice to be told those things that other people see and i dont. Hows the snotty nose and sore throat. Rubbing vicks on you to make you breath!

LB i think its great that we can express ourselves and we seem to go through "stages" at the same time as Pav says. The euphoric stage of giving up was "great", now theres the "what now". I will keep "trudging" on, that is my word for it but i am happier today.

Pav now vacation, this is worrying me, my trip away as a few on here, (no offense loamers) seem to have not coped well with a vacation. What plans do you have in place that you can pass on. I was fine about this upcoming holiday but now i am feeling a bit unsettled that something is going to snap in me and i will have that "one". Maybe i should go to the drs and get some AB just in case. I totally understand that it is my decision to drink but i want everything in place to make sure that i feel safe. The good thing is it is not for another 7 weeks but ......

Well it is Friday here woo hoo. Off to the vets tomorrow with maddison to make sure she is fine and dandy which she is, she is so full of energy and has the biggest smile on her dial. I bought some special dry dog food for her today and $60 later (fark) but its for digestion and it is worth it if it prevents a $1400 vet bill. Mia is coming with me so a mother daughter day as i have to go food shopping also. I wish weekends went longer.

Hey Humble how are you girl, cruising along?

Pav my kids dont whistle around me unless they are doing it to pee me off and they dont chew gum either. Another pet hate. I have a few now i think about it.

Catch you all soon. PAT PAT PAT!!!!!

Hey Rox where are you?

[roxane]

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*yawns and stretches*

morning, just got up after a pants night sleep.

day 9 so i expect it to still be bad. tired during the day too, ho hum.

glad to see you lot are feeling better though ruminating on 'in between'.

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Double figures tomorrow Rox, very impressed of my protege i must say! I'm taking the cudo's guys as i have to amuse her when you are all asleep.

What is a pants night? I was bone tired for weeks and weeks and had headaches from hell also but hey now they are gone.

I'm feeling great today, well now work is over for the week and i had PMS also. I either need to get pregnant or menopause. Both i will probably be a bitch so i think i will take menopause though. Children irritate me now. did i say that haha.

Glad to see you are still raging along Rox.

[DreamThinkDo]

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Ava, get yourself some AB! I was really worried - still am - about the holiday with your mum. Sorry to sound harsh, but she knows what buttons to push. You'll be out of your safe, known environment. You won't be able to check in here as often as you normally do. Drinking and holidays - well, I won't say anything more. So get it, drink it: it won't give you any choice. I know you're strong, I know you much you treasure being AF, but Al is a bastard. :l:l:l.

Roxy, I slept A LOT for weeks; I had abused my body for years and it needed time to recuperate. Give it some R&R, be kind to yourself. :l:l:l

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Have a lovely day, all you beautiful Loamers!

[roxane]

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pants = rubbish, not good.

dream, im not sleeping lots. but the sleep, pants as it is, is better than passed out. rotten head when i wake up and still a bit foggy, but thats ok.

pms for me is a distant memory, thank god. sailed through it, sorry for those who didnt but someones got to. so thankful not to get those monthly's and all that come with them. one less problem i say.

ava, holiday is 7 weeks away. long enough to wind yourself up over it, or long enough to consider what tools you'll need to get in place and practice in your mind to make them intuitive.
think of the worst case scenario and how you could deal with it. set yourself ready for it. then put it away.
im worried that you will go with the mindset that it will go pete tong. thats like learning to ride a bike and staring at the lampost coming up. you will run into it because thats where you are looking! (proven fact, honest). if you look hard enough, you will go there.

i sound like a pub philosophist :H:H

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yes i totally agree Dream and no you are not being harsh and i appreciate the honesty. Funny how when i used to go to the drs i would hide my al intake, god i told him i had 6 drinks a week, then think to myself, god i drink more than 6 bottles. If only he knew but i am prepared to be truthful now, i dont give a shit so to speak but i do give a shit about my sobriety.

Oh i am sure my mother will push every button known to mankind and i still have not told her i do not drink. Maybe i should now so she can get all the negativity out of her system before we go and i have all of you to support me. Oh i dont know....