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scottish lass;1645088 wrote: NS - I feel strange - I feel really good, and strong - better than ever! I am waiting for the to fall, as this almost feels too good, but I will keep this feeling.
I feel as if I can do this now....something has clicked, something is working - trying not to overthink it.....
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Guess what? Sometimes the next shoe never drops! The switch finally gets flipped and the person is a non-drinker! It really isn't too good to be true - it is just good .

[Dottie Belle]

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NS I want a LIKE button for that!

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Loamers,

well jet lag is a wonderful thing, fell asleep at 8pm last night, woke at 3am, mmm. the drag of sharing a room is that you dont want to annoy the other person but luckily mum woke not long after so we were up at 4.30am and now i am finally having a catch up read.

SL proud of you girl for beating your record, keep walking the walk, no need for a sip of al to pass your lips anymore and this af life is the best i have ever experienced.

LC lol Rod Stewart, no i am sure they were your own personal words to me. I am doing this holidy also for you to show it can be done with fun and being af. I was worried as you were 100+ days when you went but mum is actually being supportive (not saying anything) but did not suggest going to the bar for a drink. i would have gone and had a mocktail but i figure it is good for her to not drink either. Thank you for keeping me on the straight and narrow, you dont realise what you do for me personally at the end of the day.

Star welcome back, we are here for you, keep posting and posting and be a lunatic like all of us. Seems to work miracles.

Jane what a story, glad you are filling my shoes. My thoughts are one of sadness for your sister that she can be so evil/horrible and does not know how to act any other way for you i feel that by typing it is a way to let your hurt and anger and sadness go. we cannot choose our family, sadly to say. I was also angry that your sisters liver could have gone to someone who totally deserved it, sorry to say but that is how i feel. when my brothers liver was failing, my father wanted to donate some of his and i thought "why he is an alcoholic". What would he do with it, would he appreciate his being given another chance at life, would he carry on drinking as he had for the past 30+ years, would he change his life and be the brother i knew when we were children, would he stop being the selfish arsehole that he had become that his life was everyone elses fault and not his, would he stop crucifying me to make himself feel better about himself. I think the answers would have been no. I will never know as he died. Did i feel sad when he died, not really as he had ruined our love and relationship of when we were little. it was us against the world and then it was us flying solo. I tried to help him but one wants to help themselves and at the end of the day he wanted to drink. He has been dead 7+ years now and now i have forgiven him for hurting his sister/me. i know it was the al but he did not want to stop drinking, could not stop drinking, could not stop hurting the ones he loved. i had to break away and i did. Just like you have broken away as you cant do it anymore and nor you should. No one deserves to be treated like you have been. I am sending you hugs and i do hope you move on from her, cut the ties and put it in the past. she cannot hurt you anymore unless you let her. xxx Im loving these ava posts though, gives me a great read!
Loamers,

well jet lag is a wonderful thing, fell asleep at 8pm last night, woke at 3am, mmm. the drag of sharing a room is that you dont want to annoy the other person but luckily mum woke not long after so we were up at 4.30am and now i am finally having a catch up read.

SL proud of you girl for beating your record, keep walking the walk, no need for a sip of al to pass your lips anymore and this af life is the best i have ever experienced. I used to wait for the fall, thinking i cant possibly carry on this af life and i am waiting for nothing, it has happened, i just know i will not fall. i feel like i am at the top of the tree picking apples and i am sturdy and strong and i am not going to fall, well it will hurt and i am strong enough to keep hanging on.

LC lol Rod Stewart, no i am sure they were your own personal words to me. I am doing this holidy also for you to show it can be done with fun and being af. I was worried as you were 100+ days when you went but mum is actually being supportive (not saying anything) but did not suggest going to the bar for a drink. i would have gone and had a mocktail but i figure it is good for her to not drink either. Thank you for keeping me on the straight and narrow, you dont realise what you do for me personally at the end of the day.

Star welcome back, we are here for you, keep posting and posting and be a lunatic like all of us. Seems to work miracles.

Jane what a story, glad you are filling my shoes. My thoughts are one of sadness for your sister that she can be so evil/horrible and does not know how to act any other way for you i feel that by typing it is a way to let your hurt and anger and sadness go. we cannot choose our family, sadly to say. I was also angry that your sisters liver could have gone to someone who totally deserved it, sorry to say but that is how i feel. when my brothers liver was failing, my father wanted to donate some of his and i thought "why he is an alcoholic". What would he do with it, would he appreciate his being given another chance at life, would he carry on drinking as he had for the past 30+ years, would he change his life and be the brother i knew when we were children, would he stop being the selfish arsehole that he had become that his life was everyone elses fault and not his, would he stop crucifying me to make himself feel better about himself. I think the answers would have been no. I will never know as he died. Did i feel sad when he died, not really as he had ruined our love and relationship of when we were little. it was us against the world and then it was us flying solo. I tried to help him but one wants to help themselves and at the end of the day he wanted to drink. He has been dead 7+ years now and now i have forgiven him for hurting his sister/me. i know it was the al but he did not want to stop drinking, could not stop drinking, could not stop hurting the ones he loved. i had to break away and i did. Just like you have broken away as you cant do it anymore and nor you should. No one deserves to be treated like you have been. I am sending you hugs and i do hope you move on from her, cut the ties and put it in the past. she cannot hurt you anymore unless you let her. xxx when i get to phuket today i will email you some pics, what a clever girl you are. thank you.

Dot so glad you had some you time and bet you look great. i am a redhead but bottle one now or purple. i blame the kids sucking the colour out of me over the years, not that i am getting older at all. today when we get to phuket i plan on getting another pedicure, my calves are killing me after all the walking yesterday. i will let you know how cheap later on.

Jvo, never an hour goes that i dont think of you and all my mwo friends. hey i am nearly on here as much as when i was at home and you know what thats fine by me. I chat to my children when i am not shopping and i am okay as i miss them and i miss you all too.

NS im picking those apples at the top of the tree and i am not falling. i was a bit worried coming on this holiday but now i am a non drinker, i looked at the bottles of vodka etc and looked at the price and thought that it was so cheap but i did not want to buy any. i will buy some for my boys duty free but that is it. The switch has completely turned on for me but i will always be wary and on my guard. when we get to the resort today i will tell them i do not drink al. funny but yesterday i was in the lift and could smell the al on the person next to me and nearly wanted to puke. god i hope i do not turn into a reformed drinker like reformed smokers. ha ha. it feels farking fantastic.

Pav my love you have not a thing to worry about going away, we feel the same, experience the same and from me to you, you are a non drinker as i am.

well nearly 6am and breakfast time. making cups of tea for mum in bed and enjoying watching the sun rise. After our big shopping spree yesterday i nearly suggested to mum we go for a drink and then i thought no as it will not hurt her not to drink also and if she really wanted one she would have asked. i think she is secretly proud of me.

love you all so much and glad i am not missing out on anything. xxxx

oops something happened that post gone awry, i am not drunk and repeating myself.

[scottish lass]

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well now Ava - seems as if we wont get to miss you :l
NS - I wondered if it was at all possible for the switch to be flipped back. I agree DB - I like that post! Sounds like a lovely day for you - tip to toe all sorted!
j-vo, I am good at overthinking - problem is that it is bad for me Sorry about your smashogram - think i am due for mine..

[little beagle]

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Star glad you are here.
Dottie you sound wonderful.
Ava it sounds like you are having a wonderful time so far. I know your mother is proud. Who wouldn't be? You are working hard to make your life better and it shows.
Jane you are wonderful. I would want you in my corner for sure. Addiction is so ugly. We all have seen it. Your sister sounds like she personifies the worst of it. But that is not you sweetheart. You are kind, loving, giving. You should not feel bad for her badness. Feel good for what you are and what you have accomplished. I wish I could tell you an easy way to purge yourself of all that negativity, I can't. But I do know one truth. The longer you remain sober, the better you will feel. And this talk about being at the end of the Spectrum? Hey now, I thought little old me had that role. :l

[j-vo]

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Almost daily, when I'm reading everyone's posts, I think to myself, "Damn, I wish I would have said that!" What I really wanna say is that everyone's posts here are so meaningful, helpful, and encouraging. Everyone has something great to say, and I want to say thank you, girls. When I was in AA, I would hear the same stuff over and over. It got old. There were too many different walks of life (which is a good thing, too, as this disease doesn't discriminate) but I like having the age and gender similarities. We can really 'get' each other and offer the right kind of advice to each other. :l

[Myluck]

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Hi all, great reading here for me daily too! Great group. Today was a good test for me and my hubby. Ever since we quit, for the first time For my Husband's job we had to attend this fancy party in a fancy hotel. Cocktail reception followed by dinner! It was fun see other people consume and change - some changed not to the best! Lol! I had club soda in a glass with lime, and nobody noticed anything. My husband had water the entire evening - so proud for him, knocking on wood.

[Pavati]

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MAE, All:

Jane, your post was amazing from start to finish. I find myself (the selfish/ego/denial part) thinking - well, I never... One of the things that woke me up from that was reading through the "you know you're an alcoholic when..." thread. Yep, I did some of that. My "fear" of being "discovered" here in my "real life" prevents me from being completely honest on there for fear that the really bad stuff would then be public.

My first reaction was like Ava's - I was pissed at your sister for taking that liver and being such a beast to you. Then I reacted like - SL - I worry for you, that you are taking too much of your sister on to yourself. And of course, I agree with everyone else - you are a brave woman, both to share your story AND to have a story like that and still be such a cool person. You have a lot of self knowledge, and a great sense of humor - two very key personality traits IMHO. I'm sorry for your sister, too, as that life must not be too much fun.

I have been watching the show Cosmos with Neil deGrasse Tyson - the infinite universe is really mind blowing. I heard an interviewer ask him if contemplation of that makes him feel depressed and insignificant, and he said NO, it invigorates and excites him to feel an integral part of something so grand and amazing. To me that was a comment on perspective - how you approach life and the cards you are dealt is what makes you the person you are. THAT is where we have choice.

SL - I am really so happy to hear how great you feel, and to celebrate your milestone with you. Maybe you that shoe never will drop, and in the meantime, let us help you if it does. Let us help each other...

Star! Settle in. There's always room for one more. Stay close this time, and post if you're feeling wonky BEFORE you drink. We're here for you!

Dot - Redheads have more fun (Just ask Ava). One good thing in my genetics is that I don't have much grey hair at all. It is slowly creeping in, but I haven't dyed it yet. We'll see... I'm pretty lazy when it comes to that type of thing and would probably be walking around with roots if I started.

Ava! Glad to hear you sounding so great, and your mom being a sport in her own way. Hope we do get some pictures... I'm sorry about your brother, but it sounds like you have a good attitude about it. And yes, I am a non-drinker. I still looked lovingly at DH's beer as I put it in the fridge tonight, but it was fast. I will get past those short "cravings" one day, I'm sure...

LC - Big Rod Stewart fan! Love that song. I, too, think about your surprise slip - it is hard to watch that happen to someone you think has made it. But a cautionary tale, and now you're back strong as ever.

J-Vo - I appreciate you all so much! I agree that there are many times when I say - I wish I had thought of that. I want to reply in great detail to every post, but definitely don't have the time. (PS I love your new signature line).

LB (and Jane) - I think of it as one big pile of noodles instead of a linear spectrum - some of us are on the end of one noodle while others of us are on the end of others. No judgements, just truth!

MyLuck - good to hear from you and good to hear your husband is sober, too. I was wondering about him since you stopped talking about him. Awesome that you made it through that night with no problems! I have found that people don't really notice much about what others are drinking except those of us who are concerned about it...

OK, Ladies. Off to bed. I hope you all have fabulous weekends - thanks for being here for me!

xo
Pav

PS - NAR NAR NAR (in Ava terms) where are you?

[Running4life]

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Hi Ladies
Day 2 and feeling great today. Thanks for the idea NS, at the moment I am taking the pill in the morning and hubs is helping me. If I start to waver I will look for a PM buddy to help.
Just going to bed but thought I would check in. I am super tired. I was up early and out for a long bike ride thiis evening. It was wonderful.
Hugs, R4L

[Running4life]

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Hi Ladies
Day 2 and feeling great today. Thanks for the idea NS, at the moment I am taking the pill in the morning and hubs is helping me. If I start to waver I will look for a PM buddy to help.
Just going to bed but thought I would check in. I am super tired. I was up early and out for a long bike ride thiis evening. It was wonderful.
Hugs, R4L

[Running4life]

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Hi Ladies
Day 2 and feeling great today. Thanks for the idea NS, at the moment I am taking the pill in the morning and hubs is helping me. If I start to waver I will look for a PM buddy to help.
Just going to bed but thought I would check in. I am super tired. I was up early and out for a long bike ride thiis evening. It was wonderful.
Hugs, R4L

[Running4life]

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Sorry I don't know what happened. I couldn't get it to post and then it went three times.
I guess I am just impatient and tired.
Goodnight ladies.
R4L

[lifechange]

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Good Morning, Ladies!!
It's a cool, overcast Spring morning here, so we've decided to make it a lazy day-- which is just what the doctor ordered!

Star, well done on Day 1! I was so happy to see your name on the roll call yesterday. I hope you will make the Loamer's thread home. We need a Starfish here!!:l Is your avatar a photo you took? I've never seen such a huge one!

Jane, :l from me, too, and thank you for sharing. I don't recall ever having such a huge dislike/hate for someone, especially not a family member--so I can't pretend to know exactly how you feel-- but I do have a very hot temper and a deep, raging stream of anger, which is magnified, of course, when I drink. It seems like the best thing you can do for yourself is to find a way to let go of the hatred you have for your sister--Like NS said, it isn't your burden to carry. You did what you did out of love, and couldn't know how she would react. You couldn't let your sister die (or prob. anyone, for that matter) if there was a way to help. I hope you will find a way to free your heart from the pain..

Ava, so good to hear from you, dear! I think I would be having a massage a day.. bliss..Looks like we don't have to worry about missing the Gazette while you're away! I was a bit worried!:l

Ladies, thank you so much for the fabulous party yesterday. It was great that you could all come, because there will not be another 30 day party for me. No way, no how.

Pav, love what you wrote about the cosmos. I wish I could keep that sort of perspective in the forefront of my mind. I wish I could always have in mind that my problems are not the center of the Universe-- not nearly as big as I make them out to be. I really hope it comes with time-- You are sounding great, lovely lady..Oh, I also really liked what you said about us being a pile of noodles!

j-vo, you are also sounding so good, so strong! Today will be your last day 6 and tomorrow we can celebrate your last day 7 party ever! Right? I am so looking forward to it. I hope you have better food than I did. Did you all notice I served leftovers from the night before?:H sorry..

Big loving shout out to R4L, NS, LB, Dottie, Myluck, Marylou, SL!, and everyone else stopping by today.. if you are lurking, speak up!! The more Ladies, the merrier!! xoxo

[lifechange]

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Hi again!
Just watched the Today Show you attached, NS-- it was sad to see the play date moms drinking. They all look like they drink quite a bit more than they "should" and I would guess they all have a problem. I shudder to think of myself in exactly those shoes. The woman who came forward to talk about her alcoholism is very brave-- and it probably is true that if more people came forward, there wouldn't be such a stigma. I don't know if I will ever be brave enough to come forward publicly.? I always like to think I would if it could help others. But I guess I'm also not far enough along to imagine that I can trust myself not to go back on my plan.

[little beagle]

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Myluck good to see you. The first party and you did great af. Good for you. AND you hubby. Good for him.