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[narilly]

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Haha! I went to buy some tinted moisturizer at lunch time and they recommended NARS brand moisturizer. Kind of reminded me of my name on here. Narilly with an S. I thought that was funny! I think I may buy it :P

Hey, are any of you ladies breaking out? I have been breaking out on my nose, above my upper lip and right cheek ( I thought it was my left cheek because it is backwards in the mirror, it took me awhile to figure that one out) Anyway, the girl at the store said it was the lip balm that was making me break out around my lip. But I am not sure about the other parts. Anyway, its driving me nuts, I am not a teenager anymore!
In Florida, it was terrible. Maybe it is me cleaning out the toxins in my body? Not sure.

[j-vo]

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NS, I can't eat all the crap I used to and get away with it. I can feel a great difference when I eat healthy and not. I know if I overdo it by eating too much sugar or fat, my energy is sapped. More consequences!

So I was thinking on my treadmill about AA. When I went there, I was brainwashed into believing that if I didn't go to meetings or follow the 12 steps, then I would drink and die. Not only that, but a sponsor that repeatedly told me that I would never be successful with how I was working my program (I went to three meetings a week but didn't call her daily like I was suppose to. When I did call, she wouldn't talk and I would be expected to tell her how bad I was feeling - "Be honest," she said!) So, I had two choices in my mind. Try to control my drinking or live with AA. I chose to drink. I know MWO was here, and I was online while attending AA. I didn't have the connection I have now, though. But maybe I wasn't looking for the connection. I was made to believe that nothing could work except meetings. For a really long time, I thought they may be right. That would be the only thing that could save me. I believed MWO was a supplement to the real recovery program. Other alternatives to AA were just fluff and that the real deal was what I hated to face. Not anymore. And what I believe in, a balanced lifestyle, eating right, exercising was not important to the people I met while in AA. Sponsor was a huge coffee drinker and heavy smoker. She would balk at talk of getting a mammogram. Get to a meeting and not the doctor for a mammo!! Sorry. I'm sure other people had/have better experiences than I did.

[j-vo]

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NARS Moisturizer!!!! Hehehe!

[available]

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Morning loamers

quick check in as in bangkok and shopping till i am dropping. i managed to buy tshirts, shorts, tops, shoes, bagsf and incense and essential oils (candlemaking) for about $100. kids are going to love me. so today am off to buy shoes, more handbags, etc, just wish it was a bit cooler.

Jane i was ecstatic at 100 days, i never in my life thought i could ever do that and was so proud of myself but i have ups and downs. whats the point of all of this, i will fail, its just a matter of time, i cant stick to anything so why this? Will it be just a matter of time before i disappoint myself and my children? Each time i think of this i know the answer is NO i wont, i dont want to drink. Emotionally i can be all over the place but thats ok, ive never met anyone who is not at some stage.

Nar glad you are back on track and the girls have talked to you. You do get to a stage where you dont get unbelievable cravings/urges to drink. I just dont want to drink now, i know i cant as if i do i will be skulling that wine in the kitchen, hiding those bottles, being a horrible person and the one thing this holiday has shown me is that i was horrible when i was drunk. I was terrified of spending two weeks with my mum, the fights the negativity but i have learnt that without al in the equation the major problem was me, mind you mum did drink when we were together before so that was not helpful either as we both had issues with each other. No al, anger out of equation and we are getting along great, i will cry when i have to leave her and i never thought at the beginning of this holiday i would feel like this at the end.

When i stopped drinking my plan was not to drink, i have not written anything down, i have not saved anything, i dont have a list of do's and don'ts, ive watched some you tube vids and movies but i just decided i will not drink. What works for one does not always work for others. I dont struggle with al thoughts anymore thank god, occasionally i have thoughts which grab me "by the balls" but they go.

Rox sync your iphone on itunes and see how that goes or do a restore.

Well waffled on enough as usual. Love to all, be strong. Home Good Friday and will be exhausted as up for 20+ hours although not counting for "plane sleep" which is shit.

[j-vo]

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Ava,
That was such a great post. Take Al out of the equation and look at how it has positively affected your relationship with your mom. What a great gift sobriety has given you. Thanks for sharing that! We miss you!

[narilly]

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That was a good post Ava. Thank you. Wow, all that stuff for $100? That is pretty sweet. So good you are getting along with your mom. AL can Fark any relationship!

J-Vo, that is great that you have found a connection here. I feel the same way. If it wasn't for you girls, the advice and the resources I have found through MWO are amazing. I feel empowered. Thank you sweet ladies.
By the way, your sponsor sounds messed up.

5 University students were stabbed and killed last night here in Calgary. Our worst mass murder in history here. They were killed by a fellow student whose dad was a 33 year police veteran. My kids are around this age. We are in shock, this is so unbelievably sad.
We both went to University of Calgary and know hundreds of people who have.
Sad night here in Calgary and in Canada.

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Sorry to hear Nar, unbelievable what sends someone to kill others. I know the only thing that would make me kill would be if anyone hurt my children although i am sure i wouldnt. I'm just having a coffee with mum and watching BBC news and a ship is sinking with 350+ people and they still havent found that damn plane, which means i will be on plane look out on the way home. Gees!

Its suprising that even though everything is so cheap that the quality is great, lasts just as long as the stuff in Aus and probably made over here anyways.

Oh i forgot to tell you all that mum left her mastercard in the safe at the resort. The one thing i did not check. Then she thought she lost our plane tickets. Poor love was having a moment or ten. I had to ring the resort and ask them to see if the card was in the safe, now its rather difficult to speak to thai people even though they have a grasp of english. They found it, so ten minutes it took me to tell them to cut it up and throw it out, then rang the bank now that was hard figuring out what number to ring, talked to them as mum is deaf as a post so that was cancelled. I actually laughed at the whole episode (i had the tickets) whereas before i would have been so annoyed and bitchy and sarcastic that i had to do it all. Its these little things that have made my holiday so enjoyable. Oh she has enough money still to spend on me me me. she wants to buy me a nice leather handbag for my birthday. They cost about $80 over here for pure leather. BARGAIN. i told her not to bother as she paid for this trip but hey i really should let her shouldnt i?

xx

[narilly]

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Ava, Go for the handbag!!

[scottish lass]

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Good evening all, sorry I have not posted yet today - so much to catch up on.
Thank you all for your help last night. It was so reassuring (once I got over myself) to know that I could check in here, and there would be someone who was around and understood - and there was more than a someone - I got a lot of help, support and strong reminders to not do it!
I also don't like taking all the time, so next time someone else feels wobbly - let me give back please, so that way I can do this the next time I need to. As has been so well said, this is what we are here for - everything else that we get along with it is a bonus!
I am a bit worried - I had a more routine day today and am doing just fine, however summer is not too far away and the routine will be shot - I hope I get stronger before that occurs.
LC - sorry you feel that way, I am glad you are getting support - I am sending love:l
Nar - my slugging was straight from the bottle! I agree with Ava - there are many ways to kill this beast - what works for some will not work for others. I read with interest as to how others achieve success and take bits & bobs and have made what I have as my path as the route I am taking.
Jane - looking for the party tomorrow. I am looking forward to my 100 day party - so following in your footsteps here! I hope that maybe getting to the hundred will give you the boost that you need - I hope you get your zest back:l
Lots of posts here - sorry I am not addressing them all, but please know how much you mean to me, and how grateful I am to have you all part of my recovery:l

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Lifechange I am sending you strength to make the decision you need. Just remember we are here for you.
Jane you are so hard on yourself. You are doing so great and overcoming so much. It's not an easy road we travel. Please just think of a special way to mark tomorrow. 100 days is huge and I am so proud of you.
I am currently reading a book written by one of our fellow MWOers. It is a wonderful science fiction book. Touch The Stars: Emergence.
Have a great night all.

[j-vo]

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Morning Ladies,

LB, I'm gonna pm you about that book.

SL, don't think about this summer. Remember ODAT. K?

Ava, your second post made me LOL. Another gift for you - a change in yourself, in dealing with others who pissed you off but now you can laugh with them about the silly things that life throws at you. That's only one example of what sobriety can bring, but such a huge gift in my eyes. I'm able to laugh at silly things now, laugh at myself, and not take myself so seriously.

Nar, that's tragic and I'm so sorry to hear this. I hate to say this, but I knew something like this would happen after the stabbings here. Damn. The kids will go back to school officially today. Yesterday they could walk through the school with their parents. I thought that was a really good idea. Hugs to you friend.

Ok, jumping in the shower! Have a great day ladies.

[little beagle]

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J-vo have a good day.

[narilly]

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Good morning girls.
You know, I am really looking forward to my new journey with sobriety. I really learned a ton on my last slip and feel very optimistic about my future without AL.
I really would like to live my life from now on Sober.

My 50th will be a sober night for sure. I was waffling (my definitition of waffling means not making up my mind) before about the weekend after my birthday. I am going to a mountain town with my best friend and she said "of course we are having a drink, we are turning 50!". In my mind I thought, ok, I'll have just one. This is my best friend who I started drinking with and who used to totally egg me on when we were teens to drink to the point of puking. We always thought it was funny. Now she has no problem with drinking BUT I do.
Anyway, to make a long story short. I have no desire to drink that weekend now. I am going to tell her "I am not going to drink anymore, end of story" I don't care what she says. Hopefully she will be supportive and say. Ok, no problem. She is a very loving and caring person but can be a little pushy sometimes.

I have been listening to The Bubblehour on my way to work on my iphone. It is a great way to spend my 35 minute walk in. I have been learning so much more about Alcoholism, it is incredibly empowering to me listening to these women talk about their experiences and struggles with AL. There is SO much to learn. I thought I knew it all!

As I go further into recovery I would really like to help more people. Maybe like a NS apprentice or something

Talk to you later ladies.

Thanks J-Vo, Ava, I feel so sorry for the families that lost their kids. My kids are around the same age.

[j-vo]

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you, too, LB!

[j-vo]

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So busy bitching I almost missed Jane's 100th!

Congratulations, Jane! You made it to your first 100 days sober! So happy for you and glad to be on the journey with you!


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