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[j-vo]

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Mae Ladies,

Sounds everyone is great and out of their "funk."

Pav, thanks for that post from Mario. It's good to be reminded of these triggers and relapse behaviors.

DTD thanks for the article on "Zen Habits on Quitting" above in General, It was a really good blog/article because it's simple. This "thing" can be simple!

Ava, I'm proud of you, silly. You make me laugh and what good medicine that is!

Dot, I was never one for the gym. Maybe, though, when I retire. I really enjoyed going to fitness center with Dad when I was in Florida.

NS??? Where are you?

Ok, if I'm honest, I'm still in a funk. I left work early today as I was irritated with a co-worker. I couldn't stop the tears. My kids didn't see me cry, but they knew I was a little upset and "off." Do you know what they did? They started singing "Happy Birthday!" They knew it wasn't my birthday, but they said that puts a smile on anyones face. Well, they were right! That was a really special moment in my day, and I'm grateful for them.

[NoSugar]

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Hey, I'm here but for once, don't have much to say except

Congratulations on 50 days to Jane!

[HumbleRider]

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Congratulations on 50 days, Jane, fantastic!

[narilly]

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Congratulations Jane! 50!!

[Pavati]

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Way to go, Jane! I, too, love those big, round numbers.

Ava, you will be on day 1,000 on August 21, 2016. We'll meet here to celebrate.

I'm exhausted, and in keeping with the brevity theme tonight will simply say good night.

xo

[HumbleRider]

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I'm with you, Pav, it's lights out for me. xo all, have a great sober MAE wherever you are.

[lifechange]

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good MAE ladies on a mission!
NS so kindly directed me to this thread and I spent the good part of last night and this morning reading through the last 50 pages-- I wanted to read the whole thread, but 200+ pages!! There is so much great information here, so many honest and thoughtful posts, so much support.
I disappeared again from MWO because I was tired of what was becoming the daily grind of being immersed in recovery. It actually only became a grind once the onset of relapse began-- Pav, you reposted in the Nest the path to relapse, which I've copied and saved. Exactly like Luckyflower posted recently, I had a good number of AF days under my belt and as if for no reason in particular I decided to drink again. Of course it wasn't for no reason and I am in serious need of some soul searching. One thing has led to another and as everyone knows when someone disappears without having another strong support system in place, they usually (not always) come back with a similar story. I had a couple terrible days of relapse and then couldn't get back into the space of being truly sober, of working at it on a daily basis. The "moderation" thoughts, stupid as it sounds, entered my head again and after a while, the "what the fuck" attitude stepped in and took over. So here I am again. Back at day 1 which SUCKS! But in some way I am grateful to finally be back in what feels like sound mind. I know I have to put in the work AGAIN of one day at a time, I have to start at the beginning, knowing that I can do it, not being sad about wasted time, believing that I will GET it-- diving even deeper this time, ignoring the voice telling me that I will never get it right so why bother?, being brutally honest with myself and accepting that I am ok just like I am, but with a few minor tweaks.
I would like to start posting here on a daily basis. A lot of you I already know and love and those I don't know so well, I would like to know better. Is that ok?
A nice new lady in the NN has the same avatar as I do-- so I think I will change mine-- it's too confusing for me. I tried to put in a personal photo but it doesn't seem to work.

ok. on to more reading and the gym.

[roxane]

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hi lc

this is a good thread to be on.

im still messing about getting started. ive had days af then back. it pee's me off. but only i can do it for me.

fifty pages? youre a better man than me gunga din!

[DreamThinkDo]

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OH lovely! LC, welcome back!

[giraffe1234]

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Jane, well done on 50 days - keep up the good work!

[available]

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LC i am so glad you are back lovely, i did wonder where you were and of course thought the worst!

Yes there is an avatar the same as yours and i was so excited thinking it was you back again but nooo.

Recovery is a pain in the arse LC, a few of us on here had the "funks" as NS put it so nicely so last weekend was a bit hard for all of us but if not for the loamers who knows what would have happened. the good thing about us is that we talk about how we feel and try to be strong for each other. Oh we have our wafflers like Pav but she means well! (love you Pav). We have our wise and knowledgeable ones who have such a way with words that totally make sense and then me haha.

If you have had the patience to read 200 pages of us then you are more than ready to settle into here and become part of the family. You gave me the strength to get to where i am today LC so you are one special lady to me and if i can now help you then i will feel very lucky indeed. You were here for me when i disappeared and came back and it wasnt due to the fact i was busy, well i was and that was drinking, then you went away for 5 weeks and i wanted you to be proud of me for not drinking and you were. You inspired me to stop the madness of al and stop so i am so happy you have returned.

big hugs and welcome. NS is a wise old bird. Not old in the sense of old NS, shes my Sandra Bullock!

[available]

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Hello sleepy loamers and some awake loamers

Rox you will get there lovely and the good thing is you are still on here posting so the thought of being af is still in your mind. one day at a time is all we can do. Yes LC is a better than me reading the whole lot, probably half of that was shit that i waffled on about! I did start with little posts though at the beginning.

Pav 1000 days well i will celebrate with you and i will probably still be on here trying to give back what has been given to me. You remember the year and month and i will definitely be here to celebrate. Nothing like having a plan!

Well today at work was fun, i love to see all my co workers working finally but damn they are becoming very unhappy about this work business, so i am still smiling to myself! Well i found something out today that i no one knew nothing about on my computer. Did you know that if you hold the ctrl, alt and the arrow buttons down at the one time that it blanks out your screen and then turns everything upside down. I so did not know that and i really didnt want to know that. After a phone call to IT who had never heard of it before (oops), they googled it and found the answer. FFS only i could do something like that. So that was my excitement for the day.

Jvo what lovely children you teach, Happy birthday does make everyone happy, mainly the young but what a gorgeous thought. We can learn a lot from them. Hope you are out of your "funk" and work becomes better for you. I can totally relate to how you feel but remember not to drink AT anyone girl.

Well i am off to watch some tv and lurk on mwo for a bit. there are two Aussie newbies who i will probably scare away by the end of the night. I hope not!

Love you guys. Pat please come back. SL where are you? Dot how did hubs procedure go? Humble hello and Dream i was chatting to you on NN but hi. Any warmer Nar in your neck of the woods?

Please let me wake up to the gazette!

[roxane]

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no gazette here but.......

what were you doing holding those buttons at the same time. up to mischief?

[DreamThinkDo]

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Oh Ava, the same thing happened to me - my cat was dancing on my laptop one day, and landed on all the right (or wrong) buttons. I had to take it to the computer shop guy (and he has zero people skills, so I avoid him as much as possible). He just laughed and fixed it within seconds. At least I'll know what to do the next time it happens. Glad you're there for the Oz Newbies - it can be very lonely in the beginning. You and Petrel really chatted up a storm a couple of days ago :H:H:H

Good tip if you don't want to read 200 pages - change your settings that a page contains the maximum posts - still the same amount of reading, but fewer pages. All in the mind...

Hiya Roxy!

Later, Loamers!

[j-vo]

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Hi Roxy, Ava, DTD!

Welcome LifeChange! So glad you're here.

I think I"m the only one up on the East Coast Have a great day all.