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[narilly]

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J-Vo, thanks! Hey, you are sounding good Girlie!

Giraffe, I am turning 50 on April 24th and I am NOT going to drink! I am really looking forward to not drinking on my birthday. It is MY present to me. Its funny eh? We don't remember the last time we didn't drink on our birthday. It was always the Best excuse to drink, and to drink A Ton. I remember turning 40 and having margaritas to celebrate. Not this time. 50 and having some non AL special drink. I have to figure out what that is.

At this moment it is all about Hockey here. We won mens curling Gold, which is awesome but now we are playing the US in the semi final for hockey so Everyone is watching it. I am watching it on my computer and am missing my noon workout because of it. It is soooo exciting!!! We are hockey crazy here in Canada!

Looking forward to a sober weekend here. The temps are dropping from +2C yesterday to the -20s over the next few days. brrrrrrr
Lucky you are not here Pav!

Have a super awesome day everyone!

[NoSugar]

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Congratulations on 300 days, Little Beagle! You've brought so many along with you - in both your personal and online lives. It is so good you are here :h.

[roxane]

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[NoSugar]

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Love the "Maddi-tar", Ava! She looks so cute, happy, and healthy. It is hard to believe she is 11 years old. Your Boy-Maddie is a cute one, too, DB.

Congratulations on your 30 days, MaryLou! No reason to turn back now, right ?
Roxy, I'm so glad to read you're back with your program. How is it going?
Giraffe, Happy, happy birthday! How great that you can be sober for most of your 6th decade! The main regret I hear about is not having done this sooner - that certainly is mine. It isn't exactly easy but it sure is not the big bad thing that I was afraid of doing for so long.

So what is with all the sugar eating and drinking dreams going on around here ??
There is a great deal of abnormal sugar metabolism among alcoholics but I don't think it is known which precedes the other or if they occur simultaneously. For me, all I know is that each is easier to manage when both are under control. The post-drinking hypoglycemic episodes (that then lead to over-consumption of sugar and a blood glucose spike - followed by another crash) are gone. And the desire for alcohol that carby sweet treats stimulated also has been eliminated. There are various biochemical explanations for what is going on but in any case, you might feel really good if you can avoid both . We feel so much better with stable blood sugar levels.

Here are some fairly non-sciency links if you're interested:
Why Alcoholics Crave Sweets | The Fix
Addiction and Relapses: nicotine, caffeine and sugar
Identifying & correcting the biochemical disruption of hypoglycemia and alcoholism
http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2014/0...ype=blogs&_r=0

I'm not saying this will help with the dreams, though - I had a doozy a couple of nights ago!

Have a good, AF weekend, Loamers!

[Marylou123]

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Hi Loamers,

Big thanks to all for the 30-day congrats. I'm working on my "speech" as Byrdie calls it, and will post soon. Life seems to have calmed down to a healthy, manageable level AF. I feel really great and have few al cravings. When I do, I just eat a snack or have water or coffee and it passes easily. I hope that continues.

Cooking fettuccine with mushrooms and goat cheese sauce (doesn't that sound low cal, :H :H) so gotta run.

LB - Huge congrats to you on 300 days. :good:

Have a lovely evening/day friends.

[little beagle]

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Thank you Marylou. Good going on your 30 days. That was a big day for me. I really felt like I was turning a corner. :wave:

[Pavati]

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Hi, Ladies:

I'll try to catch up this weekend, but I wanted to stick my nose in here and say LITTLE BEAGLE you are AWESOME! Congratulations, and thanks so much for being your steady, helpful self - you have helped me on my journey. I am impressed that you can take care of yourself AND everyone else as well. Just 65 short days and you'll be one year sober. I hope you're planning yourself a party!

Marylou - well done. I look forward to hearing your speech. 30 days was big for me - it felt like a graduation of sorts from phase 1 to phase 2. (I'm not sure when phase 3 will hit).

Happy Birthday, Giraffe. Thanks for popping in.

NS - I'll read up on the sugar soon - I have to recover from an ice cream filled weekend. I do feel better when I don't eat a lot of sweets, and I find it to be like alcohol - easier to just say none at all than to try to regulate it. Maybe that's what you're talking about with the cravings.

Ava - Maddison is SO cute.

How are you doing, Rox? Sober, I hope.

Jennie! Come back!

J-Vo, Nar, Dottie, I'll read back and check out your posts this weekend.

Happy Sober Friday!

xo

[HumbleRider]

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LB congratulations on 300 days! You have been so supportive and kind to me, and really helpful here at MWO. You inspire me!

30 days was also an important milestone for me. I felt like I might have a chance at making it stick. It was 110 days for me yesterday.

Hope everyone is well. I hope to have a chance to relax, read, and comment more over the weekend. xo all

[Pavati]

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Hi, Everyone:

Humble! I didn't mention your name in my last post. As your one time quit buddy (before I took time out for the Thanksgiving from h-e-double hockey sticks), I have been following your journey here and appreciate your posts.

I do have a question - how are you feeling in your quit? I remember that in the beginning you were talking about how you had no desire to drink. Does that still hold for you?

I have this weird feeling like I don't want to drink, but there are some parts of the ritual that I miss and feel sad about (such as the aforementioned pity party about not having a beer in the afternoon with friends on vacation). If I think it through I don't really want to drink alcohol, but I do like beer and that feeling that one beer gave me. That wouldn't be an instance when I would over drink (that was mostly at home for me), so it is hard for me to express the gratitude of NOT drinking in that situation. Eventually I can get myself to the space where the overall effect of not drinking ever is important and that one beer on vacation would inevitably lead to the old cycle returning (I am certain of this), so I can make the choice to not drink, but I do get a little angry with myself for letting this happen. I am wondering if you go through all of the above (actually, any of you loamers), and if you do, how you get yourselves out of it.

That's it for now. Out for some much needed exercise. Have happy Saturdays, all.

xo

[j-vo]

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Pav,
I can envision your situation and I believe I might have that irk and a little frustration. I don't think there's a problem with it, as we can't have complete gratitude for every situation we face. In those times, maybe we can treat ourselves to a nice non-al drink or even non-al beer. Maybe as time goes on and we reach longer-term sobriety, these feelings may dissipate, but even if they don't, a little tug is just that. Don't give it too much thought and go easier on yourself when you have that little tug. Think of other daily circumstances when we get a little pissed off at someone or something. We know it, but we're not going to think to ourselves, "Hmm. How long will that anger last or will I have the same encounter with that person every time?" No, we take it with a grain of salt and move on. I know I tend to obsess, so this coming out of my mouth is kinda funny to me! I do worry about this exact situation that you described though.

[j-vo]

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Pav,
I can envision your situation and I believe I might have that irk and a little frustration. I don't think there's a problem with it, as we can't have complete gratitude for every situation we face. In those times, maybe we can treat ourselves to a nice non-al drink or even non-al beer. Maybe as time goes on and we reach longer-term sobriety, these feelings may dissipate, but even if they don't, a little tug is just that. Don't give it too much thought and go easier on yourself when you have that little tug. Think of other daily circumstances when we get a little pissed off at someone or something. We know it, but we're not going to think to ourselves, "Hmm. How long will that anger last or will I have the same encounter with that person every time?" No, we take it with a grain of salt and move on. I know I tend to obsess, so this coming out of my mouth is kinda funny to me! I do worry about this exact situation that you described though.:l

[j-vo]

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:woot::kudos::kissyface:Little Beagle! Congratulations on your 300 days! You're an inspiration here at MWO! Thank you for all your thoughtful posts.

[j-vo]

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I was talking with my DH this morning. Last night he went to the casino, as he likes to gamble a bit, but not too much as he's very careful with funds. I stayed home and nursed a nasty cold. He likes to play blackjack and penny machines. We used to go a lot, but I'm not a gambler, so I would sit and drink and watch the band if there was a band while he played cards for a bit. I told him I didn't want to go anymore. I don't want to be in an environment where the focus is on addictions - gambling, smoking, and drinking. He understands, so I don't need to worry about that.

That's when I thought about the vacation thing. I'm going to listen to "The Bubble Hour" episode where they talk about sober traveling. I don't have to worry about traveling for work, and vacations are very rare - a few times a year. But I still know that would be a shaky time, and I don't want to get the thought that this is a special time so I should treat myself mentality. It was easy when I went to mom's and dad's in Florida for mini vacation as they know my goal of sobriety. I avoided the line dancing where I was excited about going, but didn't want to just in case. I also know that for right now, it's important focusing on daily sobriety. I know what to do and how to go about that, although I've slipped a few times here and there as well. Oh, gee, just rambling here on a saturday afternoon! Thoughts going here and there. Thanks for listening.

[available]

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Pavati;1629994 wrote: Hi, Everyone:


I have this weird feeling like I don't want to drink, but there are some parts of the ritual that I miss and feel sad about (such as the aforementioned pity party about not having a beer in the afternoon with friends on vacation). If I think it through I don't really want to drink alcohol, but I do like beer and that feeling that one beer gave me. That wouldn't be an instance when I would over drink (that was mostly at home for me), so it is hard for me to express the gratitude of NOT drinking in that situation. Eventually I can get myself to the space where the overall effect of not drinking ever is important and that one beer on vacation would inevitably lead to the old cycle returning (I am certain of this), so I can make the choice to not drink, but I do get a little angry with myself for letting this happen. I am wondering if you go through all of the above (actually, any of you loamers), and if you do, how you get yourselves out of it.


xo

Hi Loamers, i just had to answer this Pav. I have been quiet for a couple of days but still around. I FUCKING want to moderate, there i said it!. I cant, i know that but FUCK FUCK FUCK, why not? Oh i know the why nots, i am an alcoholic plain and simple. I feel like i was walking on an abyss and do i have the guts to get to the other side or do i wander off to the pub i can see in the distance and fall off? I have kept walking and walking. I am tired of thinking about al daily, i am tired of it all but i will not drink, like you Pav i know where it will end and not nicely. I had a good talk to a MWO'er last night and now i feel much better. I didnt need to be told i will be okay, i needed some hard truths that would get me thinking and they did. I had a Linda pity party that is all. Tye was going to the shops and asked if i wanted something and i said yes "two bottles of wine and a bottle of scotch please". this was a running joke in my early days and he looked at me and said i would be pissed after a glass and maybe i could have a drink for my 50th. I looked at him and said "no honey i can never drink again". I also miss the attention, in the early days the kids were so supportive now its like "yep good on you mum" but as i was told, they dont understand the battle i go through daily, hourly, weekly, fortnightly, i need to realise this but i am going to talk to my girls today about how i feel.

I had a dream i was on hols and my mothr pissed me off and i remember walking around with my hands over my heads chanting "i will not drink, i will not drink" till i thought i was going insane and as said friend said "most people dream about drinking but you dreamt about saying no and not drinking".

So Pav there is the answer to your question girl but I WILL NOT DRINK.

I am spending a mother daughters day today and getting hair cut and dyed and coffee which i desperately need atm. I will be on very soon.

Love you guys. xxxxx

ps: someone swore for me, honestly! It wasnt me! haha. Sorry if i offended anyone. x

[j-vo]

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Ava, You certainly didn't offend me! And I'm sorry you're having those crappy feelings Ava. I'm feeling a bit down today, too. Getting through the weekends are hard for me. I get into a bit of a depressed state. Guess I'm attending my pity party, but I don't want to, really. But maybe this is what early sobriety is about. Getting used to these new situations without Al. Maybe it'll take longer than we thought and we have to tough it out one day at a time.

I'm glad you're going to have a talk with your daughters about how you're feeling. I think that's a great idea. Everyone does see the "new" us, but the old "us" is still lurking and invisible to others. We look fine, but we struggle inside. I feel that way. Right now I feel that way and just wanna cry, so I may.