I was in and out of a giant funk today - really anxious, sad, weird from out of nowhere, and then back to normal. WTF?? I ate well, slept ok, got exercise. Oh, well. Chalk it up to one of those days.
Are you guys having better days today?? I hope so. Drinking made it so I didn't completely feel the bad days but given its total nonselectivity, I missed many of the good ones too . Brene Brown's comment in one of her talks that when we numb ourselves from pain, we numb everything really hit home with me. Plus, there was all the negative fall-out from a numbed night anyway! Better just to feel all of it, right?
narilly;1643911 wrote: Pav, those two glasses of wine may sound nice but they are full of tension in my mind.
available;1644036 wrote:
I know i will be fine but i will just miss you guys. I feel like i am leaving my children not being on here. These are good emotions and i am gaining a bit more strength and resilience leaving loamers for a couple of days. Emotions that i have not felt for such a long time, sadness of going, happy to be going, confident in myself, instead of dreading what i am heading into for two weeks i am looking forward to the challenges to prove to myself that i deserve this life being sober.
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