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MAE lovelies,

Well every one must certainly be busy, it is very very quiet on here, good thing i am feeling great ha ha!

I decided I am having Friday off so now thursday will be my last day of work thank god. Work has decided that we are going to a pub for lunch tomorrow and i nearly fell over backwards. Here i was thinking we would go for yum cha and i would drink coke. A PUB what the hell are they thinking. After that thought i think a nice lemon lime and bitters will be lovely at the Belgium Beer Garden sitting in the sun with rather ordinary company. The people i work with arent big drinkers, well not that i know of so it wont be hard not to drink.

Tonight i am grateful for:

1. Being sober and healthier
2. My children
3. For being able to start rationalising things without al in my life.

Take care everyone

[NoSugar]

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Hello

Good to see you Pollywaug! Glad you aren't going the moderation route - way too hard!
Dottie, I hope your appointments go well today and you get some answers. Good health sure is an important thing to be grateful but I at least tend to take it for granted until something pops us (like how bad my wrists hurt today for some reason ).

Sorry you're on your own now during the nighttime for most of us here, Ava. Do you post and read in one of the "down under" threads? (I maybe would but I usually cannot understand what they are talking about :H! I can hardly believe it is the same language!).

I appreciate some of you saying that some of my posts are helpful to you. That means a lot. It seems like a key element of most recovery (from a wide variety of problems) programs is helping others with the same issues. I can see why that is true. When I try to explain my take on something in a way that will be clear to you guys, it becomes clearer to me, too. I tried journaling my way out of this mess a couple times but it was too easy for me to be lazy and not really organize my thoughts.

Hope you're all having a great day! :h NS

[K9Lover]

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Hi Cougars and GMan!

My advice (if anyone wants it...lol) is to STAY AWAY from the Mods threads. It might seem like they are over there enjoying a drink or two, but if you really look, they are binging "less" than before and calling it moderating. I see a lot of regret over there that a normal drinker would not experience. Cutting down from 3 bottles a night to 1.5 is not moderating, sorry to break it to them!

One of my hobbies is crocheting, but ALL I can do is a normal chain, back and forth, so needless to say, I have a closet full of blankets and scarves. I would love to be able to do a pattern, but I've tried and I just can't READ directions, I am thinking of taking a class, I need to look and "do" in order to learn. I'm hardheaded that way! I think G-man likes to do needlepoint or some such sewing as a passtime, maybe he can give us a lesson or two. LOL :H

Have a great day Gals and Guy! :l:l

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Hi Girls,
Sorry to be a downer, but have been feeling very low, depressed. Not drinking though. I guess this depression hits hard on me at times. It's as if my mind and body are paralyzed. So I just wanted to say hi and I'l be back when I feel better. Called off work today, and hope to find the strength to get off the couch. Love you ladies.

P.S. I was a "moderator" and used to post there. If you read between the lines, modding is difficult for most of them to achieve. It's a lot of work, and too much work IMO.

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j-vo;1599972 wrote: Hi Girls,
Sorry to be a downer, but have been feeling very low, depressed. Not drinking though. I guess this depression hits hard on me at times. It's as if my mind and body are paralyzed. So I just wanted to say hi and I'l be back when I feel better. Called off work today, and hope to find the strength to get off the couch. Love you ladies.
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By not drinking, you're giving yourself a fighting chance to get past this low point.

My emotions were all over the place for a few months - there was a great deal of crying and sleeping going on. There was also a lot of goofing around and acting crazy. After having essentially no affect for a few years, I suddenly started feeling - that isn't always easy or comfortable.

Don't be too hard on yourself, J-Vo. You've been sick and it takes awhile to heal. :l NS

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MAE all

Just a thank you on the mod comments it is much appreciated and has put my thoughts back where they should be. Us alkies just cant moderate and i dont understand why there is even a thread about it really. As far as i understand our brains are wired that we are alcoholics so we cant moderate as much as we think and want we can. So i am at a better place realising that.

I used to crotchet K9 and I like you can do blankets and blankets and blankets. Now i cant remember how to crotchet so may look into that, running short of blankets and the grandchildren will come along eventually. Hows the non smoking going?

NS hope your wrist gets better soon and Dot best of luck today. Thinking of you guys in the cold. Nar nice of you to pop in hope you have not frozen to death. 40 degrees here tomorrow. Blah i say and i dont have air con either.

Jvo big hugs from me, i know how you feel about the being down, i think it is the days we are doing now and realising we cant drink. I have been having these thoughts also. I am on AD's so that has helped me a lot but the thought is still there but there is no way i am coming on here and putting Day 1 down, not this time.

Christmas lunch today and then some xmas shopping after and then one more day of work, makes me excited.

Take care everyone

Today i will not drink

[j-vo]

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Ok, Ladies, I'm now in an upright position on the couch. Getting there...

Available, when I read posts of people starting on Day 1 again, how they feel like crap, stomach pains, nasty hangover stuff, shaking, that brings back too much and it makes me realize that I'm in the right place now. I know I had that one slip, but it's not happening again. I like to return to earlier posts I made, years ago, and just read where my head was. Where was my head! UP AL's ass! Especially when I was so-called "moderating." And I like what you said and I'll say it, too. "I know I cannot mod, ever. I am an alcoholic."

Freefly, that was also my problem, except got a little sloppier around friends, then continued to get even sloppier at home. Yuck. Is "yuck" an appropriate word for a middle aged woman?

Pauly, I get the creepy side of the brain thing, too. And I don't know what I'm thinking when I open those threads, but I do from time to time. I need to stop that as I don't wanna wake up that side of my brain or give it any reasons for thinking I can mod.

Pav, good luck at your concert. You'll enjoy it and remember everything! What a new concept to me... YOu're sounding so strong and wonderful.

Humble, I'm so glad your nephew is recovering! The power of prayer. Yes, I believe.

To all you wonderful Ladies, have a great evening. Now to stand upright and get into the shower...

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Hi ladies,j-vo i get those down days too,but i think we all do i read an article called"the 90 day hangover"or something like that,i basically says it takes 90 days for the brain to heal after al abuse,makes sense to mei know after drinking steadily for awhile i feel brain damaged! im trying different vitamins and supps for mood,some seem to work others not,one thing i noticed and this sounds crazy is calcium supps after a few days puts me into a highly depressed mood,ive tried it many times and it always happens dunno why,i thought calcium was super important,guess i just dont need it,i like 5 htp for sleep and mood but i can only take it every other day,gonna keep trying stuff til i find the magic mix,if all else fails ill definitely try an ssri,but id hate to be on a ad for a mood thats only once in awhile,btw this is a fun thread

[HumbleRider]

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I can't moderate either. I have tried several times. Something inside snaps after that first glass of wine. Even if I only have one, the next day I start thinking about it and the next day and soon I am back to being sloshed every chance I get. I hope I never go back there. Day 44.

[Guitarista]

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K9Lover;1599961 wrote:



One of my hobbies is crocheting, but ALL I can do is a normal chain, back and forth, so needless to say, I have a closet full of blankets and scarves. I would love to be able to do a pattern, but I've tried and I just can't READ directions, I am thinking of taking a class, I need to look and "do" in order to learn. I'm hardheaded that way! I think G-man likes to do needlepoint or some such sewing as a passtime, maybe he can give us a lesson or two. LOL :H

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Close Niner. I used to take up my own jean legs/cuffs until i discovered Levi's already make a waist/leg size that fits me. I am an expert in the safety pin school of pant alteration.

Hope you're feeling better now J-vo. Do you exercise/daily regular walks at all just getting out of the house, or has this been too difficult? As much self love and care friend as you can muster, one day at a time.

No moderation for this chump. There will be no drinking today, that's for sure.

Wishing all a safe, sober and magical rest of the week.

[narilly]

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Hey J-Vo glad your feeling better. Ya, I get bummed out too lately. Interesting that it takes 90 days for the brain to get over it Pauly. That's good to know.
Humble, glad your nephew is ok.
Funny that we still talk about moderation in our abstinence thread. Lol
Let's get real.
It's crazy how our brains can fool us. I still catch myself thinking I don't have a problem!

In my free time, I like to:
Read
Swim
Walk
Cook

Hugs beauties,

[Pavati]

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Good MAE, all:

J-Vo - sorry you were struggling today with depression. It sounds like you might be a wee bit better, and I'm glad you made it through without drinking. We aren't really on MWO at the same time much during the week, but I will check in tomorrow morning if you need anything.

Humble - glad to hear about your nephew. Car accidents are so scary. My oldest is going to be driving soon - scare me for sure. Thanks for your gratitude list. I'll put mine at the bottom.

Ava - love your pictures! Glad you figured out how do do that.

K9 and G - I took up crocheting once. I wildly made granny squares with the intention of making a blanket. I just tossed the whole lot after they spent years in a paper bag in my basement. I tried knitting and never finished even a scarf because I kept dropping and adding stitches. I needle pointed most of a pillow... In other words, I'm more of the safety-pin pants altering type myself. Good thing they have different cuts now, or I'm afraid I'd still be "pegging" my pants by folding and rolling. Hah.

My hobbies are - hiking (my 11 year old called me "addicted to hiking," and that's ok), skiing (when there's snow and my knee isn't bum), reading, cooking, crosswords and jigsaws, writing a blog (when I'm more comfortable here maybe I'll share), playing cards and other games, and swimming when I can. I wish I was a compulsive cleaner like I hear some of you are, but I most definitely am not!

Another visit with my counselor today. We talked about the emotional roller coaster of sobriety - I felt practically euphoric the first week and then a bit down the second. I know from all of my reading here (and Gambler's analogy in his 90 day post) that this will be a series of ups and downs - not a straight line. That is what is so helpful about a site like this. In all instances I can say I am not alone. This happened to ----- (fill in the blank). We also talked about being honest with my feelings about this (which I have been so far) - sometimes I'm sad and will miss my "friend" AL (well, not AL per se, but some of the situations I used to see him in), and that is ok because that is how I feel, as long as I don't use the sadness as an excuse to drink.

Ok, lovely ladies and gent - off to bed at the end of Day 16 (I'm a counter - need the milestones for now).

Tonight I am grateful for:
1. My husband who has been so supportive through this whole thing.
2. Finding the LoM thread and you all (well, J-Vo directed me here).
3. Having decorated the tree tonight totally sober - with my kids (and DH) who were hilarious and happy.

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MAE all

Mr G i am a pin person too or a go and buy second hand as i cant even be bothered to pin anything. my mum is a sewer and has 5 machines and she told me to sell them when she dies as she knows i wont use them. Sensible woman that one sometimes.

Went for the xmas lunch and it was lovely in the sun. Had a water and 2 lemon lime and bitters and felt very proud of myself. Did not even feel a twinge for a drink. I even went xmas shopping and no urge to buy al so all in all a good day.

glad everyone is doing well and seems reasonably happy. I am happy today but god knows what tomorrow will be like. The ups and downs drive me nuts sometimes but better than an al addled brain.

[giraffe1234]

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Hi all, so many interesting posts. J-Vo, Ive been toying with the idea of moderation, but after reading your and other posts - HumbleR, Available, etc I am quite sure that i will not be able to. It's either i drink or i don't. Had some lovely rare steak last night and couldn't help thinking how much better it would have been with a merlot (as i sipped sparkling water). The steak would have been better but i would not have been. Not worth it.
I want to try & get to 90 days, esp after reading what Pavati and paully said； hopefully it will get better. 51 days today. Would never have reached it if it had not been for the support of MWO buddies.
Good luck to all for the next 2 weeks. Im off to the West Coast and may not be able to check in regularly.

[HumbleRider]

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Hi all,
K9 and all who dabble in crochet, etc. I have finally determined that I prefer crochet to knitting. However, I prefer the finished knitting product to the crocheted one. Go figure. I also have a spinning wheel and spin yarn. That is very relaxing and rewarding for me.

Giraffe, great on the 51 days. I'm right behind you at 45, and I hope we stay that way. I've really enjoyed your guys' photos and look forward to more. About the steak and merlot, I've though about the Chardonnay with a good bread and cheese, ouch. Take that thought out right now! Replace with coffee and maybe an oatmeal raisin cookie. Just as satisfying mentally right now.

Just got in a tiff with my husband about religion. He's a guardian of the Christian status quo and I tend to be a pioneer of the faith. I'm so tired of letting myself be strapped down by what I feel is his dark age belief system. I swear sometimes he thinks he's God's mouthpiece on Earth. I used to drink to shut that out, now I let my anger get the best of me and end up looking the opposite of what I'm trying to be.