LB, you're right that we have to admit alcoholism and other faults to ourselves first. We can't move on if we acknowledge the truth. And you are strong and beautiful. Your post made me cry, as this is forgiving your mother and being happy for her is what heals us. I love you LB.
Just like I was always told by my family, aunts, uncles, cousins, everyone that I was so immature, it really hurt me. My older sister was the favorite of everyone. I carried that with me and created lots of other negative thoughts from it. Not only am I immature, I'm stupid, nobody wants to hang out with me, I must try to show them I'm not that. I'll show them! Painful, and when I found booze in the 10th grade, I thought I'd hit the jackpot with feelings that I'd never had before. It took away all of my pain.
Nar, the increase in alcoholic women doesn't surprise me with how our culture has changed and how much women have to do, perform, as a wife, mother, and professional.
Jane, keep reaching out for help. If one person said something that made you feel bad, let it go. It's not worth living with pain. Misunderstandings happen, and don't let that keep you from your healing, being honest with your feelings. You seem to be comfortable with us here. Let it out and we'll help you.
Have a great day ladies.
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