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[Pavati]

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Hi All

Quick check in w my phone in the 5 minutes of service I have. Hitting the hot tub after a chilly walk on the coast. This is a drinking crowd on a drinking vacation. Meals planned w specific drinks to accompany. But I am not tempted. Happy to be feeling healthy and sleeping well. Got my fave ice cream to indulge.

Hope you all are well! Miss the long reads but I'll have plenty to do when I get back.

Xo

[little beagle]

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J-vo that was insightful. Yes my crew is like children, some days it's just plain hard to hold their attention. They look forward to coloring time though. How funny.
Ava not drinking at a problem or person is what it's all about. I think you are going to have a great af time. Think posative.
I went to a b-day party this evening. It is so wonddrful to not have to drink and worry about drinking just the right amount, not too much or too little. I had so much fun, laughed at all the right times and no regrets. Life is good without that monster al cutting up my peace.
Have a great one ladies.
:l

[roxane]

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day 10 ended rather messily.

letter written, not a good one but it will have to do. bloody printer not printing. laptop doesnt recognise it. i will manage to sort it but i could do with it just working like it should.

[satz123]

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Thanks Loamers for all the advice yesterday - appreciate it.
This site never ceases to amaze me daily with the warmth and help extended to relative strangers

And NS : special thanks to my hero with regard to all things 'sugar free' :l
Sugar I believe contributes to my, self diagnosed, Candida problem and all that goes with it.

[available]

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Hey Rox what do you mean "day 10 ended rather messily". Dont you hate it when you just want something to bloody work as you dont have the time or patience to play around with it. makes you want to throw it against a wall really.

LB you are totally right, i will be fine and i will think positive thoughts. A plan is in place. Isnt it wonderful to go out and not have to think about drinking, look at people drinking with longing, fight with oneself about drinking or not. Love your comment about "colouring time", at least they are keen which is always a bonus as children seem to lose focus so easily.

Satz hello hello, hope the handy hints can help. I go away early April so will be updating daily on my trip for sure. I am thinking it will be relatively easy since i so dont want to drink but you never can be too sure with that al brain, it only needs a trigger to get it going.

Well i had a quiet day as everyone else did on here also. I bet when i go to work tomorrow you loamers wont shut up! Did the food shopping, cleaned the bathroom, did the dishes, talked to the boys, cooked some silverside and started watching Hunger Games 2 which i am about to go back to.

Hope you all had a lovely Saturday. Still no rain here so send some over, i am watching the news about the floods.

xxx

[roxane]

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its not day 11 ava, sorry.

[available]

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Dont apologise to me, i gathered things were rough. How do you feel today? Was it worth it? Any plans for not drinking?

the positive is you did well to get to ten days girl so be proud of that fact and you are back here which also means that you are not hiding your head in a bottle of booze.

You can do this, i have the upmost of faith in you to beat this addiction.

Im hugging you, hope its not too hard.

[roxane]

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im hungover, obviously. no plans on carrying on, absolutely.

the day before, i was thinking and worrying that i was finding it too easy. i was worried what it meant.
i think sneaky al snuck up in a new way. it knew i would drink, so bided its time, stopped harrassing me and saved itself for yesterday. boom.

on a different note, i have woken up with what i can only describe as dandruff all over my face!

[available]

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WTF is dandruff all over your face? I love your sayings, they are as good as mine. I used to wake up with dribble all over mine. haha. I think our saying is "dirt all over our face".

If you start worrying about how easy the af time is it is not a good sign. why didnt you post on here how you were feeling or did you think in the back of your mind that you were going to drink anyways and did not want some bossy bitch from Aus to try and stop you?

10 days is more than you have accomplished in a long time so dont beat yourself up okay. next time, which there wont be, then i would have to fly over there and kill you or put you in a cupboard for a few months and feed you ice from the freezer or maybe put you in the freezer.

Bet the hangover is killing you and bet you wish you didnt have one!

[roxane]

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i posted a reply and this f'ing site froze on me. again.
just as well im not desperate for help.

[roxane]

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as i was saying

you made me laugh out loud ava!

i did think to tell on here about that feeling, but i forgot. really. so many thoughts and some get lost.

[available]

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You have to keep those drinking thoughts at the forefront and post on here. I know for a fact that i would not be where i am without the support of the guys on here. I was called "lunatic Linda" when i first started, ummm still am sometimes but this is my AA and i use it as such, so dont be afraid to say you need help.

I am here especially at nighttime when you are around, well there is only me i reckon and i love waffling on. but in saying that it is my bedtime. Keep hydrated today and put down in writing what started that al thought. mine was always stress and we cant avoid that in life i am afraid.

take care Rox, tomorrow is another day and mine entails work blah!!!!

[roxane]

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yes ava, i do keep posting. very unlike me. i belong to a few forums and tend to just lurk, im very good at it.

i did think about posting when i had al thoughts. i did last time and i still drank. all the effort you and others gave was for nothing that time.

i should have posted about thinking it was too easy. definitely. well, ive learnt another way that al can get you and nip it in the bud if it tries that way again.

it will get easier in time, but that was too quick. it was a trick. time is the key word here.

[j-vo]

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Roxy,
I know how easy it is to turn to the bottle, as we all do. The most important thing right now is that you pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Drink lots of lemon water, and post here. A trigger can be almost anything. There are numerous intrinsic and extrinsic triggers - too many to count or even think about. I guess what it takes is the saying "No matter what happens, I will not drink." Or "No matter how I feel, I will not drink." Knowing that you have taken the choice off the table is huge. Looking at your gratitude list, especially what you're grateful for when you don't drink is a good idea. I'm in early stages with you, and have slipped. I slipped because I didn't come here and talk about what I was feeling, nor did I call someone, and that could have been the key for me to turn my head around. We have to do these things early on, and even later in sobriety. If we don't, we're going to continue to slip up, fall down, and it's going to seem as if the struggle will never end and we won't attain that peace we're so desperate to have. Time means lots in sobriety. It gives us confidence, strength, and the ability to do what's right. Without the "time" factor, we feel weak and that beast keeps tapping us on our shoulders and then that's it.
Stay focused on your goal for today. It's only today you have to think about.

[j-vo]

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Roxy,
I know how easy it is to turn to the bottle, as we all do. The most important thing right now is that you pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Drink lots of lemon water, and post here. A trigger can be almost anything. There are numerous intrinsic and extrinsic triggers - too many to count or even think about. I guess what it takes is the saying "No matter what happens, I will not drink." Or "No matter how I feel, I will not drink." Knowing that you have taken the choice off the table is huge. Looking at your gratitude list, especially what you're grateful for when you don't drink is a good idea. I'm in early stages with you, and have slipped. I slipped because I didn't come here and talk about what I was feeling, nor did I call someone, and that could have been the key for me to turn my head around. We have to do these things early on, and even later in sobriety. If we don't, we're going to continue to slip up, fall down, and it's going to seem as if the struggle will never end and we won't attain that peace we're so desperate to have. Time means lots in sobriety. It gives us confidence, strength, and the ability to do what's right. Without the "time" factor, we feel weak and that beast keeps tapping us on our shoulders and then that's it.
Stay focused on your goal for today. It's only today you have to think about.:l