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[giraffe1234]

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Well done on 13 days Patrice!
And a brilliant job on 500 NS.
Love you all and good night.

[narilly]

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J-Vo, it was hard but don't get me wrong. I WAS grateful not be drinking. One glass is never enough, all y'all know what I am talkin' about! Ya, but there was still part of me that was yearning...

I was watching my friends and thinking that they were ok just having a glass two because they were being 'silly'. OMG...give me the bottle! I know I would have drank about 4 glasses and then got them to drink more because I was drinking more. Gross!
I am grateful J-Vo, grateful that you care about me enough to write that nice note above. xo
Yup, rewiring that brain. Our brain's deserve as much love we can give them right now. AL has put them through the ringer!

Good Night Giraffe, Hey! 193 days!! Way to go. Bear hug from me

Talk later.

[little beagle]

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Wow Jane. I am glad you made it through that stressful dinner with your dad. And glad you shared that experience with us. Just think how crappy a hangover would feel when we are in our 70's. I am glad to quit now.
Narilly you made it through your dinner with people going on about how wonderful the wine is. That's hard, but I think waking up feeling like crap is the hardest. After everyone is served and starts drinking, the moment passes and I just get on with having fun.
Nowadays when I go out with my daughter and she has a couple of drinks, I think it's sad. I watch her eyes before that first drink and after it. Something changes. It's like the life drains out of her. I truly am grateful to not have to do that any longer. I enjoy my sober life.
I think Spiritwolf's gratitude thread has really helped my attitude of gratitude.

[narilly]

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Well, bed time here. I am pooped.
Ya, Lil B, waking up with a hangover is the last thing I want to do. That is kinda sad to see your daughter change like that because of AL. Too bad you couldn't give her your wisdom, been there done that, right?

Jane, that was quite the Gazette. Your dad sounds like my hubby's dad. He loves his booze.

I know, I know, my mini should be here day after tomorrow! It went from China to Alaska to Toronto to Nebraska to Vancouver! Holy crap, it's travelled more than me!

Well, all that traveling made me tired.
G'night.

Pav, good night sweetums

[Pavati]

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Hi, All:

Jane - did I miss you post about your dinner with your dad? I can't find it. I hope it was all ok.

J-Vo - I'm with you - I can go into deprivation mode. Mostly with the first drink, or when they all start passing glasses around to "taste this delicious wine" or whatever. Then I settle in to the evening, keep pouring my bubbly water, and I truly AM grateful that I get to drive home, sleep well and not wake up with the sweats and anxiety at 3am. I agree with LB that Spirit's thread really helps, and no, I absolutely can't consider a hangover at 70. So happy I am tackling this beast now...

Patrice - are you at 14 yet? Two weeks!

SL - I am thinking of you and hope you are ok.

Nar - Glad you'll get your mini. It is very difficult for me to post because our apt. is small and kids are wandering to and fro - I don't want them to see what I am doing (not there yet), so I click over to my Facebook tab. They must think I'm some weird Facebook stalker. I have to come up with plan B. I can't use my phone, too frustrating for me.

DS is bugging me again - I'll sign off now.

xo
Pav

[NoSugar]

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Maybe you need a miniPad, Pav .

Jane, I enjoy your rambling musings - if anyone doesn't, they don't have to read but I bet most people do.

The comments about drinking at 70 reminded me I used to think about how I'd surely have to be done drinking if I ever wound up in a nursing home. How sad that that aspect of something I totally dread sounded good. I'm so glad to having gotten that done on my own! Might increase my odds of never being institutionalized, I hope.

Hey, good to send you Giraffe! What's been going on with you other than racking up those glorious AF days?

[giraffe1234]

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Hi all

Nar, I used to be exactly the way you describe: I did not count glasses, I counted bottles. Omw and trying to pace myself so that it would not be so glaringly obvious that I drank more and faster than anybody else, including the men at the table.
And I dreaded being an old drunk (don't know what I dreaded more, the old or the drunk).

NS: been going to the gym dutifully. The college where I work is sending me to Germany for 2 weeks at the end of the month (lucky me!!!), and I need to be fit for that. I'm told we're going to do a lot of walking, both city walking and in the Bavarian Alps. I'm really looking forward to the trip, and I am mentally preparing myself for the onslaught of beer-drinking and "schnappsing" that I will not be partaking in.
Apart from that work work work: single mom with 2 kids at university - I'm sure you can imagine the sorry state of my finances.

Anyhow, it is wonderful to see the ladies are doing well; and it remains an inspiration to read the posts and share everybody's experiences.

xox

[giraffe1234]

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Hi all

Nar, I used to be exactly the way you describe: I did not count glasses, I counted bottles. Omw and trying to pace myself so that it would not be so glaringly obvious that I drank more and faster than anybody else, including the men at the table.
And I dreaded being an old drunk (don't know what I dreaded more, the old or the drunk).

NS: been going to the gym dutifully. The college where I work is sending me to Germany for 2 weeks at the end of the month (lucky me!!!), and I need to be fit for that. I'm told we're going to do a lot of walking, both city walking and in the Bavarian Alps. I'm really looking forward to the trip, and I am mentally preparing myself for the onslaught of beer-drinking and "schnappsing" that I will not be partaking in.
Apart from that work work work: single mom with 2 kids at university - I'm sure you can imagine the sorry state of my finances.

Anyhow, it is wonderful to see the ladies are doing well; and it remains an inspiration to read the posts and share everybody's experiences.

xox

[giraffe1234]

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Forgot to mention; I had Tiramisu dessert at a buffet dinner on Sunday, and realised after the first (mercifully very small) bite that it was drenched in some kind of alcohol.
Did not touch the rest of it, and of course I had to have two huge servings of chocolate mousse to get rid of the taste in my mouth. Boy, that was the most heavenly choc mousse, and a perfectly valid reason for going back for seconds.

[little beagle]

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Giraffe have fun in Germany. At least you won't feel like crap doing all that walking. That chocolate sounds delicious.
Pav it sounds like you are having fun with the kids though. I know reading and posting on your phone sucks. I did it for 9 months. Then I got my tablet for Christmas.

To me alcohol was a self imposed prison. The last 5 years I drank were the worst times of my life. Before that I use to wake up in the early morning with the sense that life was full of endless possibility. Somewhere I lost that. All that was left was a feeling of numbness. I felt dead inside in a way I never had before. Now I am not a people person, I don't enjoy doing things with huge crowds involved and I have always been somewhat of a loner. But alcohol made me totally push everyone out of my life.
No that wonderful, magical feeling did not return the minute I stopped drinking and I still do not have any friends who stop by for a visit, but wonderful things are happening inside. I feel life returning. About 2-3 months ago I noticed the return of that feeling that something wonderful was just around the corner. That little catch of excitement.
This to me is what not drinking is about. Like Byrdie says. It's just a poisonous substance in a glass.

[patrice]

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Hi Girls
Quick check in, all ok on the 13th day and evening, the moon has just risen and it's looks like full moon soon!!
So tired, just can't wait for the holidays
Take care
Xx
Pat

[patrice]

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I love your post LB - thanks for posting because yes the last couple of years for me too have felt like a hamster on a wheel,going round and round to nowheresville in ever decreasing circles...
I don't yet feel the joy and open possibilities yet but I trust all of you when you say it gets better and better. I believe that.. I have felt really free theses last 13 days and I'm happy to be sober tonight
Pat

[patrice]

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On iPad mini= spelling mistakes

[daisy45]

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Hey all, been out and about this past couple of days - took me a couple of hours to catch up.
Day 29 and all ok.....will ckeck in later.....

[giraffe1234]

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Hi LB, I'm just stopping by to say hi, and to say it's lovely knowing you! Thank you for being a friend and for your consistent support.
xx