Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[j-vo]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Roxy,
Here's a thread Lead started:

How to--"one day at a time"

[roxane]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Thank you j-vo, I will look.



I have been thinking a lot today about what I can do to help myself. I know a friend of a friend that has quit successfully. I don't really know him but I think I need to contact him as a live person can only help. MWO is fantastic, adding a another support will be another 'tool' for me.
This will be major, I'm an unsociable cow.

[HumbleRider]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Sorry to hear you stared too long at the lamppost Rox. No wonder you ran into it. I did that with sugar yesterday. Had yogurt ice cream and cookies for dinner since my husband worked late. In days far past, I would have treated myself to another bottle of wine and gotten my sugar fix that way. I'm still an addictive personality and have to learn to live a different way. At 58, that's not easy, but it is doable. I didn't gorge on sweets yesterday, for instance. I didn't consider alcohol for dinner. I didn't second guess my reasons and positive feelings surrounding my quit. I didn't take a tumble off my AF bike. You can do the same, you know.

[roxane]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Humble, I know I can. Well done for not staring at that damn lamppost!

I've been on and off this site for so long and know the theory. I can talk it, putting it into action is hard though, obviously.

I feel like a fraud sometimes, spouting 'helpful' comments when I can't do what I suggest to others.

[DreamThinkDo]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

roxane;1627752 wrote: Thank you j-vo, I will look.



I have been thinking a lot today about what I can do to help myself. I know a friend of a friend that has quit successfully. I don't really know him but I think I need to contact him as a live person can only help. MWO is fantastic, adding a another support will be another 'tool' for me.
This will be major, I'm an unsociable cow.

Roxy, do whatever it takes to get the monkey off your back. And there's a cake or two in there as well, so you go for it!!!!

[roxane]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Mmmmmm...... Cake.......

[DreamThinkDo]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

roxane;1627767 wrote: I feel like a fraud sometimes, spouting 'helpful' comments when I can't do what I suggest to others.

Roxy, if only those who had never relapsed were allowed to give advice, there would be pretty much nothing going on here.

[available]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Morning here Loamers and i had the worst nights sleep. I had a recurring drinking dream and everytime i woke up i wanted to vomit, literally, so have woken up this morning still wanting to vomit. Could be a bug but makes me want to never drink again. I never vomited drunk, ever, ever, ever. I am still iffy about going to work but will drag myself there.

Rox you did not waste my time talking to you and you have some great advice especially on how to avoid those triggers and what to do. Stop lurking girl, you have great advice and are a pretty special person who can do this. even though you have failed before you can get around that lampost. Believe me i failed pretty damn often. Today i wont drink, oh shit ive had a bad day, yes i will drink and stop tomorrow. have an af day and go back to it again. its a wonder i dont have brain damage the amount of times i hit that lampost. Then my thoughts changed, i knew i had to put in a bloody effort for gods sakes to stop. No talking about it only, actions speak louder than words. Ring that friend of a friend, i am sure he knows how f'ing hard it is and will be understanding and prob happy as poo that you asked, i know i would be.

well better get my A into G and get ready. Enjoy your day everyone, will write a longer post later.

Very good insightful words Jvo, you are a doll.

Hugs to all.

Ok Nar enough time away from here, get your A back to loamers please and you too Pat. SL how are you lovely, i have noticed you are on Roll Call so that is great but come back also.

xx

[daisy45]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Hi, Rox, keep on keeping on like I know you will. Have to say last night was the most I thought about drinking since I started.......glad to be sober today though. Everything, finances, family stress, etc all seemed to pile up and slap me in the face and I just felt so desperate and on my own last night......yet today it feels ok and I almost cannot even understand myself how my feelings can fluctuate in extremes.......
Anyway, exercising almost every day - pushing harder than normal for now then cut back a bit later on.... Today I had a little paining project to do in my brothers cafe - I love art and realise this is something that I lose out on when drinking - a steady hand is key!
So a better day today but doubts creeping in - could be PMS starting again - Negative thoughts I wouldn't normally have creep up on me around this time......another thing I need to take a look at.....
Hope you all had a great weekend - and looking forward to hearing from Scotlass - hope all ok

[HumbleRider]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

I have smashed head on to it so many times I've lost count, Rox. That's why I am trying for a ride not without bumps along the way, which would be impossible, but one where I am in control and make it over and around the obstacles in one piece!

Daisy, so great to read that you have a creative outlet. This is also one of my musts to stay sober. So I spin, knit, crochet, take pictures, whatever, to keep me occupied and free from thoughts of drinking. I realize if I want to be really good at something I can't drink. If I were getting wasted every day, and that's what it would be, I wouldn't be able to keep plugging away at being better at what I do in life. No sugar and adequate exercise are things I now need to work on...

[scottish lass]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Hi - I am still around...doing ok, read here almost daily but the thread moves way too quickly for me to keep up, especially when I am working...being one of those with few words, hard to know what to say sometimes...
It is good to see the support staying strong, and sorry I am not a more contributary member...

[j-vo]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

I am a crabby bitch today. On top of eating anything and everything these past two days, I've not exercised and been such a lazy lump. It's snowing nonstop and I'm taking naps like they're going out of style, No, not pms. But...I have to pick my mother up at the airport later this evening, approx. 9 p.m. That's about an hour's drive. She's staying at our house, as my sister's FIL is dying. They predicted he was going to be gone two days ago, but the man's heart is still beating. Anyhow, I'm pissed off at the out of control behavior with food intake, lack of exercise, lack of body movement, and now my mother will be staying with me, whom I love, but she can drive someone, especially me nutty. Yes, hubby got her wine, as she's a nightly wine drinker. She knows I'm not drinking, knows why as she knows everything about me and my goals, and where i am in life. It's just one more body to think about here and she is so sloppy when she's not in her own house She leaves all the lights on and I don't get that. She used to yell at us as kids when we did that. I'll come down tomorrow morning only to find every single light on, and a mess on the counter. Ok. Done. Just a rant that I needed to get off my chest. I guess this is better than being hungover.

[daisy45]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Hey Scotlass; glad all ok. Humblerider, photography is on my to-do list. Also got my knitting out this week - not started yet but I have an Aran jumper and scarf to finish. I really need the exercise both physically and mentally.
And j-vo......what can I say.....bet a weekend at a lovely hotel would be music to your ears right now - away from it all! Not to be, alas, so all I can do is send you my support. Maybe get into a great book where you can escape when it gets too much......so feel for you....

[Marylou123]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Hi Loamers,

J-Vo - I feel your pain! And I had to smile at the first line of your post. Sometimes it's just a-okay to be a crabby bitch. Better than a drunk, crabby bitch. :H

My MIL is a manipulative wench whom I haven't seen since before I stopped drinking. And I have no intention of seeing her until I absolutely have to, which will be mid-March for my step daughters wedding. She was instrumental in convincing her son to leave me, even loaned him the funds for a deposit on a apt because he didn't have his checkbook at the time and later that day sent me an email that we should go "shopping together" to get dresses for the wedding. Ef her!

Like you, I love my mom but I can only take a few days. I haven't seen her either since I quit drinking but I will see her next weekend. She knows my situation but she's a daily drinker (usually moderate) and smokes a lot. This will be my first "outing" and I'll be relying on all my MWO friends and posting to get through. But that's not until this weekend.

Personally, my roller coaster ride continues but the peaks and valleys are leveling out a bit. My husband is back home (and still liable for nine months rent unless they can rent the place sooner.). I made a mistake letting him come back but I am not drinking. In the past few days I've found that all the crap I was drinking at him for still exists but instead of medicating with a nice chard, I'm facing it. I've also asked him to leave and move back to his apartment which is two hours away. He says he won't. So, I've started to look for a place and am going to see a potential apt this week. God knows we can't afford any of this - using retirement funds - but I am going to worry about that later. I retired in August (early, age 57) and I'll have to find a job now, but that's okay.

I am grateful for my life, I'm grateful al is no longer, and never will be, a part of my life. I'm grateful to all of you for the love and support we share here.

So, this post is all over the place, sorry, feels good to get this out.

Off to fix a nice cup of decaf and settle in with my kindle. Looking forward to hitting day 30 on Thursday.

[daisy45]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

Wow Marylou, you have a lot going on as well - hope you get somewhere suitable. When I read other peoples stories here it helps to know that we all have things to deal with and when you and others are staying strong and sober throughout, then why not me, or any of us?
I could tell some stories on the in-law/hubby situations but I just don't as it leads me to negative thinking and I refuse to let them take any more of my precious time!