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[narilly]

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Narilly I really find it hard to watch others struggle so hard with al nowdays. All the effort to stop drinking was so worth it and now we no longer have to do that. It feels so good to be free. I want to share this feeling with everyone.
I feel great goday. A little peroxide and water in the ear knocked that right out.
I was thinking this morning about what it takes for people to reach the point of doing whst it takes to get and stay sober. I honestly think it has to become more painful to continue then to stop. As long as they are still getting that enjoyment out of it, they aren't going to stop.

Lil B, you hit the nail on the head! I think that is Exactly it! It is more painful to continue than to stop. Just watching my cousin trying not to drink beer after beer was painful. I was so grateful that it wasn't me having to struggle not to lose control and trying to moderate. THAT was so hard!!
When I read some of the posts here I can see the struggle and I see how far I have come and how my mind has changed about drinking. It is freedom baby!

SL, Yay, an audit...gotta love those! Hopefully they don't pull any charts of yours! We get audited here all the time too and it is a real pain in the butt.

J-Vo, I will Never leave here. This is my AA and it is working. Besides I love you ladies, my friends.

Ava, I had some Australian liqorice this weekend and I thought of you. It was Delish!

I am going to be getting an ipad or a mini ipad so it is easier for me to post at home. I have been using my iphone and it is a pain. My son hogs our home computer all the time so I would just like my own tablet or something.
Anyway, talk to you later!
xo

[narilly]

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Oh, Lil B, I am so glad your ear is better. Ear Infections SUCK!

My 800th post! I am getting closer to being a Senior Member. Yahoo!

[NoSugar]

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Sorry you have additional work stress, SL. It can be so dang tempting to "undo" that once you get home. Then if on top of that a family member has a problem, or the car needs something done to it... UGH! It's great that you're being proactive and preparing for the way you might feel later and how to handle it. :goodjob:

Hey, Daisy and Kailey, you're both sounding very positive. Enjoy the freedom! And even if you feel less than positive one of these days, all you have to do is not drink. Nothing else required .

You're so right LB that all the effort was worth it! The time I spent feeling tired and miserable because of not drinking was a fraction of the time I felt that way because of drinking and now I've had a good long time of not feeling tired and miserable at all.

Well, a service person just arrived. Laters - NS

[Kailey]

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Really feeling wobbly as the witching hour approaches, so I'm logging on from work for some reinforcement. Although I expected to find something that reasonated, I really did not expect to find so many different posts with people talking specifically about just hanging on when it gets tough.

Honestly, in the 10 minutes or so since I logged in I've gone from feeling hopeless to hopeful. I'll be heading home from work soon and will log back on if I need to. This place is a miracle. I can make it another day.

[j-vo]

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Evening Ladies,

I was reading LB's response on Pinecone's thread, "Giving it time" because I like to see what my girls are talkin' 'bout on the threads upstairs. LB, I had an epiphany as I read what you posted...

I had a really long drinking dream last night. It just felt so REAL. I even passed out and awoke in my dream. Oh no I have to start over, I thought. It really was a devastating thought. And then I really woke up, yet that feeling of how terrible it would feel to give in and start the struggle over has continued throughout my day. I truly am grateful for those times when I did just "hang in there" because it was the only thing I could do, the only way I could get through it.
Many days I still just hang in there, and not on just the al front but on other areas of my life that haven't been so easy. This has at least taught me perseverance.
Just Hang In There my friends.

I want to thank LB, because it just struck me as I read this that a relapse now would devastate me so much more than it ever had. In the past, I didn't care when I got to that point of "I don't give a shit" attitude. I never knew what it felt like to like myself as I'm discovering now and how it feels to see things through sober eyes, So many times, I didn't give it enough time. If I'd only pushed just a bit longer, I might have gotten to this point a long time ago, what they call the "switch." Even though I had those slips (sorry, NS but had to use that word), it didn't affect me as much as it would today, because now I know what it's like to like myself. Keep pushing through the days, because that switch will happen for you. Give it time!

[j-vo]

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Kailey,
Just hang on! Just get through today. That's all you have to do. I'm glad you decided to come on and read! The perfect solution!

[j-vo]

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And I realized that I just reposted my epiphany in three threads...I guess it means lots to me. So, again, thanks LB!

[NoSugar]

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Slight edit :

j-vo;1663095 wrote: Even though I had those times when I chose to drink despite the fact that I had promised myself I wouldn't and even though I had been loving the AF life and despite intellectually knowing the consequences but none of that mattered because my addiction had seized control of the real person who I know I am, it didn't affect me as much as it would today, because now I know what it's like to like myself. Keep pushing through the days, because that switch will happen for you. Give it time!

[scottish lass]

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Narilly - sadly they are all my charts - the joy of being the boss!
Kailey - I often check on before heading home as that is a really hard time for me - my car was on automatic pilot to take me to any of a few stops on my way home. Well done for checking in - it works for me - and I am off to hit the road, auditor just left the building to return tomorrow!

[Kailey]

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Thanks, SL! It did work. I'll be honest, I was very afraid it could go the other way, but I'm safe for tonight.

I feel for you with that audit. I also work in an industry that is subjected to audits, some by CMS. No fun!

[patrice]

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Hi Ladies,
I'm back again, a long absence but I'm really inspired with all your stories is success.. I have been reading!!
Sigh.. I'm back to day 1 and will post daily
NS and Ava , thank you for the PMs
Xx
Pat

[NoSugar]

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Great to hear from you, Patrice! We've missed you :l.

[daisy45]

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Kailey, that is how I felt 8 days ago when I came back.....like anything you needed to hear was posted on cue that day - the wonders of this forum and the people who are on it! So grateful today.....

[Kailey]

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Hi, Patrice! I remember you!

I just have to say how happy I am at the moment. I've got to remember this. Two hours ago I was ready to give up. I had a fairly miserable hour, but then once I realized that I was going to make it...pure joy! I'll trade that for a boozy evening and all the misery it brings with it any time!

[j-vo]

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:woot:Hi Patrice,
So super glad you're back! We're building our days and glad you're here so we can support each other.

Kailey, your post made me smile from ear to ear. That's freakin' joy! Realizing you're not going to go to bed half tanked or even a quarter tanked and will wake up tomorrow feeling fresh. Now you get to enjoy something on the tube or do something youwant to do. Your time won't be taken up by drinking.:dancin: Maybe like dancin'!!!

SL, thoughts are with you. I don't know what it's like to go through that, but I do know what it's like when we had our special education audit and they came in and went through files, looking at dates, asking questions. That was a bit scary. So hang in there girlie. :l

Daisy, you're days are building up! What a funny story earlier today! OMG, you, K9, Byrdie had me lol-ing so hard I was crying.