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[scottish lass]

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Ava - this makes me smile - well done you, so happy for you!
You are paving the way for the rest of us.

available;1650021 wrote: Well today is the end of the holiday that i thought was going to be hell but turned out to be wonderful, relaxing and another part of the journey in the new sober me.

I will never have a sober 50th, but I will have a sober holiday this summer!!

Hi MR:l

[Marylou123]

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Hi Loamers!

Jane - Super duper congratulations on 100 days AF. You are an inspiration. Love you loads girl!

[little beagle]

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Narilly I'm so blad you are feeling posative. The switch has flipped? This is a personal journey for each of us the experience is different. -1And sleet you are walking in? You are one rugged individual. Come visit me and get warm.:sun:
Be safe Ava. I personally can't wait for those photos. And I agree beinf af makes live so much more enjoyable.
Have a great night all.

[narilly]

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Lil B, you were going to visit me, I promise it will get warmer.

Ava, so glad you had a nice trip with your mom. I am sure she enjoyed it too. You are doing so well, I'm going to call you Amazing Ava. I don't need AA if I have you

Anyway, this girl is tired.

Goodnight sweeties.

[j-vo]

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Agree with LB, Nar. Looks as though a switch has flipped! Whatever it is, I know it's a good thing.

So our spring break has been cut except for Good Friday which is tomorrow. I don't get too many sympathetic people except for maybe my parents when I tell them that!

Baseball game after school today, and it's suppose to reach 60 F. I'll take that!! Sorry Nar... -1 C sounds much worse!

I'll check in later. Have a great day all.

[NoSugar]

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narilly;1649984 wrote: Anyway, I am pretty excited about the prospect of staying sober. I hope this feeling lasts. I know I will have some up and down days but the idea of being sober hopefully wil always sound good

It is pretty exciting, Nar! Maybe you could hang on to that podcast and if that alcoholic voice starts talking to you, listen to it again then. I have a few podcasts (and books, articles, etc.) that I had found useful for various things that I revisit every now and then. For one thing, it helps me organize my thoughts the way I want them and for another, different ideas expressed have different meaning, depending where in a process you are. Some things that didn't seem important the first time around really resonate later.

I'm assuming you are talking degrees Celsius, right?? If not, I feel like a big weenie because there is no way I would walk around in April (or maybe anytime) at -1 F!

Good to see you, Moss. I've read some of your posts on other boards. All your experiences that led to you joining MWO and the ups and downs you've had since make you such an empathetic and kind responder to some of the people who are in such pain. We're all fortunate you are here :l.

J-vo, I loved that song and used to play it over and over and over. I enjoyed the Poseidon Adventure movie, too, but it is so sad that something similar is playing out right now in South Korea.

Ava, you'll probably be home when you're next online. I hope your flight was uneventful. I love it when flying is boring - I don't want any adventures at 35k feet! You have given us all a model for how to act when traveling on a vacation full of temptations. It is so wonderful that you were able to mend your relationship with your mom. I know you'll never regret that.

Keep strong when you get home! The big events sometimes are easier than day-to-day life because we know we need to be on red alert. Once things calm down it is so easy to slip into former (all the wiring still is there!) patterns. I know you are committed to your AF life but you know me, the Big Worry Wort and Alarm-Sounder .

So, Jane, how does 101 feel? Did your doctor notice that your health was generally better than the last time s/he saw you? I hope you're feeling great and motivated to keep on keeping on!

The MWO boards seem pretty quiet to me lately (so glad you were here yesterday, ML, SL, LB, Roxy!!). Pav, I hope camping has been relaxing and fun. It is interesting how we feed off one another's energy and when the level is low, that has effects, too. I guess that is a good reason to put as many positive vibes out there as we can.

Enjoy the long weekend if you get one and holiday if you celebrate! xx, NS

[narilly]

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NS, yes it is Celsius. This am it was -3C but is going to +10C, Yeehaww!!! We get pretty excited around here when it warms up.

These Bubblehour podcasts are really amazing NS. Seriously, I have found so many new ways to think about recovery. They talk about recovery all the time and just have a really neat perspective about this disease/problem or whatever you want to call it. I look forward to listening to it when I walk and also now when I take a bath. I am learning so much.
They had a podcast talking about tools used in sobriety and in the first episode they talked about a ton of books and some podcasts. I wrote some down and will post them later.
It was funny because I was writing them down as they talked about them and it was raining/snowing outside so my paper looks like it was put through the wash! People were looking at me like "why are you writing outside in this weather?" Just a crazy lady walking home I guess...

Well, back to work ladies.

XO

[Dottie Belle]

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jane I get it..I have been feeling off too..no clue why but every holiday I get this...no real family to be with just dh and I....no kids no siblings so I sometimes feel lonely and left out during all this holiday stuff.
I need a kick in the butt to get going....

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Hi, Jane

I'm sorry you're not feeling upbeat today. There are all sorts of normal reasons to feel better some days than others but in terms of AL, maybe it is the normal let-down after achieving a long-sought goal. Sort of like, ok I did that. Now WHAT?

If not drinking is pretty easy for you now (and I hope it is), maybe you're ready for another goal. (I'm almost always doing one experiment or another on myself ).

The variable moods can be pretty unsettling but I guess I'm kind of glad to have a normal range of emotions again - the good and the bad.

Do you have plans for the holiday weekend??

Hang in there, :h NS

[Pavati]

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Sweet Jane – (I love that Lou Reed song). HAPPY 100! It has been a true pleasure to get to know you here, and to read your funny, thoughtful, honest posts. I’m so glad you’re a loamer and on this journey with us – here’s to another 100! I LOVE your new avatar. I just read your post for today and I’m not sure what you’re talking about. If you’re talking about the sobriety advanced class, I’m with you. I have taken to doing what NS did – I follow the long-term sober people and do what they do. Eventually it will stick, some of it already has. We’re all trying to find our ways out – the paths are different but I can hear you all yelling in the distance to stay on my path and I’ll get there eventually. We’re here for you if you need anything more.

Ava – What a nice post to read about your mom. It makes me wonder which of my relationships have been affected by alcohol. I am almost always a happy drunk – if anything overly fond of everyone (think: “I loves youse guys…”) so I don’t think I have any overt fights to attribute, but I do wonder in which other ways things were different. Really great that you could have this trip! BTW: How do you make candles? And laughing at situations like your mom’s credit card is what I am striving toward. I can sometimes, but really life is too short to get annoyed at things like that – accept what you can’t change…

Nar – Wow. I didn’t think mass killings happened in Canada. What a terrible spring for violence. My sister is one of my best drinking buddies – we have overindulged and regularly indulged together many, many times over the years. She has been with me many times hungover and regretful as well. When I told her that I was “probably” not going to drink again (too hard for forever just yet), she was incredibly supportive. However, a couple of days later she did say she was sorry that we weren’t going to get to drink together any more. I think that those normies have a fear that we won’t be as much fun… I hope your friend understands, and you sound so great and full of resolve! (and aren’t we all NS apprentices?) Funny about writing things down when listening to those podcasts. I listen while hiking and keep thinking I’m going to go back but I never do. I’ll have to remember a pen and paper next time.

SL – J-Vo and I have talked about loving routine, too. I am with you on the summer thing – makes things weird. But by that time you will be two months longer sober – for now take it one day at a time. As the summer approaches we can help each other deal with the loose nature of it. We are going through spring break right now, and so far the lack of structure has been ok.

LC – Whatever you have to decide, it will work out. I wish you strength, too.

J-Vo – Blech about your colleagues. I find that idea of forgiveness so farking hard when people – TEACHERS – are bad for kids. WTF? Why did they even go into that profession? Good to get it out here, though. Was your spring break cut because of snow days? You have TONS of sympathy here. October and March are the hardest months in a school IMHO, and to not get a break is terrible! Sorry.

Moss – Glad you stopped by. What IS going on with you? I hope all is well.

Marylou – you, too. What’s new with you? I’m sorry about your DSD (I read a couple of days ago somewhere??), but I was thinking about it in terms of myself actually. Sometimes I am not the best at remembering things like that – call X because of Y. Now, I realize you aren’t just any old X, but I like to believe she is at least thinking of you…

LB – That’s cool that you’re reading a book by an MWOer. I wonder what other MWOers are out there – doing things that we don’t even really know. The podcast that NS posted said there are 25 million (? Is that number right) Americans in active recovery – that means we encounter someone every day (at least). I wonder these days who that is…

Dot – Here’s your kick in the butt… Hope you’re feeling better. It is funny – sometimes I long for no family during holiday times – there is so much pressure to do, say and be certain ways, and I just want to have it my way once in a while. There’s no pleasing everyone (least of all my in-laws but that’s for another post). Good to see you stop by.

NS – I like the idea of another goal. Mine HAS to be exercise. It is so easy for me sometimes and so hard when work gets so stressful and I get exhausted (which is actually when I need it most). I am ok on the weekends and vacations but need to fit in into my “regular” life better. What’s your new experiment??

Camping was really great. I had a longing for a beer as we sat down around the fire at night – very brief tug that went away quickly. I slept like a baby (it was car camping so we had some comforts like a thick sleeping pad and a real pillow). The last time I had been at that campground I drank too much whiskey (the kids were already asleep) and woke up feeling like SHIT. It was great to be able to recreate the fun without the booze! I still get that “is this really happening” feeling – but more frustration and shame about the stigma of recovery (which I am trying to rise above) than a desire to drink.

Good to be back with you all. More later I am sure…

Xo
Pav

[narilly]

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Jane, hope you start feeling better soon. Its hard to feel good emotionally when you are sick. Hang in there.

Pav, I don't know how many times I got drunk camping and felt like crap the next day. About a million. "oh it helps me sleep" We are going camping this summer with some fellow MBA ers and I am looking forward to being sober and really being able to have an intelligent conversation.

Ya, you know, I am going to talk to my friend. I wasn't going to disclose much but now I am thinking I will lay my cards on the table. I am sure she will be a bit surprised. I worry that she might argue and say that I don't have a drinking problem but I guess I will find that out.

Glad you are here Pav.

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Hey, Nar. The thing to be ready for when telling friends the truth is how uncomfortable some of them become about their own relationships with alcohol. It has changed the dynamic in some of my friendships. I don't think it is a reason not to speak up and in fact, it has turned out to be positive in many ways. My friends certainly drink less now - at least when I'm around.

Pav, you've probably seen this app: https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/7-minute-workout/id650762525?mt=8. I used it pretty often when I was trying to get back into exercise after totally coddling myself for months . I still do it a couple times a week when it seems like I can't find the time to go to the gym or take a walk. I upgraded to the paid app. The ability to adjust the intervals and reps was worth the whole $1.99 in my opinion.

[narilly]

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Thank you NS :h

[MossRose]

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Hi all. Just checking in. I just made a post I may regret, but it came from the heart. So of course, I ran to a safe place. LOL. All is well here. I am so sorry that I can't seem to keep up. I have been busy lately - very ill brother - but things are better. My days have revolved around going to work, going to the hospital, coming home and falling to sleep. I'll try to do better in the future. Hope everyone is well.

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I read it Moss. You spoke from your heart and told the truth. I hope she isn't too upset to understand your words - they could help her, I think.

Has your brother's health improved at all? Your parents must be so relieved to have you there. xx, NS