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Hello loamers

well NS were you trying to sneak that 400 in. Gees woman you deserve every bit of praise, you have more than earnt it with giving up al and helping us on here> i am sure if not for you words of wisdom and pm'ing me to keep me on track that i would not be on track. I have been known to go off on different tangents like i am now haha. I love you to bits girl and you are becoming an institution on here. wow that sounds bad!!!!!!!

LB i hope you are feeling ok today but keep telling us how you are going, you are a special woman on here and show me daily what determination is. Do not let anyone bully you or else we will all have to come visit you and put them in their place so our girl is happy.

LC i hope you did not eat all of my vanilla slice you made as i am having a cuppa and that would go so well now even though it is 9.30am. Keep those triggers at bay, they are evil when they come to the fore.

Pav it is so your 90 days here so congrats my friend. What a milestone we have achieved and if you are like me you will be smiling all day. go buy yourself a new bra like i did. Yet to get my lazy arse out of bed to shower and wear it though but i do have the new toothbrush to try out also. Oh small things amuse small minds!

Hello to all the quiet loamers, it must have been a busy Friday for you all but keep in contact, its the weekend for me so i need some good reading.

Well i went and bought some wool yesterday, bargain $1 a ball. Did think when i was there that i would love to knit a nice woolly cardigan. Now Ava, it has been over 10 years since you knitted how about we start with a scarf. Oh logical Ava you are so right. So i bought 3 balls of wool as stated and bought it home, decided that i would knit while watching tv and OMG its not real wool. Well it is apparently but has bobbles (which i knew) but its not normal knitting you have to go through a thread and ffs. Ok i can find the patience to do this, well i finally got the hang of it after the 10th row which means i have to undo it all and start again so it is right. why is nothing easy for me. Should have bought plain boring brown wool but they have some beautiful wool out there. I wanted to buy the whole shop so that i could have that wool and eventually put it in a cupboard and forget about it and then give it to the op shop. Maybe not this time!.

So that is my story for today and i am going to defrost the freezer and make some dishes up and freeze them, i am so lazy cooking, i hate it. My kids told me when they were older that i was a shocking cook when they were growing up and as i said "well you lived didnt you". I thought i was ok, not inventive at all but ok.

Take care guys and be safe on the weekend. Hope it is warming up for you all.
xx

[j-vo]

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:banana::applaud::loveyou: NS! 400 Amazing Days for an Amazing woman!

LB, I hope you're doing better. NS is right. And you are there to help them, listen to them, but not to be abused, ever. We love you and stay strong.

Life, I'm eating way too much lately. I've got to get control of this. No exercise either.

Ava, are you making me a wool sweater! Do you think I can have it by Sunday as we're getting another snowstorm. Thanks, love.

I just wanna give you this Humble...:l

[j-vo]

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Pav, own that sexiness in mom jeans! It's what you have underneath that counts!!!!

Hi Nar!! How are you?

[Pavati]

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Hi, Ladies:

Still on day 89, Ava. I'll let you know when to whoop it up.

I went back and answered everyone in the nest and now I don't have the energy here.

I agree with everyone though, Ican - that worm is in your ear and you're going to have to work to get it out! Come hang out with us for a while.

A hard day at work, but I don't want to drink. I want to exercise but I am finding every excuse in the book to sit here and do nothing (except think about what I want for dinner).

I like our new motto - I'm happy I don't drink instead of frustrated I can't. Words to live by.

I'll probably be back later this evening...

xo

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Nope Pav it is day 90, well if you were here it would be day 90. Not my fault you have to wait a bit longer.

I love the new motto, we cant deny these feelings of al and wanting it but knowing we CANT have it. Like a toddler wanting a lollipop and cant. So close yet so far away. Maybe we can start throwing tantrums.

I want the long 90 day speech when it is your 90 days or are you going to save it for a big big 100 like me, well longer than normal.

I am knitting up a storm, well a scarf and looking good!

[MossRose]

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NS - congrats on 400 days. I am so inspired by you on a daily basis. You rock!!

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Avail, I didn't know you were a knitter too. Knitting helped save my life. I used it in the beginning to keep busy and distract me from drinking. I knitted so many scarves that I couldn't give them away fast enough. Now I just do it out of love. I find it a form of meditation in some way...repetitive, and calming.

[j-vo]

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MAE Ladies,

Well, shaky night, but I'm ok. Let me start from the beginning, and hopefully this can help someone.
Before I do, I just need to say that the beast can try to strangle us at any point in time, no excuses needed, just a thought, a 'frustrating' deprivation thought. That's what happened to me again today.

I am concerned about the end of the month. Yep. My worries start long before, hence my extreme anxiety. Oh, my mind works on me like no other. Anyhow, the end of the month will be when DH and DS go to a baseball tourny in Florida, and I was going to go, but my personal days at work are dwindling and i need to look ahead to next year. So I decided it would be good to keep them in the bank. DS also has two more years of going to this tourny, so I know I'll be going next year.

Anyhow, my mind started early this morning, maybe late last night. I was thinking about getting antabuse for those days. Or even having them by my side if I have any huge struggle with the beast. I haven't made a decision on what I will do yet, but I'm going to continue to weigh the pos and neg. on getting this medication. I also thought that I would have it for vacation at the end of june where we'll be going to an all inclusive resort in mexico. This is a big party time in my mind, but I have to learn how to partake in activities that don't include alcohol. I was thinking if I had this medication, it would deter me and take that choice off the table completely, especially if I was the least bit wobbly. The downside to that would be I would start to become dependent on something else. Dependency is all in the mind, and my mind is easily swayed. I'm saying it would just be for vacation, but then I don't want to rely on it for weekends which have been notioriously bad situations for me, and then what if I had a bad day at work - would I need to come home and take one? You see the viscious cycle. So I still have time to think about this and I'll make my decision by the end of the weekend.

Ok, so all this thinking woke the beast up in my brain. Stupid addictive brain. It hears the word al and it's like my husband thinks he hears the word sex come out of my mouth. He starts chasing me around the house...DH and Al. Both are bitches at times. Anyhow, I had a depressing afternoon at work, thinking I wish I could, didn't put any gratitude thoughts in my head as i couldn't find them. All I had to do was log on here and I would have read some. But then came home and took a very long nap. Woke up miserable. Told DH I wanted to drink. DS was not here, or that would never have happened. Anyhow, he has specific instructions when I get this way. Just some things i told him to tell me extremely sternly, and it includes the word "fuck" but not for him. So he did it, I spoke to a few girls, and DH and I felt better almost instantly. It was a relief. So this was really the first time that I experienced reaching out and having someone help to turn my brain around. It really worked. And now I know that. I got through those few hours, pouting, not able to think, almost being paralyzed with al thoughts.

Ok, that's the story. I hope this helps someone by encouraging them to call someone or if your husband is like mine, and he's got a long way to go with strengthening his backbone, he may be able to help you through it. I think DH and I may have to role play a little more with this thing. Role playing MY way. Not his.

Goodnight.

[little beagle]

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Pav I am going to say congratulations already. Not sure what tomorrow will bring. Big parade day and all. So congratulations on 90 days.:wave:
My favorite post in the toolbox is the one on transitions. It really speaks to me. And pretty much what has been going on in my life.

Have you ever seen a snake shed its skin? We kept snakes when my daughter was growing up so I have. First you notice the eyes start to get milky, they become cross, they can't see, and pretty much just want to be left alone.
To me, a transition is very similar. I begin to look inward a lot, I am grouchy and somewhat self-centered, I feel all itchy and tightly stretched. And then that skin bursts open and a beautiful, shiny, new me emerges.
I have been a pill the past couple of weeks. Stretched tightly, self engrossed and well really somewhat disrespectful. No, getting a quick pop in the mouth is not the ideal way to handle that situation, it won't happen again.
We had a long talk about it at 3:30 this am. And some things are going to change. I told him I am not just going to lay down and take it like a kicked dog.
What you were talking about the other day Pav. How we stand up for ourselves so much better sober the we did when drinking. That is true. Case in point.
My life has felt somewhat like Ava's computer screen lately. Discombobulating.
But I would welcome you all anytime you want Ava. Knitting sounds busy. Inhope you have fun with your needles.
The Spanish Town Parade tomorrow. We went and got the yard roped off and I walked around the neighborhood with the dogs. It's all lit up like Christmas, but the predominant color is pink. Pink flamingos. Don't ask me why. I don't know. But everyone wears pink. Men dress up in dresses. Pink ones. Ladies wear skimpy attire. It is family oriented so no flashing or anything. We save that for Bourbon Street. My ladder is 6 feet with a pink stadium chair on top. Good thing I will not be drinking, huh?

[little beagle]

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J-vo missed your post. Glad you made it through.
Anabuse. To take it or not. I personally see it as a god send for my hubby. He takes 1/2 500 mg tablet occasionally now. Just enough to silence the beast. He took it daily, then weekly, now just when we talk about it which becomes less and less as time passes. One box of 40 500 mg tablets and I don't think we are quite half way through in 6 months. That's how it worked for us. :l
He was horrible, slurry drunk before quitting. Well me too, but he grabbed beer and whiskey on the way home arriving drunk and often hyper. It got to where we were ask to NOT come to social events. This is turned around. We really are living again. Its just going through this huge change is challenging. Hang in there ladies. Life is worth living again coming out the other side of this thing. Like Dorthy waking up in Oz. The world is fill with color never seen before.

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Moss i am a very novice knitter and get these urges to knit so i have started again and something to keep my hands busy. going to give up smoking at the end of april so i will be knitting lots of scarves. Just tell me a colour girls!!!!! I kind of stopped as it was too hard to hold a wine glass and remember where i was up to. something had to go and that was the knitting. i am quite enjoying it i must say.

Jvo so proud of you girl and for posting your feelings. I am one proud friend of yours. Why oh why do men have to think with the smaller brain that they own but at least he was there to help you and that was a good thing. A plan is always good but try not to over plan, i like your idea of ab as i am seriously considering getting some to go to thailand, mind you you can get anything over there but really not sure what you are buying. might be damn better than the ab i am thinking! He didnt give into you and you didnt give into al so WIN WIN situation both ways at the end of the night. you used your lifelines so you are learning new skills and that is what it is all about. i love you and am very proud of you dear friend.

LB "discombobulating" i love it and you make me smile girl. you are getting stronger and stronger in yourself also and thats a great thing. When we drank anyone could kick us and we felt we deserved it but not anymore. My kids used to ask me for money all the time when i was pissed and i would not remember until i checked my bank account. they were using me to their advantage and now they cannot as i dont drink. They found it hard that they could not get away with "blue murder" anymore as i am totally sober 24/7 and now i talk logically instead of screaming like a mad woman with a hangover from hell.

I wish i was there in my 6 foot ladder with you sipping on a coke zero and watching the fun. You enjoy it LB as you totally deserve it and i hope hubs comes to the party for you, you have given so much to everyone, including me and i would love to come visit one day.

xxxx

[little beagle]

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I tried to get HIM to wear a pink, ruffled, sun dress but no go. He is helping me to manage my loot as I catch it on my ladder in my shorts, pink and black vertical striped tights pink top, and a hot pink wig. I am saving as much as I can for throwing at doggie parade next year. It is hugly expensive to buy that much stuff. I think many people recycle the beads this way.

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Is there a web page or something on the net that i can check out and see what is going on?

Sounds like fun and cant understand why he would not wear a pink dress for the occasion! Not his colour maybe!

[narilly]

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Gals, I will post in the am, I am beat.

J-Vo, thanks for sharing.

LB, you are one strong woman!
Ava, I need a sweater if you could knit me one. It's -26 here going down to -32 tonight.

Pav you've got a big day coming up!

Can't keep my eyes open.

Xo

[Pavati]

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MAE, All:

LB and Ava - I wish I was up on a ladder in a pink chair with you all tomorrow, too. Have fun!

Here are the Loamers (or sig. oths.) in drag.



J-Vo - Happy you made the right decision and made it through. Maybe you could try role plays for both of you!? (nudge nudge wink wink)

I know that antabuse has helped many, and I also know it is a serious drug. Can you talk to your doctors, ladies?

Humble - you don't seem the gambling type.

Nar, sleep tight. You beat me to it tonight.

Good night, all.
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